I feel so safe with him but i also feel scared . What if i do let him into ny life and he does what Jax did .
I know its wrong to say all the boys the same but -
You know what everyone deserves to be given a chance ."Miranda May dont fucking scare me like this are you okay ?" He whispers in my ear .
" Im not okay but ill be alright T ," i laugh while sniffling
"Shordy , i used to get panick attacks when i would think about my brother i know somethings causing this ," he says softly
"Wait why your brother ?" I ask curiously.
"Shaw this isnt about me , atleast just tell me your okay ," he sighs
"I told you already im okay T , please dont worry about me ," i smile .
"How do you expect me not to worry shaw , i just feel some typa way about you , i dont know what that way is but it definetly isnt this friends shit you have us on ,"
"I know he hurt you May , i witnessed him do it to you , i know how he treated you wasn't right , i would never neglect you the way he did , "
"Fuck comparison , i just want you to give us a chance , i know this fame thing may get in the way , i know its new to you , but its new to me , so its new to we . We can navigate through it together ," i interupt him
"Tjay I - ," he interupts me just like i did him .
"Shordy hear me out here , lemme take you out today and then you can say whatever it is you wanna say , please ," he pouts .
"Who told you i was finna say no to whatever your saying ," i laugh .
"I want you to be my girl , im not finna ask you that shit in my car , girls like special shit dont they ," he smiles tucking my curly hair behind my ear .
Fuck straightening it anymore , im finna embrace this part of me , the part thats more like Tjay . The part that makes me feel like the real me ." fine ill go out with you today , but you know you had already told me we're going out ," i laughed
"You good to go to the hotel or you still wanna take a break ? " he asks
"I think im good to go babe ," i say the last part more to myself .
"You really goin' ham on the nicknames today aren't you shaw ?" He laughs putting the car in drive and continuing down the road to the hotel .
"Says the guy who was talking about being my man a breath ago ," he scoffs playfully and continues driving .
We get to the hotel and im shocked by how expensive it looks . It looks like Tjay really went all out .
People who look like they work at the hotel take our bags and Tjay tells then to take them to our room .I go to the reception with Tjay so we can check in .
"Hi , can i have my room number under the name Merrit ?" Tjay said to the receptionist .
"That will be the penthouse suite on the top floor Mr and Mrs Merrit , " she said making me and Tjay both laugh at the name .
"You ready to go up Mrs Merrit ? " he laughs intertwining our fingers . I just smile at him and say nothing . Im so smitten when im around this boy that i cant even talk anymore .
We take the elevator up to the top floor and let me just say this is the most expensive place ive been to all my life .
My parents dont do nice stuff for me . Ever . He opens the door using our key card and im not surprised that our bags are already there .
We close the door behind us and sit on the bed admiring the room .
"You know we dont have to share a room if you - ," he interupts me pecking my lips and resting his forehead on mine . Our first fucking kiss ."I got this room for the both of us shaw , plus i like to cuddle ," he laughed getting up from the bed .
"So what do you have planned for the day ? "
"That parts a surprise shordy ," he smiles .
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A/nHeyy guys . Dont have much to say .
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