It's taking all your strenght (Zarry /AU.) /English Version

2. Realization

Harry

I hate the constant rumors about "Larry". The fans analyze every word, every movement, every gesture I make. They put video clips on YouTube and create their own world. "Larry" exist only in the Fan Fictions.

In fact, in the early days of "One Direction", I was in love with Louis in one way or another. I was simply impressed by his uncomplicated way of dealing with others. As the youngest of this band I enjoyed the attention of the media, the fans and especially the girls, yet I often felt helpless and unable to cope with the hustle and bustle.

Louis gave me special support during that time. He cared for me when my homesickness and fears became all to great. Only later did I realize that he felt more for me than mere friendship. If you are obviously surrounded by boys and rarely see your family, you still look for closeness and familiarity - even with your own gender. Physical contact was an inevitable consequence. Every human needs it. It's make him alive.

However, everything has changed over the years. Larry Stylinson  became an evil. Louis turned into a possessive man, he uses every chance to taunt and touch me in public. I didn't feel taken seriously by anyone. I wanted to break out and be myself. With Louis in the group, that was simply impossible .

During this time, I decided not to focus solely on Louis. My attempt to establish a  bonding with my other bandmates was succeeded. For the first time, I really noticed them. I was very fond of Zayn. I just liked his calmness. He was always the silent one. His reticence, which bothered me at first, suddenly I felt as a relief. Zayn's thoughtful silence and his wise answers were the highest for me.

I could spend hours without getting tired of him. I lost myself in his laughter and sank into his hazel eyes - day after day.