"Text Me" (Camren)

one hundred and seven.

"I'm scared." "You'll do great. I know you will." Camila rubbed Lauren's shoulders to calm her down as Bea Miller was on the last song of her set before Lauren went on. "Lauren! Stage time now!" Normani called as she approached them. "Good luck kiss." "You can't." Normani shook her head. "Why not?" Camila asked. "Make up." "Kiss my cheek instead." Lauren turned her head and Camila kissed her cheek. "Good luck, not that you'll need it." "Thanks baby." Lauren smiled before standing on her platform. Cheers erupted in the stadium when Lauren rose to the stage. "My hands are cold, my body's numb. I'm still in shock, what have you done? My head is pounding, my vision's blurred. Your mouth is moving, I don't hear a word. And I hurt so bad, that I search my skin for the entry point, where love went in, and ricocheted and bounced around, and left a hole when you walked out, yeah." Lauren paused and smiled slowly as she looked out into the crowd. "I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room. Can anybody help me with these exit wounds? I don't know how much more love this heart can lose. And I'm dying, dying from these exit wounds. Wounds! Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping. Exit wounds. Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping. Marks of battle, they still feel raw. A million pieces of me, on the floor. I'm damaged goods, for all to see Now who would ever wanna be with me?"

Camila.

"I've got all the baggage, drink the pills. Yeah, this is living but without the will. I'm backing out, I'm shutting down. You left a hole when you walked out, yeah. I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room. Can anybody help me with these exit wounds? I don't know how much more love this heart can lose. And I'm dying, dying from these exit wounds. Wounds! Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping. Exit wounds. Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping. Lose your clothes and show your scars that's who you are. Lose your clothes and show your scars that's who you are. Lose your clothes and show your scars that's who you are. Lose your clothes and show your scars that's who you are. Marks of battle, they still feel raw. A million pieces of me, on the floor. I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room. Can anybody help me with these exit wounds? I don't know how much more love this heart can lose. And I'm dying, dying from these exit wounds. Wounds! Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping. Exit wounds. Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping.." "Hi Denver." Excited screams filled the air making Lauren smile and have her a chance to catch her breath. "I'm really excited to be here in Colorado for the first show of my new tour. It's my first time out here and honestly, I feel like I need some love..cause God damn, there's some Terrible love around this world. Here we go, sing this ballad with me Denver." Camila smiled as she watched. She loved this song. "It's a terrible love that I'm walking with spiders. It's a terrible love that I'm walking in. It's a terrible love that I'm walking with spiders. It's a terrible love that I'm walking in. It's quiet company. It's quiet company. It's a terrible love and I'm walking with spiders. It's a terrible love that I'm walking in. It's a terrible love and I'm walking with spiders. It's a terrible love that I'm walking in. It's quiet company. It's quiet company. It's quiet company. And I can't fall asleep without a little help. It takes a while, to settle down. My shivered bones. Until the panic's out. It takes an ocean not to break. It takes an ocean not to break. It takes an ocean not to break. Company. It's quite a company. It's quiet company. But I won't follow you into the rabbit hole. I said I would. But then I saw your shivered bones. They didn't want me to. It's a terrible love and I'm walking with spiders. It's a terrible love that I'm walking in. It's a terrible love that I'm walking with spiders. It's a terrible love that I'm walking in. It takes an ocean not to break. It takes an ocean not to break. It takes an ocean not to break." The next song, a slideshow behind her of videos showing fans hugging and crying together at various shows, Lauren meeting fans and hugging etc as she started. "God knows what is hiding in those weak and drunken hearts. Guess he kissed the girls and made them cry. Those hard-faced queens of misadventure. God knows what is hiding in those weak and sunken lives. Fiery throngs of muted angels. Giving love but getting nothing back, oh. People help the people, and if you're homesick, give me your hand and I'll hold it. People help the people and nothing will drag you down. Oh and if I had a brain, oh and if I had a brain. I'd be cold as a stone and rich as a fool that turned all those good hearts away. God knows what is hiding in this world of little consequence. Behind the tears, inside the lies. A thousand slowly dying sunsets. God knows what is hiding in those weak and drunken hearts. Guess the loneliness came knocking. No one needs to be alone, oh singin' People help the people and if you're homesick,
give me your hand and I'll hold it. People help the people. Nothing will drag you down. Oh and if I had a brain, oh and if I had a brain. I'd be cold as a stone and rich as a fool that turned all those good hearts away. Nah naaah nah nah naaaaahhhhhh ooooohh. Nah naaah nah nah naaaaahhhhhh ooooohh. People help the people and if you're homesick, give me your hand and I'll hold it. People help the people. Nothing will drag you down. Oh and if I had a brain, oh and if I had a brain. I'd be cold as a stone and rich as a fool. That turned all those good hearts away." "Now guys, we all have our demons. They come out when we're alone, right? Well let me tell you something, you're not alone. You are never alone. There is always someone, and if you think you're alone, turn on my music. I'll be there for you. It's easy to push people away. I know, but please try not to do that. Because the right people will pull you through whatever is going on." Lauren bit her lip and took a deep breath. This was one of the most difficult songs on the album. It was written in a very dark time. Before she met Camila. Before things started to get better. "When the days are cold and the cards all fold and the saints we see are all made of gold. When your dreams all fail and the ones we hail are the worst of all and the blood's run stale. I wanna hide the truth, I wanna shelter you. But with the beast inside there's nowhere we can hide. No matter what we breed, we still are made of greed. This is my kingdom come. This is my kingdom come. When you feel