Heara's POV
Kanina pa ako hindi iniiwan ni Jungkook. And I'm very thankful for that kasi hindi ko talaga alam ang gagawin sa mga ganitong lugar at pagtitipon.
Feeling ko kasi lahat nang nakikita kong tao, lahat sophisticated. And I'm not someone who belongs in this kind of environment.
"Still hungry?" Jungkook asked me. Naubos ko na kasi yung kinuha niya eh.
I pouted at him. "Ganun ba katakaw tingin mo sa akin?"
"Hindi ba?" Biro nito sa akin.
"Hehe, oo na nga." Pag amin ko ng hindi tumitingin sa mga mata niya. Hindi ko alam, pero hindi ako tumitingin sa mga mata ng tao ngayon, I feel so awkward sa kahit na sino.
He just laughed at me. "You always surprise me everytime."
"Pfft. Not a magician though."
"No you're not. You're better than that."
"Eh ano?" Sabi ko at natatawa sa mga sinasabi niya.
"Uhmm. A clown, perhaps?" He cheekily said to me.
"A clown, really." Sabi ko at napailing pero natatwa pa rin. "I never thought I could be some clown. Pfft."
"Yeah, to me you are." Sabi nito at ngumiti.
"But I'm not even a funny person." I countered him. Clown? Ako? Wow.
"But you're my happy pill." He said and smiled again.
When I heard that, I couldn't help but get flustered. He's making my heart feel sudden flutters. Kanina pa ako nakakarinig ng mga banat niya. At hindi ako sanay.
It's my first time hearing things like these from a guy. And I don't know how to react to them.
"Hindi ka ba nagsasawa na kasama ako? You know how boring I am."
"When I'm always with you, I'm always hyped for no reason. So no, you're not boring." Sabi nito at ngumiti na naman.
Hindi na ako sumagot pa. Hindi rin naman ako makapag salita eh. I don't know what to say to him.
"Can I ask you for a dance?" He shyly asked me. I looked at his face and saw his reddened cheeks. Seeing a guy, getting shy and flustered at the same time, I really find it cute.
I just replied with a smile. "Sure. But.. I don't know how to dance."
"Don't worry, I'll be your lead." He assured me so I gave him my hand.
But holding his hand..
Makes me remember him. Kahit anong gawin ko, siya ang nakikita ko. How can I forget him if I keep thinking of him whatever I do?
Habang naglalakad kami at hawak niya ang aking kamay, hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong malungkot. I'm am sad for myself, and for also the hand I am holding right now.
I'm sad because, I know I can't fool myself pretending to be happy and fine katulad ngayon.
And I'm sad for him kasi ako yung nagustuhan niya. Someone, who can't repay the feelings he have. Jungkook deserves much more.
As we started swaying, humawak ako ng mahigpit sa kanya. I really don't know how to dance.
Pinisil niya ang kamay ko, making me remember na nandito lang siya.
"I'm sorry." I just said to him out of the blue.
"Why are you saying sorry?"
"Alam mo na yun." Sabi ko at yumuko.
"Sabi ko naman sayo don't be sorry right? It's my decision to do this." Sabi nito at ngumiti na naman. "I'll be alright, don't worry."
I tried my best to give back a smile kahit alam kong peke lang rin yung binibigay niya. Who wants a broken heart? Wala naman di ba? And he's not exempted from that. Kahit sabihin niyang magiging okay siya, hindi ko pa rin matatanggap yun. I don't want to be a reason why his heart is broken. And he don't deserve a broken heart too, hindi talaga.
We swayed into the music when I saw familiar faces from a distance, also dancing.
Only one person kept my gaze.
There's that man who won't let me be in peace.
Taehyung's there,
dancing with her.
