My Stepbrother

Chapter 1

Jessica's POV

Yes, Justin Bieber is my stepbrother..
His mom and my dad got together in late 2011. They got married in September of 2012 and ever since this it's been nothing but hard.
I've been in love with Justin ever since the beginning. The only thing is, he doesn't know that i was a fan before i moved in with my dad.
I lived with my mom all my life and one morning i was on my way to school and we got hit by a large transport truck. My mom died right then and there, and i survived after many many days in the hospital.
I was forced to live with my dad in Atlanta, Georgia.
Him and Pattie were already moved in together when i arrived, and it was perfect because he never knew i liked Justin or was a fan of his music, therefore Justin or Pattie never knew either.
Ever since that day that Justin came down over the stairs my whole life completely turned upside down.
It's so hard to try and keep my cool and stay calm around someone your going crazy for and i also know that it's extremely weird to have feelings for my step brother, but it isn't my fault, if i could control my feelings and not like him like that i would but it's so hard. The weirder thing about it is i have a boyfriend... and i like my step brother more than him.


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' Hey Jess have you seen my mom or Ben? ' He asked me looking deeply into my eyes

' Yeah, they both left early this morning to go for a run! ' i answered him checking out his perfect and fit body.

' Good. ' he said slyly making his way over to where i was sitting.

He picked me up and placed his hands under my bum, i wrapped my arms around his neck and my lips crashed into his. My tongue exploring his mouth, his exploring mine.
We made our way over to the couch and he laid me down gently, climbing on top of me. We continued kissing as i got his Black T-shirt off. Then, he pulled mine over my head and worked on unclasping my purple lace bra.
I rolled over on top of him and undid the button to his pants. Then began to feel his perfect abs.
He began kissing my neck then led down to my neck , then my breasts, then my stomach. He reaches his hands down my leopard print panties and because circling his fingers slowly around.

I could feel his erection growing harder and harder against my belly. The kissing was becoming more and rough. Now i was back on bottom and he was sucking my breasts.
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I shot up, dripping with sweat, my heart was racing. When i finally came to realize it was another one of my dreams, i laid back down on my pillow and took deep breaths.
These dreams about me and him, they've been becoming a weekly thing. I'm not sure i can say that i don't like them because i really do, but the only people who know about them are me and my diary that i keep hidden under my mattress.

Pattie knocked lightly on my door ' Jess wake up we're leaving here in 1 hour. '

' Oh shit ' i thought to myself. i completely forgot today is the day i'm going to his concert for the first time!

I quickly made my way over to the bathroom that was off my room and hopped in the shower.
The warm water splashed all around my body and the water trickled down my spine, when i got out i did my daily routine. dried my hair, brushed my teeth, applied my makeup and then got dressed.

I had twenty minutes to decide what to wear and i decided on my white lace dress and my dark purple wedge heels. I loved wearing purple because it was one of my favorite colors and Justin's too!

The limo was already outside the house waiting for us, i could see it from my bedroom window.
I walked down the stairs and my dad, Pattie and Justin were waiting.

' Wow Jess, you look beautiful! ' Justin complimented me, leaving me smiling with butterflies in my stomach.

' Thanks Justin! ' i said smiling.

' Jess, your beautiful! ' Pattie and my dad told me.

' Thank you both so much! ' i answered, leaning in to hug my dad.

Pattie announced it was time to leave and we all went out the door and made our way to the vehicle

I sat by Justin in the limo, and i really enjoyed myself. We were singing along to all the songs off his new album Believe.
When we arrived at the arena, the screaming got louder and louder. There were so many screaming fans, just waiting for Justin to arrive.
Pattie was the first out of the car, then me and then Justin. He walked over near the fans and told me to come with him.
To my surprise the fans wanted to get pictures with me as well! I was flattered. After 20 minutes of spending time with the fans Justin grabbed my arm gently with his soft hands and walked me in through the side door of the arena.


We still had the full day at the arena ahead of us. Justin was doing a dress rehearsal and later on before the concert, meet & greets.


Dress rehearsal with Justin was so fun! It was like my own private concert. And personally i love the sound of that.
When Justin was finished he had an hour to spare. He invited me on stage to goof around. We were singing and dancing to ' All Around The World ' and ' Boyfriend '. Now my two personal favorites!

