A Love For Keeps

Promises

(AHNZONG)

Yu said he doesn't know if he is a trans. I don't know who is ignorant between us. Me, who is still confuse about everything he had shared or him who is not sure about who and what he is.

Either way, Yu and I are both adults. We passed the legal age to get roaring drunk. We have jobs, we earn our own salaries. And we also graduated with degrees in Education.

I think between the two of us, we can figure this one out.

"Okay," I sat straighter on my chair. "What exactly do you know?" I asked Yu.

"I am a girl inside a boy's body. That's it." Yu replied quickly and without thinking. Which means it's his absolute truth at this moment.

"Okay, then that's who you are. You are a girl inside a boy's body. Let's stop there. What else?" We can leave out labels for now. Girl, boy, gay, trans...we can figure that out later. I need to know more so I gave him an expectant look.

Yu frowned, "What do you mean what else?" He looked confuse at my question. Which is bad. If I am confuse and Yu is confuse as well, we will not go anywhere.

"What else can you tell me about yourself? What do you like? Who do you like? You like guys?"

Yu nodded, "I am a girl. I like guys, of course."

"Okay," I nodded. "You...like men. Eh? Did you liked me?" I put a hand on my chest.

Yu smiled at me before nodding. "You were one of my secret crushes." He said before chuckling giddily.

I am...his secret crush?

"That...wow..." I laughed. Yu's chuckles turned to laughter. And suddenly, I felt better. Yu laughing means he is getting comfortable again. And I like Yu when he is relaxed and comfortable.

"Were? Past tense?" I asked him after the bout of laughters between us.

Yu gave me a pinched look, "You are a jerk, AhnZong. You said so yourself. Besides, I know things about you now. Disgusting things..."

"Oi! Feng Jian Yu..." I felt slightly offended.

Yu laughed again. "Hey, admit it. You are dirty. Loud. Tardy. A basic asshole. I lost my crushy feelings on you when I learned how you prepare for a date. Ugh! You don't even wash properly. Hey, AhnZong ah, a fifteen minute shower is not a shower..."

I cannot believe him. And I cannot believe he said "crushy feelings" like those words put together is a real thing. "Why? How long do you wash yourself?"

"An hour...at least." Yu said before pursing his lips on me.

An hour?! Wow...he IS a girl.

"Okay, fine. You are not crushing on me anymore. And so...who do you like now? Wang Qing?" I asked him.

Yu got quiet. Then he sighed. "I don't know. He...said he likes to date me. He..."

"Does he know? About you being..." I waved my hand on Yu.

He nodded. "He knows. And he doesn't care. Actually...Wang Qing is gay. And I am not sure if I did the right thing by saying that to you but there it is. He...has a semblance of understanding what I am going through..."