Saving Natasha

PART 2: I DONT WANT TO LET GO

NATASHA'S POV
She looked so peaceful, lying there, eyes closed, chest rising and falling with every slow breath, the heart rate monitor beeped slowly and rhythmically in the background.

All the sounds of a busy hospital playing in the background, nurses and doctors shouting, children laughing and crying, a squeaky wheel on a hospital bed. It is all amplified in my ears, every sound every noise played 10 times louder. I couldn't drown them out. This rarely happened, i was always so in control, but my emotions were too powerful to suppress. She was like the little sister i never had. Is she ok? Will she wake up soon? Why did she do that? Why didn't she tell me her plan? I could've helped? I could've stopped this?

Did her hand just......i think she just moved

I smiled to myself, looking down at my shoes allowing my hair to cover the smile that was taking over my face, i took a breath, a big sigh, and allowed her to believe she was fooling me a little while longer, while i tried to keep my emotions in check

She was fragile right now, she wouldn't be able to handle my questions. I needed to give her time, i looked up and tucked my hair behind my ear

"You can't fool me Ava" i mumbled taking care to ensure the guards wouldn't hear. Why were they here, she didn't do anything wrong.

I watched as a small smile creeped across her face. I was so relieved. Her bright blue eyes fluttered awake and i watched as she tried to find me in the room. I was just out of her line of sight. She called my name, her voice was deep and raspy from the lack of use and medication she was on.

I couldn't help myself i practically ran over to her. I grabbed her hand and held it tight rubbing my fingers along the back of her hand

"I'm here darling" i soothed moving my hand up to her face and pushing her silky brown hair out of the way

"Don't worry, I'm here" i kept my hand in hers as her bright blue ocean eyes stared straight into mine and i could see the relief in them, she let out a content smile and slowly closed her eyes again.

I can't lie that worried me, but her grip on my hand tightened and i knew she was ok and grateful for my presence. She slowly drifted off to sleep, my hand still grasped in hers. I pulled a chair close and sat down, never letting go.

I sat there for what felt like seconds before i was told i needed to leave i tried to resist but I didn't want to wake Ava, i gently let go, her whole body quivered as soon as I did, that broke me, i turned and ran from the room not wanting anyone to see my tears