ONE WEEK LATER
Lahni comes in my room and wakes me up. It's been a few days since I saw her last; she thought it would be best to distance herself a bit before I'm released. "You're going home!!" she happily says. I start crying tears of joy. "I'm so proud of you." she says, giving me a hug. "I never thought I'd get to leave so soon. Everyone was right; it, luckily, went by very fast." I say. Lahni nods and says "I'm so glad you've gotten better. I'm so glad to have been a part of your recovery." I see a tear in her eye. "Are you crying?" I ask her. "I'm so happy for you." she says, wiping her eyes. "I never thought I'd get to leave." I say. "Go say your goodbyes before you leave." she says.
I go to Loretta's office. "Bye, Loretta." I say. "Good luck, dear. Remember the warning sides I went over with you." she says. I nod and go to Kat's office. "Kat, I'm finally going home." I say. Kat crosses the room and gently hugs me. "Stay healthy and strong." she says. "I'll try." I tell her. "Be sure you're open to treatment with Harper. It will be okay if you let her help you." she says. I shrug and leave. I go to Reagan's office and she gives me all the artwork I've done in a portfolio. "Stay artistic." she instructs as she gently hugs me. I nod and exit her office. I'm so glad to be leaving, but it is kind of bittersweet. I've gotten close to my care team and now, I have to readjust to Harper and Liz, which will hopefully be pretty easy.
I am walked out of the ward. I enter the lobby and see Suzanne. I run to her and we hug each other close. I'm given my phone and bobby pins before I leave. "I missed you." she tells me. I smile. I'm finally free. I watch the scenery out of the window.
At home, I go straight to Mark. I give him a hug, something I've never done before. He has tears in his eyes as he holds me close. "I'm so sorry." I say. He doesn't speak. "I'm so proud of you." he says a few moments later. I smile. "Thank you." I say. We release each other and I go to my room. I sit on the bed, my door closed. I've missed being in the privacy and comfort of my bedroom. I never thought I'm be here so soon.
My phone vibrates and I see Harper texted me. "I'm so proud of you. I'm really glad you're home, but don't forget, things could go wrong. If you have a lapse, we'll be fine. If you have a relapse, you'll be back in the hospital." her message reads. "I'll be fine." I reply.
"You're not done with therapy. I'll see you tomorrow." she replies. I roll my eyes. I don't want to go back to therapy. I went once and Harper put me into the hospital. I seriously don't trust her at all.
THE NEXT DAY
I wake up with barely enough time to get ready. I get dressed and brush my hair and teeth. I let my hair hang loosely in my face. I go to the kitchen and eat a bowl of cereal before Suzanne and I have to leave.
When we pull into the therapy center, I get out. Suzanne has to go do something, so I'll be here alone and I won't be able to leave if I get upset. I sign in and sit down. I feel kind of embarrassed to be the oldest patient in here. I begin to shake, feeling anxious about the situation I'm in.
"Evelyn?" Harper calls. I stand up and walk over to her. She smiles fondly. I roll my eyes. As soon as I enter her office, she immediately asks me why I'm being so hostile. "Harper, I'm finding it hard to trust you." I admit.l "Well, telling me that shows there's still hope." she says, sighing. I shrug. I'm not in that good of a mood. I kind of want to self harm, even though I know better ways of coping.
"When are you returning to school?" she asks. "I'm going to do virtual school for the first half the semester, then I'm going back." I explain. She nods. "What's your current mood?" she asks. "Anxious." I tell her. "What about?" she asks. "I'm anxious because I don't really trust you and I kind of feel like people are judging me for having to be here." I respond, shifting my position. "Evelyn, no one will judge you for struggling with mental illnesses. I understand why you're feeling like you can't trust me, but I'm here to help you. Let's just give it a chance." she says. I nod, willing to try to trust her.
"Were you tempted to self harm when you got home yesterday?" she asks me. I nod. "Why didn't you?" Harper asks, seeming surprised. "It wasn't worth you making me go to the hospital again." I say. She sighs.
"Evelyn, I don't want you to stop out of fear. I want you to stop because you feel able to." she says. "What would happen if I did cut?" I ask her. "It depends." she says. I roll my eyes. "Not a good answer?" she says, questioning inflection in her voice. "Not at all." I mumble, feeling angrier and angrier as the seconds pass.
She tries to talk to me for a few more minutes, but I ignore her. "Evelyn, I'm going to be right here for you when you feel able to talk. I haven't left your side through your childhood or many suicide attempts and I'm not going to leave now after you don't trust me. You will struggle for a while, but I will help pull you out of it. This is my job and I do my job to the best I can." Harper says.
I go to Liz's office. "Hey." I say as soon as I enter. "Hi." she says as I sit down. "Your medicine seems to be working great and you aren't suicidal anymore, so we'll just keep things how they are." Liz says, smiling brightly. I nod and leave. Suzanne is finally waiting for me and she seems irritated. I guess this is my life........I might as well get back used to it before it starts bothering me.
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Evelyn's Lesson In Recovery
Teen FictionThis is Evelyn's story. This is the third book in the Lesson In Recovery series. Evelyn suffered from depression, self harm, panic attacks, and social anxiety. This will probably be a rather long book because Evelyn transforms as she goes through...