Delilah Morecelli

Chapter 75

I didn't want to get out of bed. I was supposed to go help Nadia open the book store today, but I don't want to do anything or answer to anyone. Now I know how Bella from twilight felt like. I didn't mean to do that to him, my last letter was an apology and hoped he'd understand. Gio has been texting me nonstop but I don't want to see anyone I'm a mess right now.

I waited for him, I apologized consistently. I wanted to talk it out with him and explain what happened but he shut me out. I didn't think Nikolai would ever hate me, it fucking hurts. I couldn't help but cry nonstop.

Nikolai has been by my side since elementary. My soulmate, there won't ever be someone that can replace him. Not that I ever will. Nikolai holds a special place in my heart, it's only reserved for him only.

I have to talk to him again I don't want us to end. I grabbed the keys to my car and drove to his house. I knocked no one answering. I looked through the window and see him walking by. As if he sensed me he looked my way and headed to open the door.

I heard the unlocking and sighed in relief. I saw my reflection through my phone, and I look like I got ran over by a bus, great. He opened the door and I looked at him. His face changed, he looked more sad. There was a scar on his cheek and all I wanted to do was kiss him.

"Are you going to fucking speak or stand there looking stupid. I have things to do and you're wasting my time." I flinched as his harsh tone his voice was deeper. I couldn't help but tear up why was he so mean.

I inhaled before speaking and looked at him. "Nik can I explain please? I'm sorry." He scoffs and shuts the door on me. I really did lose him. I broke down crying on my way to my car. I drove to this cliff I had found while adventuring, I can see the sunset here.

I parked and got out the car needing fresh air. I sat down on the edge and looked down. He changed his mind, he doesn't want me anymore. I knew this day would come one day, where he woke up and realized I wasn't worth his time anymore. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore. I stayed sitting there looking down at the water until someone yanked me back.

I was startled and pushed the person away from me. "What the fuck Delilah!" I looked at Nikolai and relaxed when I saw it was him.

"What the hell are you thinking sitting so close to that fucking ledge!" Why is he yelling at me.

"Stop yelling at me!" I couldn't stop my voice from shaking and the tears from falling out. He looked at me like as if I was crazy. "Fuck Delilah, you...you can't scare me like that what the hell you could have fallen, and died." He cares.

"I'm sorry." He shook his head "stop saying you're sorry. I don't care about your apologies, I can live with you being around me and not being together. But I can't stand the thought of you being gone permanently Delilah. I don't ever want to see you on that fucking ledge do you understand." He hugged me to his chest and I felt like crying again.

"You broke my heart Delilah. I love you and you completely destroyed me." I cried in his chest the sound of his voice sounding so pained made it worse. I fucked up badly.

"Please let me fix it, Nikolai." I grabbed his hands pleading to him. Only for him to shake his head. "I can't Delilah." We both cried in each others embrace. We sat there him hugging me. And I basked in his warmth and love one last time. Because this was it.

"I still love you, I always will Nikolai." I looked up at him and grabbed his face gently memorizing his features one last time.

"I can't hate you Delilah, that's one thing I can't feel when it concerns you. You surround my head all the time. I still love you but you're not mine anymore." He kissed me gently and walked away completely out of my life.

I went home with my heart completely shattered.

AN: the end ;)
Wow am I the problem I don't think I am. Love you lots hope you like this chapter.