love of my life (Hayes Grier)

chapter 52

gabbys POV

"hi Gabriella" he said

"hi daddy" I said

"it's late, you should head home" he said

"I will, where are you staying?" I asked

"I got an apartment about 20 minutes away from here" he said

"do you need a ride there?" I asked

"you can drive already? geez where does time go?" he asked

"well not yet, I have my permit, I go for my license test on January 2nd" I said

"well good luck on it" he said

"why did you come back?" I asked

"what?" he asked

"why did you come back? so suddenly you just wanna be in our lives again?" I asked

"I got sober and realized how much I screwed up and I wanna be there for my kids, I already missed too much" he said

"yeah you did miss a lot. you left us" I said

"I know and I'm sorry" he said

"maybe I should believe the boys on this one. you really did mess up a lot. you took my mom away from me, you hurt her, you hurt me, you hurt zac and Dylan. you don't even deserve forgiveness at this point" I said

"please hear me out Gabriella" he said

"no, I think you should leave" I said

he got up and left.

I sat at the table and could feel the tears coming down my face.

I got up and got a napkin and wiped them away.

I walked for 35 minutes and finally made it to my moms grave.

I sat down and brought my knees to my chest.

"I hate Christmas without you mommy. I hope you enjoy Christmas up there. I miss you so much and all the fun we used to have, I wish I had you to go on mommy days with. I don't know why but I'm missing you a lot more today. I hope your proud of me and what I'm doing. please don't ever stop watching over me, I love you mommy" I said

"hey, I heard you talking. I lost my dad recently, I know what your going through" some really cute kid said to me.

I wiped my tears and stood up, "I'm justin" he said and put his hand out.

"I'm Gabriella" I said

"it's cold out and it's late, do you maybe wanna go get some coffee?" he asked

"sure" I said

"Starbucks ok?" he asked

"yeah" I said

we got in his car and he started talking right away.

"do you live around here?" he asked

"uh yeah and you?" I asked

"yeah, we should go to dinner sometime" he said

"I'm sorry, I have a boyfriend" I said

"just as friends" he said

"oh yeah" I said

"how'd you lose your mom?" he asked

"I'm sorry I don't like talking about it. ya know what, maybe we should do this another time" I said

"I'm sorry, I'll stop" he said

"no no it's fine, but I really gotta go" I said

"oh come on, am I that bad?" he asked