As there are so many beauties and red flowers gliding towards my very eyes, still...I don't know why such particularity will only benefit me...if I demand myself to see those who had it to have fixations and many temperatures. Although...this phenomenon has given me easiness and freedom in choosing a partner and experiencing romances, it can never help me in elevating my capacity in understanding the poetic misery and interest that the universe has shown when I walked my solitary path.
Whether it happens because the adult development I experience is odd or my brain has shifted so many necessary and unnecessary things inside my head, I can only say...it never disappointed me when quiet walk, midnight dreaming, cold air, and moonlight is inevitable to be enjoyed for the next few decades of adversities. It never failed to show me solidarity and relationships that the crowd of the city has neglected as their desire in building fun places for hangouts is thriving each year.
It has come to my understanding that the passage of acquiring desired recognitions and conquering can only be given by the universe if someone is willing to walk away from an idea or objectives that could broadcast an adhesive curiosity and embedding atmosphere, which is also an act that I recommend should not be urged to emerge inside of us if there is already a penalty from a purpose we adored or happiness from togetherness that breathes a welcoming fresh air.
The life I indulge in...might need to experience therapy in order to see things more clearly behind emotions that are being echoed, but it needs to be known that a life with an essence of stunt and associations towards selfhood is often favorable in enhancing healing and acknowledging necessary shuttering. It has come to my personal experience that such life can only excavate progression when I find myself not engaging the tremors from love attachments and sexual play aggressively.
In the end, it needs to be understood that there is nothing treacherous with wanting to deepen any beliefs and practices. But what matters as always is the acceptance toward the advantage and the deficiency of possessing an element, which tends to attack and will continue to question the soul with unfair emotional responses when it finds unsustainability and an act of following towards advertisement of others within ourselves.