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#148 Birds (part 2)

I've done cooking ramen for dinner. Even though the soup is extremely hot, and the steam coming up to my face, I can't forget thing that occurred a moment ago.

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"I didn't kill them! Mom did! Please believe in me!"
] end of flashback.

"Haaaaa," long sigh escaped from my lips.

I shouldn't get involve in Master Junhui's matters. In the first place, I am simply an employee and the rules also warned me to stay away from his private life.  However, the fact that that man finally shows different expression, even talking to me after those 180 days I'm with him, made my heart fluttered. This fluttering doesn't mean I am excited, in-love or whatsoever. Just...it is just... I felt pain I never felt before.

Head master was right, it was my fault responding to Junhui's appeal.

Speaking of head master, isn't it the time he arrived home? It's getting late. Also, the ramens got soggy, what a waste.

I bet he still didn't have his dinner and...

[flashback=

"Good thing you calmed down," head master mumbled after kissing me.
]end of flashback.

My fingers traced my lips. I remembered how soft it was, how delicate it was and how hot it was. Minghao lips are so addicting. I can't imagine him, sacrificing his first kiss to calm me. He maybe regretting it now, aaaahhhhh. I'm so idiot.

"I'm home!"

"Oh sh--" I almost cursed in shock.

In my surprised, I saw Minghao from behind. He is taking his necktie off as he looked at me innocently.

"Why do you look so surprised? As if you saw a ghost," he complained and put his amerikana above the couch.

"I-It is because, you came without making any noise," I explained and took a breather.

"Ahh," he responded with this short one word. Minghao sat down and just stared. That's right! He just keep on staring  while his face is expressionless. I can't read his thoughts at all!

"W-Why?" I asked. "Perhaps you are hungry? I made ramen. Want to eat?"

He took a glanced on the bowl of ramen I set aside above the table. "Do you expect me to eat that ramen? It is so soggy."

Ahhhh. Right. He hates soggy noodles.

"Hmmm, sorry. I will make another one."

"No. I'm okay. Besides, I don't have appetite at all."  Minghao looked away and unbutton the three buttons of his shirt.

The conversation between us... I know it became awkward.

"Minghao. About the thing that happened between Junhui and I, do you think it is okay to let it slide when-"

"Stop," he commanded in strong force. Now he looked back again, this time he looks serious. "Junhui is our master. You and I are only a servant of his family. Whatever affair he have, we are just a pawn; always watching from a side. Don't ask. Don't dig in their life. If you want to stay peaceful and alive in this world, you must learn how to shut your mouth (y/n)."

I clenched my fists... before I faked a smile. "Yeah. Sorry Headmaster...I mean Hao. Let's change our topic."

"Hmm."

"Your room... it still not fixed. The sofa is so uncomfortable for you to sleep on. So, just sleep on my bed and I will sleep on the  sofa ," I offered as I took off my apron.

"No," he declined. "You can't sleep here on the sofa. Let's just sleep together like before when we were young... huh cousin?" He said before he stood up and went inside my room.

Cousin.

Minghao is my cousin. We live together when we were young, and he feels like a good brother to me. But after he kissed me a moment ago, how will he expect me to react?!

Before, I never saw my own cousin as a man. A cousin is a cousin; the truth I only knew and the truth I must have a fate on. But what is this strange feeling? My heart is aching so bad.

Time passed by.

We are here inside my room, above in the same bed and sharing one blanket.

If my heart keeps beating this fast, I might die in suffocation!

"Minghao. Cousin. Still up?" I asked.

"Hmmm," he mumbled.

I turned around and faced his broad shoulder. "Do you remember? When we were young, we used to sleep like this. You told me some stories, and then I fell asleep on your arm. I think sleeping together with you like this, bring back good memories," I said sincerely. It helped me calmed down.

"But we are not kids anymore," he reacted, still has his back against me.

"T-That's right. We grew old."

"Do you want to bring it back?"

"Huh?"

"Sleeping together like before."

"Eh? What do you me--Oh!"

Minghao suddenly turned around and hugged me! His arms wrapped around my body. He pressed his lips firmly on my neck. Minghao's body is so warm, and his hug feels like he is protecting me. At this moment, my heart is about to burst. From excitement? Being frightened? I don't know. I don't know.

My mind went blank, left by only thoughts of his scent; my cousin's scent.

"Remember?" He mumbled. Damn, his breath tickled my skin. "We hugged all night like this. Also, your feet were always cold. So you used to crossed your feet around my legs. Come on, let me warm your feet cousin."

Minghao's feet reached mine. He is teasing it, brushing it; making me shivered!

I can't...

I can't...

I can't take this anymore!

"Hao I...!" I shouted after pushing him away. While I am breathing in and out, we met each other gaze.

I sat up and fixed my hair, making sure I can avoid his burning eyes on mine.

"I-I will sleep on the sofa," I excused and about to run away.

But Minghao  grabbed the tip of my shirt. "Damn you," he cursed.

My eyes widened. I never expect him saying those wicked words for me. Is he really the Minghao I knew?

He moves closer, more closer until I feel his head leaning against my back.

Ahhhh, there goes my heart again. It hurts so bad! Even clenching my chest won't help at all!

"You are a wicked girl," he whispered. "My desire to touch you reached its limit."

Desire? Huh? Does it mean?

"I love you. I love you cousin. I always do."

"M-Minghao what..."

Before I completed my words, he pulled me backward and I found myself sitting on his lap.

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