my heat, look into my eyes. It's where my demons hide. It's where my demons hide. Don't get too close, it's dark inside. It's where my demons hide. It's where my demons hide At the curtain's call it's the last of all. When the lights fade out all the sinners crawl. So they dug your grave and the masquerade will come calling out at the mess you made. Don't wanna let you down but I am hell bound. Though this is all for you, don't wanna hide the truth. No matter what we breed we still are made of greed. This is my kingdom come. This is my kingdom come. When you feel my heat look into my eyes. It's where my demons hide. It's where my demons hide. Don't get too close, it's dark inside. It's where my demons hide. It's where my demons hide. They say it's what you make, I say it's up to fate. It's woven in my soul. I need to let you go. Your eyes, they shine so bright. I wanna save that light. I can't escape this now, unless you show me how. When you feel my heat, look into my eyes. It's where my demons hide. It's where my demons hide. Don't get too close, it's dark inside. It's where my demons hide. It's where my demons hide." Camila felt tears run down her cheeks when she saw Lauren crying on stage, but it didn't affect her singing. She wished she could hold her, and if she wasn't in the middle of a show, she would. Camila heard the music for the next song and winced. She always cried at this song. "Oh, you can't hear me cry. See my dreams all die, from where you're standing. On your own. It's so quiet here and I feel so cold. This house no longer feels like home. Ooooooohhhhh mmmmhhhhhhh...Ooooooohhhhh mmmmhhhhhhh...Ooooooohhhhh mmmmhhhhhhh...Ooooooohhhhh mmmmhhhhhhh...Oh, when you told me you'd leave. I felt like I couldn't breathe. My aching body fell to the floor then I called you at home. You said that you weren't alone. I should've known better. Now it hurts much more. Ooooooohhhhh mmmmhhhhhhh... Ooooooohhhhh mmmmhhhhhhh...You caused my heart to bleed and you still owe me a reason. Cause I can't figure out why...Why I'm alone and freezing, and you're in the bed that she's in. And I'm just left alone to cry. Oh woah oh oh, oh whoa oh oh, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah...Oh woah oh oh, oh whoa oh oh, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah...Oh woah oh oh, oh whoa oh oh, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah...Oh woah oh oh, oh whoa oh oh, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah...Oh woah oh oh, oh whoa oh oh, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah...You caused my heart to bleed and you still owe me a reason. Cause I can't figure out why...You caused my heart to bleed and you still owe me a reason. Cause I can't figure out why...Oh, you can't hear me cry. See my dreams all die from where you're standing. On your own. It's so quiet here and I feel so cold. This house no longer feels like home." Lauren had to wipe her eyes causing some worried fans and gasps. "Today I'm not myself, and you, you're someone else. And all these rules don't fit, and all that starts can quit. What a peculiar state we're in. What a peculiar state we're in. Let's play a game, where all of the lives we lead can change. Let's play a game where nothing that we can see, the same. We'll find other pieces to the puzzles slipping out under the locks. I can show you how many moves to check mate right now. We can take apart this life we're building and pack it up inside a box. All that really matters is we're doing it right now. Right now. We'll find other pieces to the puzzles. Slipping out under the locks. I can show you how many moves to check mate right now. We can take apart this life we're building. And pack it up inside a box. All that really matters is we're doing it right now. Right now.." Lauren looked at the side of the stage and smiled to her girlfriend. "Now this song isn't personal, before you guys get worried. I recorded this song for someone very special to me. Camz, come here." Camila swallowed thickly. "Come on." Camila walked out on stage and Lauren pulled her into her arms and kissed her temple. "Be nice to my girl guys, she's shy." Camila chuckled breathlessly. "You never told me about this." "Just listen. You don't need to say anything." Lauren nodded for the music to play. "The lights go out all around me. One last candle to keep out the night and then the darkness surrounds me. I know I'm alive but I feel like I've died. And all that's left is to except that it's over. My dreams ran like sand through the fist that I made." Camila's breath caught in her throat. She recognised this song. She wrote it. It wasn't that long ago, but she had forgotten about it until now."I try to keep warm but I just grow colder. I feel like I'm slipping away. After all this has passed, I still will remain. After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain. Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again and there'll be beauty from pain. You will bring beauty from my pain. My whole world is the pain inside me. The best I can do is just get through the day. When life before is only a memory. I wonder why God lets me walk through this place. And though I can't understand why this happened. I know that I will when I look back someday. And see how you've brought beauty from ashes and made me as gold purified through these flames. After all this has passed, I still will remain. After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain. Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again and there'll be beauty from pain. You will bring beauty from my pain.." Camila stared at Lauren in shock. "Babe?" Lauren said gently, low enough so no one but her could hear. "I-I've gotta go." She whimpered. "Cam-" Lauren frowned with concern as she watched her run off stage. "Um, okay..let's um, let's continue.." The rest of the show went by smoothly, but Lauren couldn't get Camila's reaction out of her head. When she found Camila sitting in the tour bus that was going to take them to the next place soon, she confronted her. "Babe?" Camila looked up at the girl sadly, seeing Lauren made her think of the song again, and that made her want to cry. "Hey, what happened out there?" "The song." "I'm sorry, I just kind of related it to you and-" "I wrote it." Lauren gasped. "You-you wrote that?" Camila nodded. "I wrote that song before we started dating, no, before I even met you. I was in a really bad state." Lauren held out her arms and held Camila close. "I love you so much, I'm so sorry Camila, I didn't know." "It's okay." Camila mumbled. "Did the song bring back memories?" "Yeah, it did." "Are you okay?" "Cuddle me and then I will be." "I've got you." Lauren whispered. "I've always got you."