"The school arranged dormitories for students like us selected from the county, but Tang Yu's father told me that he was willing to sponsor me for three years of high school and even four years of college, and was willing to provide me with food, clothing, and accommodation, but he needed me to do him a favor. The one he wanted me to help him was Tang Yu.
Ying Nian said this, lowered his head and took a sip of wine, paused for a while before continuing, "Tang Yu is actually quite smart, but you can also see that just like he doesn't want to work well now, he didn't want to go to school well at that time, either skipping class or sleeping, and his grades were not good. Tang Yu's father wanted me to be friends with him and help him improve his academic performance, he said that he didn't need to be good, but he couldn't fail the door. I thought this was very simple, so I agreed.
"From that day on, I stayed at Tang Yu's house, and although we didn't get along well at first, we got along very well later, and by the second year of high school, we were almost together. At that time, I was really happy, although the relationship could not be made public, but I felt very happy to see each other every day. Tang Yu also studied very hard, hoping to be admitted to the same university as me, even if it was not the same school, he could be in the same city, he really liked me at that time and was very good to me. Don't say I'm injured, it's just that I'm a little unhappy, he is nervous, for fear that I will be uncomfortable.
When Ying Nian said this, he only felt sad, and couldn't help but drink another glass of wine.
Yao Xiuyuan sighed silently in his heart and did not speak.
"Then we went to college together, not in the same school, but it was very close, we rented a house together and started living together, and that's when his friends learned about our real relationship." When he said this, he turned his head to look at Yao Xiuyuan and asked him, "Do you like Ji Qingzhou?" Do you like him?
Yao Xiuyuan smiled a little, "Do you think we don't like him?
Ying Nian shook his head, "I think you guys are very good to him." He said, "Qingzhou is much luckier than me, so I like him very much, and I look at him and feel that the future is still very promising, because someone has already got it, so you know, what you want, can be obtained, is real, and that's good, at least let people have a head."
Yao Xiuyuan listened to his words, only felt that his life was a little too bitter, he lost his parents when he was young, looking forward to a good future, but when he grew up, he was abandoned by his uncle's family, so he could only pin his hopes on reading, telling himself that reading would have a good future. However, until now, he doesn't seem to have waited for a really good future.
However, even so, he still lived very hard, and even compared to his lucky Ji Qingzhou, he was not jealous, but became a friend. He felt that Yingnian's mentality was too good, but it was also too bitter, he didn't say anything, he was gentle and polite every day, and even smiled from time to time, he thought that he just had a failed relationship, thinking that he had let go, as long as Tang Yu stopped entanglement.
But in fact, his heart is like an empty city, the three most important feelings in this life, he seems to have no family affection and love, only friendship is struggling to support, but he does not like to trouble other people's personality, friendship gives him comfort, in fact, there is very little.
"My friends with Tang Yu don't get along well." Ying Nian's words interrupted Yao Xiuyuan's thoughts, he lowered his head and said while drinking, "Chen Mao doesn't like me, you should see this, he is Tang Yu's cousin, so he has a lot of say in Tang Yu's circle, he doesn't like me, and other people naturally won't have any good faces for me in order to cater to him, except for Guan Han." Guan Han is the only one I get along well with among Tang Yu's friends, but it's useless, he doesn't have any right to speak, so even if he helps me speak, it's useless.
"It's not your problem," Yao Xiuyuan comforted him, "You are Tang Yu's lover, and his friends should respect you, even if they don't like it, they shouldn't show it on the surface." If he finds that his friends don't like you targeting you, he should deal with this kind of problem, he didn't handle it well, and let you get along unpleasantly, this is his incompetence, not your problem. Ying
Nian couldn't help but smile when he heard this.
"What are you laughing at? I'm telling the truth.
Ying Young sighed, "If you are Tang Yu's friend, it will be good."
Yao Xiuyuan said with disgust without hesitation, "What did I do wrong, you want to punish me like this, am I not good enough for you?"
Ying Nian laughed and joked rarely, "Maybe."
"Then I can be a little better to you, this is no problem, but with Tang Yu as friends, this is very problematic."
Ying Nian looked at him with a smile, feeling that he seemed to be in a better mood by being hit by him like this.
"Anyway, his friends don't like me very much. Chen Mao looked down on me, and other people didn't think much of me, so although they knew that Tang Yu and I were a couple, they would still arrange someone for him when they went out to play, and they would still introduce boys or girls who felt good to him. I didn't like them like this, I quarreled with them a few times, and I quarreled with Tang Yu a few times, Tang Yu had just lived with me at that time, and was still in love, naturally he cared more about me, so he broke off contact with them for a while, and later, although he resumed it, he has always been very restrained.
Yao Xiuyuan knew that this was probably the bane, Tang Yu was surrounded by temptations arranged for him by others, when Tang Yu was in love with Yingnian, he cared more about Yingnian, he could resist temptation, but when he passed the period of hot love and loved himself more, he would be attracted by those temptations.
Perseverance is a hard thing to do, especially under all kinds of temptations.
