Shawn Mendes Imagines

Distance

"I love you, I'll call you after my show." Shawn's bright smile flashed across the screen as he hung up the call before I could say anything else.

"I love you too." I whispered softly looking at the blank phone screen. Being away from Shawn sucks, but I know he's living his dream. I feel like I stop him from living his dream, I mean he is touring the world, he shouldn't have to worry about a girlfriend back home. I love Shawn, I love him so much, but maybe our relationship was too soon.

I plugged my phone up to the charger and laid it down on the nightstand beside the bed. I leaned back onto the comfortable mattress and turned on my side. Thoughts ran through my head.

What if he cheats?

What if he finds someone better on tour?

Should I just leave?

My eyes began to get heavy, I closed my eyes and slowly drifted off to sleep.

•
I awoke to a loud ringing. I rubbed my eyes with the palm of my hands to help me wake up. I grabbed my phone and squinted to see the caller ID.

"Hey Shawn." I said tiredly.

"Hey baby, I'm sorry if I woke you." He said sounding exhausted.

"It's okay, um," the recent thoughts reentered my mind, "can we talk about something?" I asked trying to swallow the lump that was growing in my throat.

"Yes, of course." Shawn said voice filled with curiosity of what I was talking about.

"I miss you Shawn, and I know that you're living your dream and all that, and I feel like I'm holding you back from doing what you want to do. I love you so much Shawn, but we need to break up." Warm tears rolled down my cheeks as I processed what was happening.

Shawn was quiet for a few seconds before saying, "y/n, I love you, you're not holding me back from anything. I don't want to lose you." Shawn's voice was soft but stern.

"Shawn," I let out a small sob, "Let's face it, this isn't a relationship. When was the last time we saw each other in person? When was the last time we actually kissed? Talking to someone that is millions of miles away from you is not a relationship Shawn."

"If that's how you feel y/n, then fine! But just know that I still love you, and that this meant everything to me, even though it didn't mean shit to you." He hung up the phone before I could say anything else. I was a crying wreck, that's not what I meant at all. Our relationship was the best thing that happened to me.

I'm going to be in a car for 5 hours, yay 🙄