Emotional Suicide || [EDITING]

Chapter 6

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After stopping by my house to change i head over to Jax's house and as usual he's parents aern't. 
Ive been here over a million times so i let myself in and go up to his room where i find him lying on his bed and reading a chemistry book . Mmm strange , maybe he has a test .

"Hey," i whisper loud enough for him to hear me .

"What was that ?" He answers .

"I said he.....," he interupts me

"I meant at school , why did you do that , were you trying to embarass me ?" He spat coldly.

"Look Ajax i don't even know the guy  ," i sigh .

"So why did you defend him ," he says getting up , hes right though if i didn't know Tjay why did i just defend him like that , knowing the consequences that would follow .

"I just felt like you were being a bit disrespectful thats all ," here i go defending him again .

Ajax steps closer and slow runs hand through my hair "who are you to tell me when im being disrespectful?" I dont say anything back and with that he girps my hair really tight .

"You think your some big shot because you have a rapper friend hmmm?" He asks biting his lip and i dont say anything " well i think its kinda hot how you think your some kind of boss bitch who doesn't follow the rules anymore ," he laughs menacingly and starts to kiss my neck .

"Well let me put you in your place he says unbuttoning my teal blue shirt , i shouldn't have taken my hoodie off .

"Ajax you know im a virgin you promised ," i say with tears streaming down my face .

"Shutup May ," he says slamming me against the wall "you promised to be a good girl too ," he pulls off my shirt completely leaving me in my bra and tights "i guess we all break promises .

I try to push him off of me but his too strong , but i have to fight , i cant just let him win like this . He grabs me by the arm and gives me a quick punch to the face and my nose immediately starts to bleed .
The drops of blood feel like tears .

Tears. Something that im so accustomed to but still fail to get used to , something i know are bound to come but still bring shock with their arrival just like pain . The pain i feel is always expected but somehow always foreign. I cant let this be my life so i plead .

"Ajax please dont do this please ," i cry with all my willpower but he just places a hand on my mouth and pulls down my pants . He unzips his pants and slightly lowers them revealing his length

He removes his hand from my mouth and shoves himself in my mouth making me almost choke to which he starts groaning in pleasure . He does this for atleast ten minutes until i bite him .
"Aaah shit ," he says in pain . I guess i did nothing except make him mad i tried to get up but he got on top of me pulled my panties off then spread my legs open .

He pushed himself into me and started doing fast deep strokes and i started to cry , it really really hurt , but the look of satisfaction on his face made me lose hope in this human race , why are people like that ? Im officially done with this asshole i know he'll never change .

He was clearly enjoying himself until he pulled out and came all over my face . There was blood all over the bed and i could barely even stand up , i feel so dirty,  a dirt that cannot be washed away by a meer shower .
"Get out and go straight home ," he said lowly as i struggled to even pick up my clothes .

"Ajax i cant walk let alone drive , how am i supposed to get home ?" I cry in pain .

"Figure it out," he says so i take my stuff and get out .

I go to the front porch and start going through my contacts looking for someone to pick me up , i dont have many friends so i have limited options . Infact i have no friends what am i saying ?

I stand outside and dm Tjay on Instagram hoping he'll reply , i wait ten minutes and i conclude that his not going to reply so i start contemplating walking home .
I feel my phone start to vibrate and i notice its Tjay video calling me , i answer but i don't show my face "Wassup shordy ," im too tired to even tell him not to call me that . He sounds like hes getting lit wherever he is .

"Hey umm are you busy ?" I murmur .

"Well yeah but whatchu need ?" He says seemingly walking away from the noise. 

"I need you to pick me up ill send you my location, " i sniffle a bit .

"Oh okay im on my way ," he says with seriousness in his voice