The concert started and i got to watch in the audience with Pattie, Scooter and Fredo. It was so cool!
We never left the arena until late that night, Justin also invited me to the after party. That really surprised me because he was going with his friend Ryan and i really figured he wouldn't want his step sister there.
We went to someone's house and danced the night away it was really fun! I felt so free tonight, i felt safe with Justin and i really felt that bond. He bought me my first alcoholic beverage ever, then my second, then my third... When i started to get more so on the drunker side Justin took me home and the last thing i can remember is him helping me to my bed. Whispering ' don't worry, i got your back. '

I woke up this morning quickly learning what a hangover felt like. I went downstairs in the kitchen, wearing only my black V-neck tshirt that's long enough to hide my bum.
To my surprise Justin was already downstairs and cooking breakfast for himself. He heard me and quickly turned around.
' Oh hey Jess! ' He said laughing to himself. ' Sleep well? '

' Uh yeah i guess so! ' i replied pouring myself a glass of orange juice. ' Do you know where my dad is? ' i asked him taking my seat at the table.

' Him and my mom are going on a little vacation! I think that's what i heard them taking about last night. They're in their room packing. ' He said sitting across from me.

This was good, i thought to myself. Me and Justin alone in this house. It was definitely going to be fun, because i feel like after last night, we really got to know each other and created a bond between us.

' Oh really? How long are they going for? ' i asked him.

' 2 weeks i heard my mom say! ' he said looking into my eyes.

'sweet' i whispered under my breath.
After showering and doing the daily routine, i was going to meet Chad, my boyfriend of 9 months.
He texted me earlier this morning and told me to ' meet him at the park. '

I said goodbye to my dad & Pattie and wished them a good trip! Then i walked out to my ford focus and hopped in and drove to the park.

I seen Chad waiting under a big tree, I walked over and hugged him. He never hugged me back...
' Jess, i can't do this anymore. We never see each other anymore and we barely ever talk. It's too hard to keep a relationship going like this and i'm just sick and tired of it. ' he said to me coldly looking down at his torn black converse.

I was speechless and couldn't think of anything to say. I didn't know what to do. I felt the tears coming on and tried to hold them back but i couldn't, one was already rolling down my cheek. With that, i started to run back to my car.
' Jessica wait! ' he called out behind me.

I ignored him, i had nothing more to say to him.

I was still crying by the time i got home. I ran into the house, up over the stairs and ran straight to my room. I curled up in a ball at the corner of my room and cried. I mean, i never loved him that much but you never know what you got until it's gone i guess.
I pulled out my diary from under my mattress and wrote about the dream i had 2 nights ago and about what had just happened. Tears filled my eyes even more, falling on to the paper making little sections of the page soggy. Then a light and gentle knock was on my door. As quiet as it was, it frightened me, i quickly hid my journal back under my mattress and got up to open it.

It was him, Justin was standing outside my door. I was still crying. He let himself into my room and sat on my unmade bed.
' Jess what's wrong?' he said motioning me to come sit next to him.
' Chad broke up with me. ' i said sniffling.
He put his arm around me and told me not to worry.
I never knew he was this caring and supportive but i really liked it. I took advantage of this moment and buried my head in his shoulder.
He took his arm off me 5 minutes later and wiped a tear off my cheek. I had mascara running everywhere. I was a mess.
' Thanks Justin, you really helped a lot, it's nice to have someone to talk to!'
' Jess, we're fam now you can trust me anytime, i'm always here to talk! ' he assured me.

I hugged him, thanking him once again. Then he got up off the bed and told me when i'm reading he's going to put on chicken fingers and fries and we'll eat them by the pool.
Once i made sure he was already downstairs i shut the door and i couldn't help but smile a little. I've never been that close to him for so long before. I felt like the luckiest girl in the world. Oh how i wish he was mine.
I changed into my Victorias Secret bikini and but on another one of my oversized T-shirts as a pull over. I washed my face and put my hair into a messy bun.
I walked down to the kitchen and there he was putting smiley fries and chicken fingers in the oven. He was shirtless and wearing blue swim trunks. He turned around when he heard me walking across the kitchen floor and looked surprised.
' Woah, that was fast. ' he said smiling.
I giggled, 'haha yeah, it doesn't take me long to change' i said awkwardly.

Once dinner was done, we ate it out by the pool. It was really nice out today, really warm too. Perfect day.
' Your dad really makes my mom happy ' he said smiling.
' And your mom makes my dad happy' i said smiling back, finishing my last chicken finger.
' It's pretty cool how they're gone on a little vacation together, it'll be good for them! '
' Yeah definitely ' i agreed.

