Save Me

ninety three

"Spencer, I love you too."

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[Anthony's POV]

Olivia is dating Spencer. I'm happy for her, she deserves someone who can love her without being judged because of their age difference. I always knew that I could never be that person for her. But she is my everything! I have to get over her. I have to let her live her life and date people her own age.

A couple weeks have gone by since she has woken up. She is living with Lin and Vanessa currently. She always complains to me about how much she misses the theater. Although we haven't talked in a while. I feel like the best thing I can do for her is let her live her life again, no matter how much it hurts me to distance myself from her.

I wish that the accident had never happened. Not only because Olivia got hurt but because we would still be best friends and she wouldn't be dating Spencer. These are selfish reasons, I know. I am a selfish person. I have let my personal irrational feelings keep her from living her life. I am such a horrible person.

Tonight is my first day back for Hamilton and I honestly don't even care. All I can think about is Olivia and how she is in love with someone that isn't me. No, stop. You can't think that way about her anymore. It isn't fair for her.

Why did I have to catch feelings? She is so young but when I'm with her the age doesn't matter. I love her. Stop, Anthony! You don't love her. You can't..

I begin to get ready for the day and head to the theater, might as well be early and get some extra practice in. I mindlessly drive to the theater while listening to some music. My nerves are on edge as my hand nervously grips the wheel. I hate driving ever since that day but it's something I can't afford to give up in this cold weather.

December has finally arrived and the only thing I can think of is how much I am going to miss Olivia and I's talks on the roof of the theater. I don't want to bring her out in this cold.

Once I arrive at the theater I walk in and am filled with a comforting feeling. I didn't realize how much I missed this place. I am suddenly filled with an intense urge to perform the best I ever have. I need to distract myself from everything, what's better than my work?

I head up to dressing room and set my stuff down, I walk through the hallway and see if anyone else has arrived. The only other person here is Jasmine. Awkward. I should probably see how she is doing though.

I knock on her door lightly and push it open.

"Hey, Jazz." I say to her. She gives me a confused look but then smiles and says hello to me.

"How are you feeling?" She asks me.

"Good, I'm coming back on the show tonight." I tell her.

"That's great." She says and begins to pull her hair back into a ponytail.

"I'm sorry I was a jerk to you. You know, about the abortion. I was in the wrong and I apologize." I blurt out. I didn't even know that I was going to say that until I did.

"Anthony, I-"

"I miss you." I interrupt her.

"I'm dating Gregory." She says.

Embarrassment floods through my body. I feel my cheeks flush a deep red and my hand finds its way into my hair.

"Oh, uh. That's great." I say. "That's really great. I, um, I should go get ready."

"Anthony.." She says to me.

I leave without turning around and walk back to my room, slamming the door behind me.

Hello everyone, a little Anthony and Jazzy encounter. What did you think?

I just wanted to wish you all a happy Christmas, or whatever you celebrate (: I wanted to get this chapter up as a little gift to my amazing readers.

I love you all so much!

- aibhlinn