love of my life (Hayes Grier)

chapter 99

"why was she there hayes?" i asked

"because i was dumb" he said

"and how many more times is this gonna happen?" i asked

"none. after losing you for this long i can not do it again" he said

"i gotta think about this" i said

"so do i" he said

"so friends for now" i said

"friends" he said

the plane landed and hayes grabbed his bags and left.

i took my time and got my bag and texted dylan, him and dave both weren't home.

i decided to text ethan.

e-ethan g-gab
g-hey i'm stuck for a ride. im at the airport, anyway you could grab me? i'll give you gas money
e-of course, and i'm not taking your gas money
g-ur the best
e-i know

i waited and saw ethan pull up, he got out and opened my door and put my bag in the trunk, "how was it?" he asked and started driving.

"it was good, then hayes kinda showed up and i got all sad and just wanna be home right now. luke and sam told me to come home and take care of myself so here i am" i said

"he's such a dick, i can't stand him" ethan said and gripped the steering wheel.

"he came to fight for our relationship" i said

"did you give in again?" ethan asked

"no" i said

"good for you gabs, i'm glad you finally realized you deserve better" he said

i just nodded my head, "don't cry, your gonna find a guy that cherishes you how you deserve to be" ethan said as soon as a tear rolled down my face.

"i know it's just he was my best friend and now that's all ruined" i said

"you'll meet new and better people gab" he said

"i was so hesitant about dating him at first because i didn't wanna break up and lose my best friend. those 4 years were great though but now it's all gone to crap"i said

we pulled up at my house and ethan got out and opened my door and hugged me, "don't cry over him, your too pretty" he said

i just hugged him back, "thank you for picking me up and talking to me and letting me cry on you and being so sweet. i really appreciate it ethan" i said

"i'm always here" he said and wiped my tears with his thumbs.

next thing i knew his lips were on mine.

i didn't do anything to stop it, i just kissed him back.

i pulled away after a minute, "i'm sorr-" i cut him off.

"don't be" i said and got my bag and went into the house.

i'm so stupid. hayes can't find out.

i put my bag up in my room and got changed into sweat pants and a tshirt and laid down, i got a text from ethan.

e-ethan g-gab
e-can we keep that between us for now?
g-i was gonna ask you the same thing
e-good
g-i think we should talk about this though
e-over the phone or do you wanna meet up?
g-i think id rather talk in person. i'm not a phone talker
e-okay wanna meet at starbucks? drinks on me
g-sounds like a plan.

i rolled out of bed and put my hair in a bun and walked to starbucks.

i saw ethan sitting at a table and i went and sat next to him.

"i'm gonna be straight up. listen, me and hayes and probably gonna try and fix our relationship so we probably shouldn't keep doing this. i think it should be a one time thing and done" i said

"why? you deserve better. everyone knows it except for hayes and nash. i literally sat and had a whole conversation with cameron and matt because they love you and know you deserve better, we all hate to see you this worn out because of him" ethan said

"we're gonna fix things" i said

i saw hayes walk in, great.

he saw us and just got 2 drinks and stormed out the door.

"that's just great"i said

"seriously stop being hung up over him. he probably got 2 drinks because ines for another girl. we're here as friends, he knows nothing" ethan said

"i got everything i had to off of my chest so i'll see ya ethan" i said and left.

i walked home and saw a drink and note on my door step.

i picked it up and went inside and read it.

"gab,
        i got you this drink, it's your favorite. i was hoping we could sit outside and talk for a little while but i guess not. i don't know if you already moved on or if you guys were there as friends and it's not my business. but 4 years ago you were hesitant to date me me because you didn't wanna ruin our friendship but you were and always will be the love of my life. and now that this is ruined i'm not me anymore. i've never felt this way before, i don't know why i'm here. i feel empty and worthless. thanks for all the memories lovvva. from dancing in the rain, laughing at 3am, eating till there's not a crumb left, crying, fighting, smiling, going on stage together, being there for one another no matter what to so many more things. these past 4 years have been the greatest and i hate to see them come to an end. i love you and your long dirty blonde hair, your baby blue eyes, little button nose, precious smile, innocent laugh, scary yell, freckles, glasses, and even that scar above your eyebrow. thanks for being my best friend and keeping me on my feet, i love you forever and always. Love, haysiepoo<3"

i felt the tears streaming down my face.

i texted nash, "hey make sure hayes comes home and is okay please"

"he just walked in the door. i got him, thanks" he answered.

i went upstairs and went to bed, i'm tired and had a long day.