*Jessie*
We have been up in Danny’s room for 4 hours now only half hour to wait Clair has just sat there Daydreaming and Holly and Clair keep giving each other the ‘What do we say’ look I just shrug and so does she Glen and Mark have been sat there awkwardly, I don’t blame them to be honest, if me and Holly don’t know what to say then what are Glen and Mark meant to say Clair has not stopped clutching Mason since we got back to the room I don’t blame her if that was me Rosie and Shaya wouldn’t be out of sight, after nearly 4 hours straight I break the silence not that it went through Clair’s mind I don’t even think she heard me.
Jessie: Does anyone want a coffee Clair Mason will be hungry ill get him a bottle yeah?
Nothing?
Still nothing
Holly: BABE!
Clair: w-what?
Holly: Mason he’s going to be hungry he hasn’t been fed in over 4 hours
Clair: y-yeah I will get him one now
Holly: No glen and Mark will go..wont you
Mark: yeah coffee all round
Jessie: thanks guys
Glen: no problem this is kind of awkward anyway and Dan will be out in a bit
Jessie: I know and yeah I thought the same
They leave and Clair goes back to the way she was before I just look at Mason who is just staring at her and I me and Holly are taken aback to what she says next.
Clair: s-she’s going to die before she’s born I can tell it I just know I don’t want to lose her she’s part of me, Jess Hol I don’t want her to die Help me please this is killing me.
Jessie: Babe she will get through this, it will be hard but we will be here
Holly: she will be a fighter
Clair: you don’t understand
Jessie: How do you mean?
Clair: s-she has a higher risk of dying than staying alive and I still have another 6 months of being pregnant with her she’s going to die, if her condition is getting worse now how bad will her condition be when she’s born, not only is her heart bad but her breathing as well, you heard him its rare that a baby has this condition.
Holly: Babe I don’t know what to say?
Clair: Exactly, you know as well as I do that this baby is going to die my baby is going to die how do I get over that how do I get that into my head my daughter and Mason’s sister will more than likely die if not before she’s born or during the operation how can I cope with this how do I tell people, Danny will be so disappointed that I was stupid enough to take Kyle back this is all so fucked up I'm letting so many people down, this is all my fault because I read when I was pregnant with Mason that if a baby has a condition that its either in the genes or it’s the way your pregnancy is going this is all my fault shes gunna die and that’s down to me. Its my fault my daughters going to die.
She is now in tears as am I and Holly.
Jessie: NO, don’t say that this is not your fault and Dan will be far from disappointed he will see Kyle has changed don’t ever say this is your fault it is not ok it’s not your fault.
Clair: Jess this is all my fault how an I put her through this and even if she does survive she might still have problems in the future and she wont be normal she will hate me and I don’t blame her.
Holly: Shut up talking like that you are a great mum to Mason and she will not hate you she will get through this you have us all and Kyle is coming home.
Clair: How long will the nice Kyle last a day, I don’t want to get hurt I cant I have to protect Mason and her now if he’s going to make me think he will be there and then when times get hard leave and say he cant do it, then I don’t want him back, you think I should tell his mum or do you think he should do it.
Jessie: babe, if his mum sees its him calling she wont answer its best coming from you and sooner than later babe you have to stay strong and get through this for her and Mason.
Clair: I know and I will ring her now.
(Phone Call)
Ailish: Hello?
Clair: Hey, Ailish it’s Clair
Ailish: oh hello love, how is Mason
Clair: yeah Mason is fine, i-I was ringing to errr tell you—
Ailish: what’s a matter sweetie
Clair: I'm pregnant
Ailish: is it Kyles
Clair: yeah its Kyles
Ailish: oh babe how can you do this on your own your so strong I'm here
Clair: that’s not all..
Ailish: what’s up you sound like your crying
Clair: it’s a girl, and sh-e is Ill
Ailish: what do you mean she’s Ill
Clair: she has a hole in her heart, and breathing problems there is a high chance she wont make it through this pregnancy and if she does she has to under go major heart surgery that she most likely not survive.
Clair is now in bits
Ailish: is Danny with you
Oh shit I never told her I shake my head at Clair because I don’t want her to hate me
Clair: errr no
Ailish: what about Jess
Clair: yeah she’s here
Ailish: can you put her on please
Clair: ok..Jess
Jessie: Hello
Ailish: helloo Jess you ok?
Jessie: yeah I'm ok thanks yourself
Ailish: upset, and you promise me Jessie you and Danny will look after her and the baby be there for her send this message to Holly as well I'm assuming she’s there
Jessie: of course we will look after her and this baby, yeah Holly is here
Holly: Hello, Ailish
Ailish: you ok love?
Holly: I'm alright thanks you
Ailish: yeah I'm ok, Jess how are Rosie and Shaya?
Jessie: yeah they are ok
Ailish: that’s good and how’s Harry
Holly: he’s fine thanks
Ailish: that’s good, Clair listen to me stay strong for the little one and Mason if you need me to fly back and help with Mason I will
Clair: thank you and I will be ok these will look after me, and ahhh Kyle is coming home
Ailish: ohh?
Clair: yeah he said he’s changed but I'm not sure
Ailish: we will have to see maybe he has
Clair: that’s what I said..
Ailish: ok then Love I'm on the end of the phone, and on the next flight if you need me
Clair: thank you so much means so much ill speak soon bye
Ailish: no worries Clair bye
(end of call)
Clair: well that’s one challenge done
Jessie: babe we are all here for you
Clair: I know..
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