Gia you've been quiet all the ride back.. what's wrong? What happened in there?", Ray asks for the hundredth time as he pulls up in my driveway.
Since leaving the police department I became numb. I don't want to see anyone, talk to anyone, or be around anyone.
I want to be alone!
"Eli and I are over!", I grumble.
"WHAT?!", he splutters a baffled expression on his face.
"He dumped me!"
"I'm so sorry", Ray genuinely huffs.
"I need to get inside before my probation officer comes. Thank you.. bye", I sternly say stepping out of the car making my way towards my house.
Ray shouted something, but I couldn't hear him clear as I power walked into my house locking the door.
I leaned my back on the door as I dropped myself to the ground now sitting.
Fireworks of tears started dropping like a waterfall. I honestly lost count of how many times I cried today.
All I could feel is pain. My heart is hurting so much. All that's repeating in my head is his poisonous words.
Those venomously words that tore my heart slowly apart. I'll never forget those words.
Flashback starts now
"It's over Gia!"
"I don't love you anymore!"
"I lied, I don't fucking love you anymore now get the fuck out of my life!"
"Are you stupid or something? I just told you that I don't love you anymore in matter of fact I stopped loving you when you cheated on me. I just played along to get you in bed one last time then dump you for my revenge! I've moved on!"
"stop being in denial it's pathetic. I don't love you anymore my bad for leading you on. Nothing is forever Gia your so naive!"
Flash back over
I put my hands on both of my eyes trying to wipe the tears away, but instead I screamed as loud and hard as I could from the crucial heartbreak I'm feeling right now.
I continued to scream out loud from the pain three more times.
Suddenly my mom bursts barging in. A terrified look on her face.
"Are you okay? I heard you screaming from the driveway!", she splutters.
Her eyes drop low to where I'm sitting.
"He broke up with me!", I shout as I sob uncontrollably.
My mom's eyes widen and she quickly kneels down beside me pulling me into a hug.
My mother's touch and hug made me cry out more.
"I don't understand baby.. Did he say why?", her voice cracks.
"He never loved me mom!"
"Bullshit yes he did.. maybe he's just confused with everything that's going on right now", my mother says trying to find an excuse to comfort me.
"No, he meant everything he said.. He doesn't love me anymore which means he never really loved me.. real love never dies", I sniffle.
"Oh hunny I'm so sorry", she sighs as tears start sliding down her cheeks.
"I want to forget him mom it hurts so much I can't take it! I think of him all of the time.. how am I suppose to move on?! I love him so much!", I scream as I sob at the same time.
"Baby please calm down I will help you.. you will move on I promise", she sobs.
We were both now a crying mess. My mother is crying from seeing me in pain and I'm crying from a heartbreak.
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"Baby Jaslina is here"
"I'm tired", I mumble as I toss in the opposite side of the couch.
"Just pee in the cup then fall asleep again", I hear Jaslina's voice chirp in.
My eyes flutter open as I sit up abruptly.
"I'm not in the mood", I groan.
"Gia please", my mother gives me a shut-up-and-do-it glare.
I roll my eyes as I grab the cup from Jaslina heading towards the bathroom.
10 minutes later
"There happy?", I scoff.
"Good job", Jaslina smirks clearly trying to get under my skin.
I walk away so I can avoid saying or doing something I'll regret.
Walking like a zombie I make my way upstairs to my room.
Scurrying to the middle of my bed I lay down on my side positioning myself into a ball.
Eli's face comes to my mind. His beautiful emerald green eyes, his smooth hydrated light tan skin, his well sculpted body, his brown curls that always dropped to his eyes making him look so hot, his lips that always caused me to melt.
My heart and soul hurt from remembering him knowing he's not mine anymore.
Why do guys make you fall in love with them just to dump and hurt you later?
Why can't I ever be fucking happy?
"You okay baby girl?", my mom barges into my room causing me to snap out of my thoughts.
"Yeah it still hurts", I mumble out trying not to break down again.
My eyes are so red and puffy from all of the tears as well as my cheeks burn from rubbing all the tears away.
"It's going to take time baby. I ain't going to lie it's going to be hard before it gets easier. Whenever you think of him occupy yourself on something else, so you won't focus on that", she half smiles.
I nod letting out a sigh.
"Time will be your best friend as it heals everything", she adds.
"I hope so", I mumble.
Eli's POV
"Did you do it?"
"Yes now shut the fuck up!", I grumble.
I hate my father so much now.
"You know it's for the best son.. She has a bright future ahead of her and you just keep getting into trouble and will only set her back.. let her become better", he bluntly says.
"Yeah whatever", I roll my eyes.
It fucking killed me to break up with Gia. I didn't want to I love her to much, but my father had a point.
I'm facing 25 years to life in prison for what I did which by the way I don't regret.
If only everyone including my father knew why I did it, but I just can't say. If I speak up they'll all find out how deep I was in the drug business and it'll just make shit worse for Xavier, Alex, and I.
Gia doesn't deserve to be out there waiting for me for so long especially if I get life. I mean what type of fucking future would we even have if I get life. She deserves the best.
I admit at first when my father told me to break up with Gia due to my case. I was completely against it, but once he basically slapped me with the reality I'm currently facing it made sense.
As much as I didn't want to realize it nor accept the cruel reality of my situation. I had to man up and accept it even if it broke me.
It wasn't easy breaking up with her. Shit, I didn't even know how to, so I took up my old ways and acted like a complete asshole hoping she would just accept and leave.
However Gia didn't make it easy for me. She kept insisting on waiting for me and just made shit so much harder for me than it already was. I know I fucking broke her heart into pieces.
I will never forget her face it was so broken and fuck her eyes were so full of pain. When I told her I didn't love her anymore. She completely crumbled.
I wanted to back out so bad and tell her the real reason why I was doing this, but I just couldn't things has to roll out this way for her to hate me and move on.
Seeing her cry and in pain killed me. I wanted to cry too, but I'm a man I have to be strong.
Although when I turned my back to her. I will admit a tear did slide down my cheek from how my heart was breaking at the same time I was breaking hers apart.
What hurt me the most was when she said for me to rot in jail. However I knew she only said it out of pain, but it still hammered my heart coming from her.
Letting go of the love of my life was the hardest shit I had to ever do.
When the door slammed, I knew in that exact moment was the moment she walked out of my life for good.
I lost my girl
A/N:
Surprise!
I was able to get some writing done this morning. I actually have another chapter on hold since I have to revise it, but that one will probably be published Monday.
Season 1 of "My Bad Girl Ways" is coming to an end. Probably 2-3 chapters more and it's done.
Don't worry for those who are up to date with my book by the way I see who you are :) Season 2 will start after season 1 is completed. It will be in this same book. I don't feel like starting a new book might as well keep it going.
Any who, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE EVERYONE SPEND IT WITH YOUR LOVED ONES AND HAVE FUN ALSO BE SAFE! IF YOUR POPPING BOTTLES TONIGHT PLEASE DON'T DRIVE.
THANK YOU ALL FOR 739 READS! IT'S MY FIRST TIME EVER WRITING A BOOK. I'VE BEEN LOVING THE COMMENTS LATELY PLEASE KEEP IT COMING IT REALLY MAKES MY DAY KNOWING MY CHAPTERS ARE BEING READ.
HAVE A BLESSED DAY LOVES BECAUSE EVERYDAY OF LIFE IS A BLESSING😘
P.S. I've noticed some read the newest chapters that are published and tend to skip an unread chapter. Please make sure to not skip chapters, so you can have a better understanding of the story. Thank you☺️
- Gia