I did what needed to be done. I know broke whatever we had. It's not like we'd have time to talk if we're both on tour. The skatepark girl topic just happened. It wasn't just some girl at the skatepark. She was my ex-girlfriend. Leila. She was still as stunning as ever. Plus, you never forget your first love. We talked and I fell all over again. Yes, I felt bad for Sherlyn but with touring and everything, we won't have time. At least with Leila, I can take her on tour with me.
Once we left Sherlyn and Logan's apartment complex, we went home. Our manager and I that is. The rest of the boys stayed with Logan to make sure Sherlyn was okay. And I know she will be. I mean, she doesn't need me. Pain is temporary and I know she'll find someone better than me.
I suddenly get a text from the group chat. I know it was them giving me backlash on Sherlyn. So I just didn't bother to reply. I did something for myself and it felt great. I'm not saying that I don't feel bad, but I just feel better that I made a decision to make me happy.
I got home and went straight to the backyard. The sunset looked beautiful and just breathtaking. You used to think Sherlyn was breathtaking. Ugh. I'm just done with her and I know that she'll find someone that makes her happy. Maybe it'll be one of the boys. Who knows?
A tweet notification popped up on my phone seeing all the guys, Logan, Brendan, Ayla, and Sherlyn.
@SeaveyDaniel: If it hurts, it's not love, but I'll love you forever and always... stay strong babygirl @alohaxsherlyn
@JackAveryMusic: heartbreak is a part of life lovebug, just please don't shut us out @alohaxsherlyn
@CorbynBesson: I'm sorry for bringing her up.. you're such an amazing person and will find a guy who loves you more than he ever did @alohaxsherlyn
@JonahMarais: you deserve so much better... @alohaxsherlyn You're like my little sister and I hate seeing you hurt...
@HelloImAugust: don't cry cause you have many more things going for you, he's just one boy and you already have a million on their knees @alohaxsherlyn
@EbenOfficial: you're 1000x better than him. he doesn't deserve an ounce of your love. Not even a tiny drop @alohaxsherlyn
@LoganPaul: He's not worth it bubba. You're amazing and have so much going for you. Don't let that bring you down #BeAMaverick @alohaxsherlyn
@Ayla_Woodruff: he's not worth your tears or your love. We're here if you wanna talk about it... ilysm @alohaxsherlyn
@brendan_north1: You are an amazing girl and you're like a little sister to me. Don't feel hurt by someone who won't hurt for you too @alohaxsherlyn
@alohaxsherlyn: I was never enough for you, even if I tried to... I hope she loves you lots sweets... @imzachherron
I shook my head and turned my phone off. I forgot that Eben and August were there. They didn't know Sherlyn as well as all of us but they cared just as much. They met a couple times when the boys hung out with her. Sherlyn's a lovable person but that also means she could cheat cause she doesn't seem like she'd cheat. Not saying that she would cheat but I'm saying it'd be easy for her to get away with it.
A knock came at the door and I opened it. It was my postmates. I got some Jimmy John's. The night was quiet and I personally didn't like it. Since the boys ain't coming, I could call Leila to come over. Yeah! I dialed her new number up and waited for her to pick up. After the phone rang for a while it went to voicemail. I sighed and decided not to bother her.
My mentions on Twitter started to blow up, only seeing a bunch of our fans and Sherlyn's fans angrily tweeting at me. I couldn't help what I did. Now that I think about it, I could've done it in a more nicer way. Although, what's done is done. I can't help it and I certainly can't change the past. All I know is that I don't know how I feel about her. She's an amazing person, but I just can't be with her.
She might not understand right now but eventually, she will. My mom saw the boys tweets and texted me right away. What she mistakenly did was text me in the group chat that we had all the boys and our parents.
To: Group Chat
Fr: Mom
"what happened to Sherlyn is she okay?"
To: Group Chat
Fr: Corbyn
"Zach saw his ex at the skatepark and basically left Sherlyn broken-hearted,"
To: Group Chat
Fr: Daniel
"She's locked in her room right now, I'm in the living room just in case she comes out,"
To: Group Chat
Fr: Jonah's Mom
"Didn't they confess their love today on Ellen?"
To: Group Chat
Fr: Corbyn's Mom
"Yeah they did, what the heck? It hasn't even been a full day,"
To: Group Chat
Fr: Jack
"They "confessed" their love yesterday but guess we know who actually meant it,"
To: Group Chat
Fr: Me
"She's hurt for now but I know she'll find someone better eventually. Pain is temporary,"
To: Group Chat
Fr: Mom
"Zachary Dean Herron! How could you do that to her! She loves you so much and you left her for Leila! Did you even mean it when you said I love you to her?!"
To: Group Chat
Fr: Dad
"We did not raise you to disrespect women Zachary! We're so disappointed in you!"
I decided not to reply and just mute my notifications for now. They're probably calling Sherlyn right now. Suddenly my mom called and I answered. I know I probably shouldn't have answered but I would've gotten in more trouble.
"Put yourself on mute and wait till we say it's over," My mom sternly commanded.
I did what she said and the line went quiet. Suddenly sniffling came from the other end. They called Sherlyn. Great.
"Honey? Are you okay? The boys told us what happened," My mom asked.
"Yeah sweetpea, how are you holding up?" My dad asked her.
"It hurts. Just make it stop. Please make it stop," She sobbed.
"I know it does honey, I'm sorry," My mom guiltily sighed.
"She must be perfect you know? I mean, I guess I wasn't enough for him. I'm never enough for anyone," She cried to her.
"You are enough Sherlyn, it just takes the right person to see it. You're an amazing girl and we love you so much! Right, Reese?" My dad asked.
"Yeah, please stop crying!" Reese says to Sherlyn.
"I don't wanna feel, I don't wanna go anywhere, I don't wanna do anything. I hate this feeling so much," Sherlyn continues. "What does she have that I don't?"
I hung up not wanting to hear more of it. Cause it wasn't true. She was beyond perfect. I'm just not perfect for her. I mean, she graduated with some college credits. I'm still working on school while juggling a music career. She's won an award and has more fans than us. She got two auditions for a TV show and a movie. She has a YouTube account that's almost at 4 million. Not enough for me is an understatement. She's way more than enough, but I just can't give that to her.
She deserves better...