For 5 or 10 minutes we were sitting at the small wooden table, and nobody said anything. Then Justin came over next to me picked me up and put me over his shoulder and jumped in the pool with me.
I opened my eyes underwater and i was face to face with him, he licked out his tongue and laughed. Water went into his mouth and he came up coughing right away. ' Oh my god are you ok? ' i asked.
' Yes, i'm fine! ' he said laughing.

He looked so perfect, his hair was perfectly messy and his body was amazingly fit. I wanted him so bad right now. I couldn't help it.
My thoughts were interrupted when he pulled me underwater. I opened my eyes to see he was making fish faces at me. I made one back, this time we both came up laughing.

He looked at me straight into my bright emerald green eyes. He was smirking. I could feel myself blushing, then he kissed me. It lasted for 10 seconds. When i pulled back i pinched my leg underwater just incase i was dreaming, but i wasn't.
My eyes were popping out of my head right now, and i didn't know what to say or do. ' Uh, i have to go to the uh bathroom..' i said quickly getting out of the pool and going inside to the bathroom. I looked at myself in he mirror, i was happy and i was smiling really big. I've been waiting almost 2 years to feel his soft lips on mine, and today i finally did.
I came out of the bathroom and made my way back out to the pool. I was going to find Justin to ask him what that was about but he wasn't out in the pool. I walked to my room, looking into his when i passed and he wasn't in there either. I went into my room and closed the door behind me.
I untied the string to my bikini top the slid my bottoms down. I turned around and Justin was laying on my bed. He was smiling.
He really scared me, i reached for my robe and covered myself. ' Justin what is going on? '

' Jess... ' he began.

Oh i loved the way he said my name. It really turned me on.

' Jess, i've been wanting to talk to you for a while now, so this is my chance and i'm just going to come right out and tell you the truth ok? '

' sure. ' i answered.

' i had a massive crush on you ever since the day your dad brought you here. I know it's wrong to love your step sister, but i do and i can't help it. Today when you were sad, i felt like i needed to be there for you, and when we were in the pool i felt like it was the perfect time to kiss you. ' he said looking deeply into my eyes.

' Justin, ' i said smiling. ' I feel the same way, ever since the first day i came here i wanted you. And when you kissed me just then my heart skipped a beat i mean i'm so happy, but what does all of this mean? '

' Well, we have no blood relation so all we have to do is keep it between ourselves. ' he said smiling greedily and making his way towards me.

' I think i can manage to do that ' i answered, smiling back.

' Well then I guess we'll have to lie. '

He pushed me up against the wall looking into my eyes. He tucked my hair behind my ear and cupped his hand under my chin. He began to kiss me, he wanted entrance into my mouth and i happily let him. I opened my mouth giving his tongue permission to explore. The kissing got rougher and my heart began to race. He lifted me up and carried me over to his room. His bed was bigger than mine. We never broke the kiss yet, but when he laid me down. We both caught some air and went back to it.
He untied the string to my robe revealing my naked and still damp body. I squirmed out of my robe and now began to unbutton his shorts.
The only thing going through my mind at this moment was ' am i really doing this right now? ' but i didn't care, this is what i've been waiting for.
I'm still a virgin, and i don't think i'm ready to loose my virginity. And to be completely honest, i really need to think about loosing it to my step brother.
I pulled away, ' Justin can i talk to you for a minute? ' i asked sitting up.
' sure babe, anything. ' he replied wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me closer.
' can i trust you completely? '

' you sure can! ' he replied.

i took a deep breath. ' i'm still a virgin.' i told him feeling kind of embarrassed. There was a 10 second silence and then he replied ' sure, there's nothing wrong with that. '
' i know, i'm just saying i don't think i'm ready, right now. ' i explained reaching for his hands.
he squeezed my hands tightly ' Jess, it's okay! '
' are you? ' i asked.
' am i what? '
' still a virgin? '
' well, no..' he answered.

I have to admit i was pretty surprised, i mean i know he's had his fair share of girlfriends. But, he's only 19 and he just seems so gentle and sweet, i couldn't really picture him loosing it yet.

We just laid there for a bit. I really liked it. Before i knew it i was drifting off into sleep in his strong arms.

