Trigger Warning: Kinda deep, a bit personal.
A semi-rant :P (let's say).
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I've never had a happier life.
I haven't been depressed in months,
I've stayed positive ever since I got out of my depressive state.
So yeah, I've never been any happier.
Or have I?
I've been pushing away every bad feeling coming towards me.
And I can sustain that push.
I'm stable enough to keep pushing.
I'll never burst again.
I'll never be depressive again.
Now, I consider depression as a weakness.
A weakness to us humans.
I'm sorry, didn't mean to offend depressive people.
I want to help depressive beings so that they can understand how depression isn't worth the damage it causes, mentally.
But I'm still sorry.
Didn't mean to insult,
Didn't mean to give my opinion.
Sorry, right.
This is society.
Where people are still racist, sexist, homophobic.
Where we get judged on everything we do.
On every opinion we have.
People idolize women like Kim Kardashian.
People strive for money and popularity.
Disgusting.
Drugs, alcohol,
They ruin people's lives.
Alcohol has partly ruined mine, and I'm not even the consumer.
But I still stay positive...
Yeah.. positive.
Or maybe I'm just getting cold.
Colder and colder.
I feel happiness, of course I do.
But when I don't... I feel what? I feel nothing.
Love?
I feel love, I do,
But thats a secret I'll have to keep for myself.
Other than that,
I don't feel anything.
And I enjoy being around cold-hearted people.
Love them, they're so unique.
Although do I really want to be one of them?
Be cold, no pity, no pain, no sadness...
No happiness? No love?
I can't. I can't live without those two.
My friends keep me happy,
She helps me feel love, without actually knowing she does...
But sadness? Anger?
Those won't reach me.
But should I keep pushing them away? I don't know.
One last thing,
I'm good, trust me, I'm not depressive.
I've just been feeling
A little bit
Colder...
Than usual.
Although I'm partly fine with that.
Thank you guys for making me smile so much (That includes you guys and my other friends).
And a special thanks to you (she), the one who shall, unfortunately, not be named.
Peace out Peasants.
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I'm fine, really. Just felt like expressing myself a bit.
I'm the same Dark you all know and love ;)
