9:45pm Wednesday, April 22
I feel so pathetic and dumb to think I even have a chance with Rob. He's made it so clear that he has no interest in me, yet I persist. It feels so right to like him. He loves all the things I do, and we have so much in common. I guess it's time for me to move on. For real this time. I have been inching my way away from him for a while now. We will never chat like we used to, I always feel so awkward and nervous as hell around him. Rob walks all over me. I'm so ridiculous.
I wish the guy I liked would like me back just as much. I always dive head first while he's barely dipped a toe in.
I need to forget about guys in general. They're the root of all my problems. The only guy I don't have a problem with is my dad.
Now I'm so sad.
I'm such a damn spaz and a complete psycho with no chill. I'm freaky and bitchy and awful. I'm sorry to all my friends. How could they ever wanna be friends with me? Just today I asked, "Do you guys tune me out sometimes?" And Scarlet flat out said yes. I died a little inside. Maybe all the words I say are as meaningless as I feel. Maybe everyone I know is tired of me and my idiotic thoughts and opinions. I need to keep my mouth shut.What is wrong with me? I feel like I'm losing my mind. I'm stressing.
I had a good day up until now.
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Satan School of Sophomores
Teen FictionA year, documented, of a young, confused teen girl's life as she struggles and experiments with the modern world of sex, drugs, and the opposite gender. This work contains crude language, intense/inappropriate situations and other more or less mild...