Katlyn's POV
"Katlyn.." Called by someone who's very familiar to me.
He found me? I asked myself.
I don't want to see him now. I don't want to see anybody.
I shook my head habang nakasubsob pa rin yung mukha ko sa tuhod ko. "No.. Andwe.." I said as I continued crying.
"Katlyn.." He called once again and I can feel the voice coming closer to where I am.
"Leave me alone!" I shouted not looking at him.
"I'm sorry." He said but my tears.. mas dumami.
"Leave me alone, Tae." I said not wanting to face him. "Yun naman gusto mo diba!?"
"Katlyn.. I'm really sorry.." He whispered to me and I can feel the sincerity behind it.
I feel him wrap his jacket around me. Mas napahagulgol nalang ako.
"Bakit mo pa ako sinundan?" I took some strength and face him now.
"I.." He heaved a deep sigh. "Let's talk about it all."
"Pwedeng wag muna ngayon?" I asked him. Yeah sa wakas he decided na pag usapan namin, pero hindi handa ngayon yung puso ko sa pwedeng mangyari.
"It is much better if we do this now." He insisted.
I just tried swallowing back all of my tears. "Fine.."
[fastforward]
We are sitting at a bench this late night. No one dared to break the silence. It's so awkward but I miss this feeling. Yung kami lang ang magkasama.
"I'm so..sorry.." He audibly whispered.
"Don't be." I sadly smiled at him. "Ako dapat yung nagsosorry ngayon eh. Kasalanan ko naman kasi lahat."
"Everything got out of hand.." He said and half chuckled. "Who would have thought we'd end up like this?"
Napatingin ako sa kanya. And sadness is creeping in me big time. "Is it really the end Tae?" I asked softly.
"I guess..?" He said but I can see his doubt with his answer. Baka.. Baka may pag asa pa.
"I think so." He said in final tone. Now, no doubt in his voice. "I think things won't work out for us this time. We're so broken that neither of us has the ability to mend it."
"Is.. Is it because of her?" I asked him but I can feel my heart breaking once again. "Because of Heara?" I hate to admit it that seeing the both of him together makes me feel mad and sad at the same time.
She's my friend, I just can't..
He heaved out a sigh. "I guess so.. But you know, she's not the sole reason why I think we can't be together again. Kahit kasi saang anggulo natin tignan mahirap ng ibalik gaya ng gusto mo. We just can't."
"Bakit si Heara pa?" I said my voice cracking. "Bakit yung taong kaibigan ko pa?"
He shrugged. "I don't know too to be honest." I looked at him but he's staring so far away. "It's just her.."
"And.. Please don't hold any grudges against her. Wala siyang masamang ginawa."
I let it all go thinking he needs some friend to lean on. But I'm not expecting this closeness from them. I just can't imagine them to be together, not at all.
"You can't fall in love with her.. You can't love Heara.. Not her." I sighed and told him what I should be telling. I should have said this from the moment I saw them being close with each other.
"I'm sorry?" He asked bewildered.
"Don't love her. Stop what you are feeling for her habang maaga pa."
Confusion is visible in his face.
"We're getting married." There, I dropped the bomb.
"What non sense are you saying right now Katlyn? Akala ko ba okay na tayo? Ano na naman to?" He said and now, I can see his anger rising up.
"I should've told you dati pa.." Sabi ko at bumuntong hininga. "Your parents and mine agreed to engage us for real this time. And I agreed."
"What!?" He asked bewildered but his voice were rising up.
"My parents saw how our break-up made of me, and so is yours. Nakita nila na sobrang nasaktan tayong dalawa sa nangyari. Your parents saw how it changed you. They saw how numb it made you and they can't stand seeing you like that. They decided to continue it kahit ganun nga ang nangyari. They said it will be the best for the both of us. At isa pa sabi nina tito, mas magiging maganda rin ang takbo ng both companies natin."
"Fuck."
"At alam mo naman kapag may napagkasunduan na ang parents natin. Mahirap na silang pilitin na mag back out, especially your dad." Sabi ko sa kanya and bit my lower lip. "I'm sorry for not telling you earlier."
"But I can't!" Sigaw ni Taehyung.
"But you barely have a choice anymore.." I whispered.
"Who the hell are you to make things this way? I told you I'm not a fucking toy you can play all you want!"
"But it's not me. It's our parents choice.."
"And you fucking agreed without considering what I feel?"
"It's not like I have a choice!" I said my voice rising an octave higher.
"Of course you have!" He said and I know he's angry and frustrated this time. "You could have said no!"
"But I love you!" I shouted answering him.
"What a shame.." Sabi niya at umiling. He stood up and walked away.
