Save Me

eighty eight

"I love you, Olivia. Keep fighting baby girl."' He says to me.

Lin, I miss you. Please save me.

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[Anthony's POV]

The hospital monitors around me beeped rhythmically, filling the silent room. Hardly anyone has come to see me since the accident. Honestly, I don't blame them. This is all my fault. Olivia never would've been hurt if she wasn't with me that night.

I want to visit her so badly but my doctor won't let me leave my bed. More and more each day I hate myself. I love her so much.

Olivia is my best friend, my one and only. My life was so bland before I met her. I was dating Jasmine and I guess I was happy but Olivia is just so much different. Olivia is like the sun, she is my sun.

I would give anything to go back to that night and change everything so that I was the one who had the most injuries and not her. Why couldn't it have just been me?

Chris visited me last night. All he did was yell at me and reinstate the fact that all of this is my fault. I know it's my fault but it hurt so badly to hear it come out of his mouth. He has always been like a father to me.

Lin is never going to forgive me. Hell, I'm never going to forgive me.

I grab my phone from my bedside table and log into periscope. I find Lin's profile and click on one of his streams of Olivia singing.

My heart breaks as I see her smile awkwardly to the camera, terrified of all the viewers. Lin says something funny and she bursts out laughing.

Her smile makes my eyes sting with tears. What if she never wakes up? What if I never see her smile again or hear her sing? What if I never get to tell her that I love her?

I can't love her, I have to stop falling for her. Olivia would never feel the same and Lin would never agree to our relationship. I have to stop these feelings.

I grab my hair and pull in frustration. I sigh loudly and set my phone down. I have to visit her, I have to see her and make sure she is ok.

I page my nurse and she walks in after a minute.

"How can I help you, Mr. Ramos?" She asks politely, smiling at my nicely.

"Could I please visit Olivia Orion? I know I need bed rest but I can't sleep without seeing her. Please?" I beg her.

She sighs deeply and says, "Ok, but you can't tell your doctor."

My heart soars as she helps me into a wheelchair. She wheels me down the hall and opens the door to Olivia's room.

My stomach drops when I see her. She doesn't even look like herself anymore. Her face is bruised and she is connected to a breathing tube.

I gasp loudly and my hand flies to my mouth in shock.

"Olivia.." I whisper as the nurse brings me closer to her bed.

"I will be back in a little bit," she says and closes the door behind her.

I reach out and grab her hand, her fingers are freezing but I don't mind.

"I'm so sorry.. I know you probably can't hear me but I just have to tell you how sorry I am. If I could change positions with you I would in a heartbeat. I-I... I don't know how to help you." I say to her.

I begin to sing, knowing that it is one of the only things that calms her down. She must be so scared.

"When you try your best but don't succeed. When you get what you want but not what you need. When you feel so tired but you can't sleep. Stuck in reverse.." I sing softly, my voice shaking slightly.

"When the tears come streaming down your face. When you lose something you can't replace. When you love someone but it goes to waste. Could it be worse?" I grip her hand tightly.

"Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones and I will try to fix you." I finish.

"Keep fighting, Olivia. I'm here for you." I say and kiss her hand softly before the nurse comes in and takes me back to my room.

Hello everyone... I'm so sorry... Like seriously I am the worst person ever. I haven't updated in so long and I feel terrible about it. I am going through some really difficult times and it's not an excuse and I should try harder, I promise I will.

I hope you enjoyed despite the long break! I still love Anthony just so you know.

Currently in a really bad mental space so that's why I'm so absent from wattpad, going through the worst depression and anxiety of my life haha.

Anyways, love you. Goodnight (:

- aibhlinn