Save Me

eighty five

After he finishes his prayer I whisper under my breath so Gregory can't hear me, "Keep fighting, Olivia. You can do this, I believe in you. Stay alive for me, stay alive for Lin, stay alive for.. Stay alive for Anthony. No, stay alive for all of us. It isn't your time to go. Please, just stay alive."

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[Lin's POV]

The uncomfortable hospital chair squeaks loudly as I move into a more comfortable position staring at the now unfamiliar body in the hospital bed next to me. The beeping monitors around me are keeping me from sleeping. Olivia's limp body is laying in the hospital bed. The tube that is inside her throat makes rhythmic sounds as it breathes for her. She looks lifeless, nothing like what she usually looks like. Guilt gnaws at my stomach.

A nurse said that she suffered from a lot of injuries and her body needs time to heal so she might not wake up for a while and even then she might not wake up at all.

What will I do if she dies? I will never forgive myself for letting her go on that trip with Anthony. She can't die, her story has only just began.

If she dies I will never see her smile or watch her eyes light up. I will never listen to her laugh at one of Oak's terrible jokes, she is the only one who thinks they are funny. I will never get to periscope her doing a cover as an excuse to see her face light up as she does the thing she loves most.

She never told me that she loved me. I told her that I love her all the time but not once has she repeated the three words back. At first I thought it was just because she has been hurt so many times before but now I am thinking that maybe she doesn't love me at all.

I failed her. I promised that I would save her and protect her but bad things keep happening to her. She's like a magnet, I wish I could destroy the magnetic field and free her of this pain but I don't know how.

Anthony is a complete wreck, I can't help but feel angry with him even though I know this isn't his fault. I am more angry with myself, I have been giving her space to be independent because that is what she has been used to her whole life but I should've been more protective of her. She is my daughter and I haven't been acting like a father, I have been acting like her friend.

Why did I let her go with Anthony? He is hardly even an adult, he is so good with her and makes her happy but I am her father. She always goes to Anthony when she is upset, why is that? Why doesn't she call me when she needs someone to hold her?

I am not good enough for her. I have been a horrible father to her. She is broken and despite how much I want to fix her, I don't know how and that breaks my heart everyday.

Vanessa walks into the hospital room and gives me a sympathetic look.

"She looks so helpless." Vanessa says, stroking the top of Olivia's head. "You should come home and get some rest, love."

"I can't leave her here, Vanessa. What if she wakes up all alone and I'm not here?" I say defensively.

"The doctors said it will be awhile before she wakes up, I know that it is hard but Sebastian needs you. Chris has been watching him today but he will drop him off tonight and he will stay the night with Olivia, ok?" She reassures me.

"Ok." I give in. I trust Chris with my life and I know he will watch Olivia and keep her company even if she is asleep.

We drive home and wait for Chris to arrive with Sebastian. He knocks on the door a little after 10 and I open to find Sebastian asleep in his arms.

"Hey, Chris. Thanks for being such a big help." I say to him, taking Sebastian out of his arms and into mine.

"It's no problem. Any news about Olivia?" He asks.

"It might be a while before she wakes up but she's out of surgery." I tell him, he sighs and says goodnight before leaving.

I put Sebastian in his crib and go into my bedroom and lay next to Vanessa.

I wrap my arms around her and kiss the back of her neck quickly before laying my head down.

"What if she doesn't wake up, Vanessa?" I say into the silent room. The silence pounds in my ear painfully.

"I love you, Lin." She whispers.

"I love you, more." I say back.

Hello everyone, drama coming in next chapter so wait for it! I really miss the beginning of summer when this story only had 100 views and I was motivated enough to write 5 chapters in one day.

Goodnight.

- aibhlinn