It's taking all your strenght (Zarry /AU.) /English Version

37. Larry

Harry

It's afternoon and I'm alone again. The events of last night are in my mind. Zayn and I are a couple. My biggest wish has come true and I smile. Louis will come by later. I have to hide my joy from him and not betray ourselves. Nobody is allowed to know about us. The media would tear us apart. We wouldn't have a minute of peace. The risk is too great. I think back to my time with "One Direction." After five years, I can finally say, Zayn is mine. An old interview comes to my mind again.

Flashback Harry

The band is invited for an interview at "Sugarscape". Another endless interview with the same questions all the time. We are all annoyed. After exhausting rehearsals, we feel tired and aren't in a good mood. The studio is full of people who pounce at us right away. We all sit in line. Zayn is grumpy and I suspect the interview will not go well.

For some time he is grumpy and withdraws more and more. Even Liam's encouragement to draw him out, failed. That's why I decided to live with Louis. Sharing the same hotel room or apartment with Zayn is no longer a pleasure. So Louis offered me his company. I don't want to miss the fun. Louis knows like no other, how to turn the most boring situation into a party.The crucial factor here was, no more be in the doldrums and I haven't to watch annoying Marvel movies.  Zayn holds it against me. I can see his displeasure on his face every day. So what? I am young and successful. I want to have fun.

Of course, I know that he didn't ask me for no reason. I realize he has a thing for me - maybe more than a friend. At the beginning of our career, I must confess, I had even been somewhat in love with him. Today I just feel flattered and enjoy his attention. But secretly, I have a weakness for the bad boy from Bradford - nobody knows and I try to hide this as good as possible. Some of our fans think that there is something going on between me and Louis and they heat up the rumour up mill with numerous "Larry" documentaries. Of course that's all nonsense. We never had a relationship, those were rather flirtations with each other - at least on my part. Louis has taken this more seriously. Like I said, I have a thing for Zayn. At first I was quite annoyed by his restraint and introversion. I thought this was just a show. Slowly it became clear that he was really like that. He's actually scared of the crowds and likes to be alone and draws or reads. I've never met anyone who reads so much and is so smart. I like that. Unlike me and the others, he doesn't enjoy the love expressions of the girls. He is rather shy on stage. He could have all of them. 

But back to our interview.

So we sit on a large sofa in the usual manner and talk about this and that. Zayn is silent as always and Liam and Louis chatter about this and that, until the reporter asks me:

Reporter: "Harry, I read that you and Caroline Flack moved together? Is that correct?"

The crowd roars, Louis, Liam and Niall are clapping their hands, Zayn rolls his eyes and I don't know what is happening to me. I'm chewing gum. Zayn leans in and puts his elbow on my chair back. He is eagerly awaiting my reaction.

H: "Well, I don't know anything about it, okay,"   I say.

" I got a text message from my mother this morning, and she wanted to know if that was true."  

"What?" I asked her. "That's new to me. "I have no idea who put this in circulation."

Reporter: "So you won't leave the others?"

I shake my head in denial. Then suddenly Louis roars:

L: "You don't leave me!", and makes a whiny face to support his statement.

Now Zayn turns to me and says in the most beautiful Yorkshire accent:

Z: "You would never leave Louis, wouldn't you?"

I am shocked. The quiet Zayn actually gets involved in this stupid discussion and heats up the rumors about Larry with this statement.

Reporter: "Ahhh, Harry, so you and Louis are the dream team?"

Z: "Yes, they are," he says.

Zayn seems to have enjoyed cornering me. I can't answer that. I'm so surprised. What's that about?

Reporter: "So Louis, you can always tease Harry at home with Caroline Flack, can't you?"

L: "I've been doing this the whole time.", jokes Louis .

Reporter: "And Harry, how do you take revenge on him? "

L: "He hits me on the head!" Shouts Louis indignantly.

I've had enough. If everyone wants Larry, they get it. So I put on my best smile, turn to Louis and say:

H: "Smeleanor."

Everyone laughs bashful and tries to distract from my statement. And then the unbelievable happens. I don't believe it!

Zayn, looks at Louis and loudly laughing:

Z: "You are so - comicly - g ...."

I quickly put a piece of paper to his mouth to avert major damage and reply:

H: "Don't say it."

Z: "What?"

H: "That he is gay."

Z: "I called him genius!"

H: "Oh."

Great, wonderful! The situation is now completely lost. It was audible to everyone, that I told Zayn, he should not say that Louis is gay. But he wasn't planning on it. Great, Styles, I think. I've brought the Larry story up. We're all leaving the studio pretty grumpy. I could burst inside. I'm such an idiot! I'll have a word with Zayn later. We have not yet heard the final word on this matter.