"Go out guys I'll babysit", I say to Lulu and Siah.
"I feel horrible", Lulu frowns.
"I went out last night plus I'm a bit hanged over, so I'd rather stay in today", I reassure.
"Do do you want me to stay with you?", Nathan asks.
"No babe go have fun and make sure Lulu parties", I chuckle.
"You heard my fiancé let's hit the road", Nathan grabs Lulu and Siah's hands pulling them out of the door.
I grab Juliah from the bed and sit with her on the floor playing blocks.
After a while Juliah starts to cry and I fix her a bottle. Once I'm done I cradle her as I feed her.
A knock is heard on the door. Seriously right when I'm in the middle of trying to feed my goddaughter.
I bet it's Lulu making sure I haven't dropped Juliah on her head
"Come in", I mutter.
Eli barges through the door beaming at me and Juliah with a smirk.
"What the hell are you doing here?", I blankly say.
"I heard the baby crying, so I decided to come check.. I didn't know you were babysitting"
"Well I am since I'm her godmother now get out", I sternly say as I try to put Juliah to sleep.
Eli ignores me and sits on the bed intently watching me as I gently swing my arms back and forth rocking Juliah to sleep.
"I can totally see you as a milf", Eli's emerald green eyes twinkles with amusement.
I feel my cheeks heat up by his comment. I glance at Juliah who's sound asleep and I carefully lay her on the bed covering her with warm blankets.
Glancing at Eli I watch as he warily stares at Juliah almost admiring her.
"If I've never gotten locked up.. we would of had a child of our own to accompany her", he suddenly whispers glancing at me and Juliah.
My mouth partly opened as I let the words sink in. I couldn't help but feel awe by his remark. To be honest he's actually right. Unfortunately we weren't meant to be.
I don't say anything back heading towards the couch sitting. Eli stands up off the bed slowly heading towards me.
"Gia it's killing me to see you with someone else", he frowns sitting next to me.
"Eli I don't want to deal with this right now", I truthfully say trying to enjoy my Fourth of July weekend drama free.
"I know you still feel something towards me", he raises a brow beaming at me.
"Why do you say that?"
"Because I know you.. I can see how your hazel eyes sparkle with my presence even if you hate me", he places his hand on my hand cuffing it.
"Eli I-"
"It's okay if you don't want to deal with this during your vacation, but all I ask from you is to just have a sit down with me.. let me explain everything"
"I was meaning to do that when I was back in town, but then you happen to show up here so yeah", I mumble not moving my hand from his.
"Then I'll back off and wait to talk to you once we're back home", he firmly says.
Do I want Eli to back off?
"Thank you", I genuinely say.
The next day
"Today is our last day here!", Joanna wines.
"I know you know what that means?", I teasingly say.
"Henny!", all the girls squeal jumping up and down.
It's crazy how we're all older, but still can party like high school. I guess somethings just don't change. Well besides for Jesiah and Lulu. Since they've became parents they don't drink like they used to especially party boy Jesiah.
We all hit the beach to see the fireworks. Eli has been distant and hasn't annoyed me in any way like he promised.
For some reason it's saddens me, but then I quickly lecture myself about being an engaged woman that's happily in love.
Once at the beach we picked out a spot getting the party started.
After a few hours the sunset hits. We all admire the beautiful colors in the sky. Nathan hugs me from behind as we gaze at nature's beauty. I quickly glance at Eli who's holding Juliah in his arms. For a moment I catch Eli peek at us a frown appearing on his face.
Fireworks start blowing up into the sky
Juliah points towards the lights sticking her cute little finger out growling at Eli to look. Who would of thought Eli the bad boy would be so good with kids. Juliah really loves him and lately wants to be with him over us.
As I beam at them then at the sunset a memory plays in my head.
Flash back starts now
"Will you marry me?"
"Whhhhat! Are you serious?"
"I'm dead serious.. I know what I want babe and with this obstacle we're going through right now just makes me realize how much I want this forever"
"Babe I'm speechless right now"
"Answer me.. Will you marry me as soon as you turn 18?"
"Yes babe I would love too"
"You just made me the happiest man alive and don't worry baby I will propose to you in the traditional way"
"Then why ask me now?"
"So I can know your answer before so I won't get embarrassed in front of everyone if you were to say no"
"Haha! Babe you know how much you mean to me I would never say no to you never. I want to be with you for the rest of my life"
"Me too babe and I promise you we'll be together forever"
Flash back over
I was so naive to actually believe Eli and I would be together forever. As I look back I realize how strong our love was well at least from my part. No wonder it was so hard to get through the heartbreak.
Eli and I have been through so much when were a couple, but we always managed to surpass it and still end up in each other's arms somehow.
And that's when these questions blurred my mind ruining the good memories. The very same questions that's been roaming around since Eli broke my heart that day. I thought these questions somehow disappeared throughout the long four years, but I guess it only rested since Eli's face began to fade.
Seeing Eli again after so long has resurfaced these questions and brought me so many steps back.
Do I possibly still love Eli after all of this time?
There's only one way to find out and that's the sit down with him.