Catch Me (P.Sh) [Sequel]

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Ever since we had started practicing again I had always been the first one to wash up and go to bed immediately. It usually meant that the boys would go around and get ready for bed, whilst I seemingly just tried to fall asleep. I think they often thought I already was asleep, as they mostly would comment about my sleeping habits.

"Just listen to me for once man," Jake sighed as the door to the bedroom opened and I pulled the duvet a bit further up over my shoulder to shield me from the cold wind from the rest of the dorm, "she called you her safe place and she desperately needs that right now. Just at least listen to what the actual situation is."

"She lied... she not only lied, she lied about her age," Sunghoon coldly replied making me let out a small huff.

"How many times do I have to tell you. She didn't know," Jake sighed.

"Then explain to me what you mean by her not knowing," Sunghoon snapped.

"It's not my place to tell you. You should go talk to her about it," Jake stated, "and if you don't, you'll end up losing her. We both know you don't want that."

"I don't mind losing her. She's just a liar anyways. I can't be bothered by those," Sunghoon stated making me sigh and sit up in my bed.

"If you're going to talk about me, at least go do it in a room where I'm not pretending to sleep," I gushed at them making Jake look over at me with wide eyes as Sunghoon just glanced.

"I thought you were sleeping," Jake stated.

"As I said... a liar," Sunghoon gestured to me and smiled bittersweetly at Jake.

"At least don't talk about me if you don't have anything nice to say," I commented making him just glare at me, "honestly, just break up with me already, so I don't have to go and feel bad about this as well," I stated making him open his mouth at me with a frown on his face before he hesitantly closed his mouth.

"You shouldn't tell me what to do," he hissed at me.

"Great, then you shouldn't tell me what I am and what I'm not," I snapped back, "speak as much trash about me as you want, but not in front of me. I don't need it anymore."

"Oh... I'm so terribly sorry if I remind you of your apparently terrible upbringing with constant critisism and hateful comments directed to you," he sarcastically commented, "I'm so sorry I can figure out to have a healthy relationship with my family, unlike you who just goes ahead and leaved them behind. Isn't it just a question of time before you go ahead and leave us as well. Abandon us like you did to them."

"I think we sho-" Jake awkwardly started as Sunghoon and I just stared hard and long at each other.

"Fuck you Park Sunghoon," I hissed at him, "go screw yourself, honestly."

"I really think we should go now," Jake spoke up and tugged on Sunghoon's arm.

By now it was almost as if Sunghoon and I was trying to have a staring competition of who of us could look the meanest at the other for the longest amount of time as Jake just desperately tried to get Sunghoon to follow him out of the bedroom.

"Look, either you two settle this now, or you go with me," Jake stated and looked to Sunghoon.

"Your way of settling this is for me to listen to what she has to say, and I don't want to hear any more lies," Sunghoon stated as he kept starring over at me.

"Then just go already, no one is forcing you to stay," I snapped at him as I rolled my eyes at him, "honestly what did I ever see in you?" I sighed before laying back down and pulling my duvet over me once again, "what a tosser."

"You're teaching me that slang later," Jake called out making me lift my head and watch as he pushed Sunghoon out of the room and slammed the door.

"It means to be an obnoxious jerk," I muttered under my breath, "something that fits quite well lately."

I took in a long deep breath before letting it go in a shaky way as I just closed my eyes tightly. In a way I was happy about what was happening, but in a way I hated everything about it. Why couldn't I just have had a normal childhood, with going to normal school and maybe not a falsified work certificate. That would've been nice.