Shawn Mendes Imagines

He cheers you up

Hey! I've been slow on updating these past few days but my mental health has been the worst it has been for a while. But I've felt much better today, and this is an imagine for crystal_mendes17. I'm going to write this request and I have 3 more after this then I'm going to finish My Story.

Crystal's POV

These last few weeks have been tough. I feel so hopeless all the time. It feels like I'm falling through a hole and everyone I know is watching me fall, but because I have a smile on my face they assume I'm fine. I was diagnosed with depression a few months ago and I go through times of low mood and times when I'm a lot happier, but this time it's something else - I can't stop crying and I don't know why. Just then I hear a knock on the door.

"Crystal...are you okay?" He says, knocking another time. I couldn't speak or move - I froze. "I'm coming in." Shawn has been my boyfriend for a year and has been helping me through this - he has been the best person to speak to, but this time I couldn't tell him. "Its okay" he holds me tightly, taking his warm hands through my dark hair. I sob into his chest for what seems like an eternity.

"What's the matter?" He asks, wiping the tears from my cheeks.

"I...I don't know" I tell him honestly - I can't stop crying and I don't know why. That's the truth.

"It's okay, it happens to all of us. Wash your face, we can go get some food." He hugs me again, my petite body in his tall, muscular arms - this is where I feel most safe, in his arms.

"I...I wrote you a song as I know you've been dealing with depression." He tells me, grabbing his guitar. He leaves them everywhere.

"I watch your troubled eyes as you rest
And I fall in love with every breath
Wonder if those eyes are really shut
And am I the one you're dreaming of?

'Cause underneath the darkness
There's a light that's trying so hard to be seen
And I know this 'cause I've noticed
A little bit shining through the seams

And if this is what it takes
Then let me be the one to bear the pain
Ooh if this is what it takes
I'll break down these walls that are in our way
If this is what it takes

You keep on telling me I'm wasting time
But to call it wasting time, oh, that's a crime
And you think it's crazy what I'm tryna do
Well baby, I'm a fool for you

'Cause underneath the darkness
There's a light that's trying so hard to be seen
And I know this 'cause I've noticed
A little bit shining through the seams, yeah

And if this is what it takes
Then let me be the one to bear the pain
Ooh if this is what it takes
I'll break down these walls that are in our way

'Cause if you don't understand yet
Then I'll never let you forget
That you don't have to do this on your own

I'll be your shoulder to lean on
I'll be your right when you feel wrong
So come on, take my hand, we're moving on

And if this is what it takes
Then let me be the one to bear the pain
Ooh and if this is what it takes
I'll break down these walls
These walls that are in our way
If this is what it takes" he finishes.

"Shawn that was incredible!" He gets up and wraps his arms around me tightly, lifting me up. I wrap my arms around his neck, taking my hands through his soft hair.

"Just remember Crystal I'll always love you no matter what. Don't let em keep you down, oh you know you can't give up." (My favourite Shawn lyric from LOTP, it's in italics lol)

And that's it! I've had a much better day today than the last few days and I've gotten the courage to speak up and I'll be getting the help I need soon!! I've had anxiety for a year now, I had some therapy for it over the summer but now I just feel so empty and down inside rather than the racing heartbeat and immense stress I'd feel so I've been diagnosed with depression. I thought that by speaking up, despite not knowing you guys personally, I could try and make a difference and help anyone who's reading this to please speak to someone before it's too late. Please don't give up.