Joy's POV
"Uy.." Sabi ko sabay siko kay Rap Monster.
"Ouch, wag naman pasakit." Sabi niya sabay hawak sa tiyan.
"Psh, kala mo naman ang sakit." I whispered. "Pero uy.."
"Oh bakit ba?" He asked me.
"Wala ka bang balak mag confess kay Katlyn?"
"Wala." Sabi niya at bumuntong hininga.
"Bakit naman, sayo na nga nanggaling diba? Na mas mabuting malaman niya yung nararamdaman mo, for her to be aware at if ever nga sabi mo, kung talagang she value your friendship, hindi yun magiging reason para layuan ka niya."
Namjoon heaved a deep sigh again. "I wish it's easy like that.."
"Bakit? Nakaya ko naman eh, diba? Pano ka pa? You're a lot tougher than me."
"Alam mo kasi, it's not that simple."
"Then enlighten me please."
"Ganito kasi yun, yes I am inlove with Katlyn but gaya nga ng alam mo she's inlove with somebody else. But that somebody else is not just somebody. It's V."
"Si V!?" Sabi ko na gulat na gulat.
He nodded. "And I just know V still loves Katlyn. They both love each other. And if ever I entered the picture, I'll break both of their hearts. Isn't it a lot better if one heart suffers, than two? Okay na yung ako yung masaktan wag lang yung dalawang taong napaka importante sa buhay ko. So what I think is that, It's much more of a help to shut up and keep things inside." RM explained and I swear, sadness is all what I can see behind his smile.
I did a thing that I can give to comfort him. I hugged him. "Know, that you are not alone, okay?"
I felt him chuckle. "Of course silly. I'm not alone. All of you guys are with me, and it's a lot more enough to mend my heart."
"Aww.. That's really so brave of you." I said still tapping his back. "Pero wala ka talagang balak umamin?" Paninigurado ko.
"I won't even try. Pero oo siguro kapag talagang the time comes na hindi talaga sila para sa isa't isa. By then siguro I can finally confess, pero ngayon? Wala talaga akong balak."
"That sucks.." I said and sighed too. "I bet mas mabigat pinagdadaanan mo, knowing na hindi mo rin masabi lahat sa kanya. Kung ako nga nabawasan talaga yung bigat ng loob ko nung umamin ako, pano pa kaya ikaw na hindi mo masabi sabi?"
"Hey, don't pity me." Sabi niya sabay halakhak.
"Psh. Tawa tawa ka pa eh, kahit nasasaktan na."
"What do you think I am supposed to do? Sulk about it? Wag na, I need to be happy kahit ganito pa."
"Psh, tara na nga libre nalang kita ng chocolates." Sabi ko sabay guyod sa kanya.
"Yah, tara!" Sabi niya na mukhang excited nga.
"Basta libre mo next time ha! Lagi nalang ako nanglilibre eh." Sabi ko sabay busangot. "Yah! Tuturuan mo pa ko mamaya ha!"
"Oo na po mahal na prinsesa." Sabi si RM sabay bow pero tawang tawa siya.
"Tss. Hahaha!"
"Pero naisip ko lang ulit.. How about you move on?" Tanong ko sa kanya. "Di mo man lang ba naisipang gawin yun? Kasi sabi mo nga, alam mo sa sarili mo na hindi ka talaga aamin. Ang hirap naman kasi nun diba?"
"Yeah, I have always thought about moving on with her but I can't. And anyways, life has this crazy way of making things happen. If ever na makakalimutan ko yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya, then so be it. Wala namang makakapagsabi kung ano mangyayari. Kahit ano pa yan, I'll go with the flow. Maybe, there's someone who's destined to be with me aside from Katlyn, but I'm okay with that. Yet for now, I'll just keep on loving her."
"You love so unconditionally. Bilib ako sa tapang at pagmamahal mo sa mga taong mahalaga sayo."
RM gave me a gentle smile. "Kayo lang naman ang meron ako eh."
"Luuuh seryoso ba ang Namjoon ng BTS sa sinasabi niya?" Sabi ko ng nagtataka. "Ako rin kasama?" I teased him.
"Duh, halata ba?"
"Psh! Bat ang sungit mo?"
"Hahaha eto naman, joke lang. Tss."
"Kita mo na!"
"Tara na nga ang daldal mo." Reklamo niya sabay guyod sa akin. "Libre mo na ko."
"Muha kang libre alam mo yun."
And yeah, he just laughed at me.