"When I was in my senior year, I came to prepare for the civil service exam, and when I was a child, I always felt that it was an honor to sit behind a desk and stamp people, and I also wanted to stamp others. But at that time, Tang Yu's parents knew about our relationship, Tang Yu's father said that he felt that we were not suitable, Tang Yu's mother said very directly, she said that you are not worthy. I sat in the library and thought for a long time, and then gave up the public exam, and even if I passed the exam, I could only be an ordinary small clerk, which was not what their family wanted.
"So I thought of another path, I can't turn myself into a giant, I don't have the talent to start a business, I don't have the money to start a business, but I have a face, I can go to be a star." In that way, at least I will have money, aren't there also celebrities and wealthy nobles who marry? This proves that at least being a star is more acceptable to those wealthy families than being an ordinary person, isn't it?
Yao Xiuyuan shook his head in his heart, but did not refute him, even if the star is rich, for these families, it is just a drop in the bucket that is not in the eyes, those wealthy children who marry the star, either because the other party is really true love, or to use the influence of the star to better promote their brand. In the entire upper class, the Tang family is more than enough than the top, such a family is the most enthusiastic about marriage, and there is no background in Yingnian, which is doomed, the Tang family will not accept him, especially if he is still a boy.
"Does Tang Yu agree that you give up the public examination to enter the entertainment industry?"
"He didn't agree at first, but when I told him the cause and effect, he agreed. He also knew his parents' attitude and knew that if we wanted to get married, we needed to work together, so he agreed with my idea, after all, at that time, we both felt that as long as we both worked together to make ourselves better people, then we could be together again. We said we would work together, but..."
"However, Tang Yu didn't do it." Ying Nian said, and lowered his head to drink.
Yao Xiuyuan felt that he had drunk a little too much, even if it was just fruit wine, he didn't plan to let Ying Nian drink so much, but at this time, he couldn't open his mouth to persuade Ying Nian not to drink it. He finally opened his heart and told him his story, and Yao Xiuyuan couldn't interrupt him at this time.
"The first time he cheated, it was at home, and that day I got off the plane and went home and found a pair of high heels in the place where I changed my shoes, and I realized that something was wrong, probably because I was mentally prepared, and when I pushed the bedroom away, I was actually not shocked. The two of them were still sleeping, and I was a little confused and didn't know what to do for a while. Fortunately, at this time, the woman next to him woke up, and she was a little afraid when she saw me, while explaining that she was only responsible for sending Tang Yu home,While pushing Tang Yu awake.
Ying Nian recalled the scene and felt tired, "Then, she hurriedly dressed and ran out, without washing her face." Tang Yu looked at me in horror and told me that he was drunk yesterday, he didn't realize it, and the woman just sent him home. But I didn't want to hear it, we both quarreled, and at the end of the argument, I left. At that time I felt, I felt that between us, this would become a thorn in my heart, and I would think of this thorn when I saw him in the future, and I knew it very well, so I calmed down and proposed to break up.
"He disagrees." Yao Xiuyuan continued.
"Yes, he disagreed, he was downstairs for seven days, constantly calling me for forgiveness, saying he would never again. He kept talking about our student days, and those memories were so beautiful that I couldn't give them up. So on the last day, it was raining and he was dying, and I went downstairs to meet him and forgave him. But I know that the thorn in my heart is not good, as soon as he touches me, I will think of the thorn, and I will guess whether he and others have done this when I don't know, I will think he is dirty, and I feel that I am dirty, I know that this mentality is not good, I want to adjust my mentality, so I quickly took over the play and went out to film.
Ying Nian was silent for a while before continuing, "After I returned from filming for three months, my mentality was slightly better, and I could continue to live peacefully with him. After almost four or five months, one day, I received two photos from Tang Yu's mother, two photos of Tang Yu and two different women lying on the same bed. She said, you also saw that Xiao Yu can be with women, break up.
"Do you know why Tang Yu's cheating objects are all women?" Ying Nian asked him.
Yao Xiuyuan did not speak.
Ying Nian didn't need his answer, he asked himself, "Because these Tang Yu felt that he was the one who was making a scene, it was all Chen Mao who was looking for him. Chen Mao's mother is Tang Yu's mother's sister, and Tang Yu's mother can't accept Tang Yu being with me, so he asked Chen Mao, the brother, to help him look at Tang Yu, and because of this, Chen Maocai has always disliked me. He only looks for women, not for anything else, or to let me and Tang Yu know that Tang Yu is not purely gay, he can be with women, that's all.
Ying Nian sighed and began to drink. His wine was almost drunk, but fortunately his words were almost spoken.
I asked Tang Yu if the photo was real, and his expression said it all. I suddenly felt very uninteresting, what is the use of me working alone, his parents do not approve of us, his friends do not approve of us, and now, even he himself does not recognize us, so why should we be together? Because of love? But do we still have love? So, I filed for a breakup, I moved out, and I felt like we didn't need to be together anymore, no one wanted us to be together, and I didn't even feel like we wanted us to be together.