I woke up and rolled over, scared for a minute because i forgot where i was. Then i realized everything that had happened.
Justin was no longer in the room, i just figured he'd gone downstairs. I put my robe on and got up from his bed and made my way downstairs to the kitchen to make some coffee for the both of us.
Just as i was getting the cups i felt my hair move over to one side and then he gave me kisses on my neck. They trailed all the way up to my lips.
' Good morning Jess ' he said, his voice still scratchy and sleepy.
' Morning Justin ' i said leaning in for an embracive hug.

Once the coffee was ready, i brought it out on the back patio. Lucky enough we were protected from all neighbors and paparazzi.
' Justin i have to be completely honest with you, i'm glad we feel this way about each other i'm just not sure how we'll make it work..'

' Jess, we're gonna make it work i promise. We just can't tell nobody and let no one get suspicious. '

I walked over and sat on top of him, cuddling into his bare chest.
' what are we gonna do when Pattie & my dad get home? ' i asked him beginning to worry about the future.
' i don't know yet but we're gonna make it work, i promise. ' he said assuringly.

We went inside to go get dressed and ready for the day.
I hopped in the shower, feeling happier than ever. So happy with what has been happening and going on, but still feeling some what ashamed or embarrassed that i was doing this with my step brother.
I was just about to grab the shampoo when i realized there was someone behind me. I turned around completely, to see who it was. It was Justin. He was leaning up against the wall smirking. ' Didn't mean to interrupt your shower, but i'm out of soap. ' he said laughing.

' your out of soap? ' i said laughing back.
' uh yeah. ' he said coming closer to the door of the shower.
i smiled and made some room and he hopped in grabbing my ass.
' how about that soap ' he said, grabbing it and scrubbing it down my my stomach and arms checking my body out from head to toe. ' so sexy babe ' he said scrubbing my back, leaning over to kiss my neck.
This turned me on so much, i couldn't help but let out a soft moan. I looked up into his eyes and leaned in for a kiss. Our lips touched and then he pulled back.
' someone's in here. ' he said turning around and letting go of my hand.
i got out of the shower, and grabbed a towel and went over in my room. Justin followed and went outside the bedroom door.
I grabbed my robe and ran out after him. I was curious about who was there, although i was sure it was only the maid.
Sure enough Karen the maid was out in the hallway dusting off the picture frames. ' Oh, hey Karen! '
' hello, ' she said not looking up from her work.

I went back into my room to get dressed and Justin went into his. After completing my daily routine and getting dressed i walked out of my room and down to the living room.
The living room was one of my favorite rooms in the house. It was painted sunflower yellow with an orange accent wall. The front wall, facing the front of the house was A-Frame windows, it always looked beautiful when the sun beamed in through the glass.
I liked to go down there to read a book and to have some time to myself whenever i needed it.
After Karen left, I went looking for Justin and found him sat on his bed on the phone with who i assumed was Ryan ' Yeah bro, sounds great! Can Jessica tag along? Sweet see you then! Alright bye! ' he said hanging up.
Leaning against the door frame i smiled ' what's that about? '
' Ryan is having a party tonight! His parents are out of town! '
' Oh awesome! But if you wanna go with your friends, i can stay here and Chloe can come over or something, it's no big deal. '
' Jess, ' he said coming over and grabbing my waist ' i want you to be there! besides after the last party, i learned your a great gal to party with! '
i laughed, ' alright. ' i said kissing his cheek.
After 2 hours passed, it was almost time to to get ready and i needed to pick out what i was going to wear. Justin helped me choose, we both decided on a tight black semi sleeve dress and a pair of pink wedge heels.
I personally loved this outfit for two reasons, where the fitted style was so tight it made my ass look phenomenal and dark colors looked good on me because my hair was so light.
' Damn Jess, that's gonna look so sexy on you when you put it on. ' he said smirking.
I felt like tonight was going to be special for some reason, even though i couldn't show my affection for Justin around anyone. I just felt like it was going to be a good night.

Justin left my room to let me get changed but it's not like it matters because he's already seen me naked today. But i'm glad he did because i was putting on a sexy purple g-string and a purple lace push up bra to make my boobs look extra good.


Justin's POV

I was waiting at the bottom of the staircase for Jess to come down. I knew she was going to look sexier than ever. And i knew tonight was going to be loads of fun.
I have to admit to myself, i'm crazy for her but i find it weird... the fact i'm practically dating my step sister. Yeah i knew it was wrong, but i just don't know... I really want her.
I looked up and she was standing there, smiling looking hotter than ever. I was speechless really, ' wow, Jess babe you look sexy. ' i said breathlessly.
This was just like the day of the concert, it felt like déja vù. Except today, she was mine and even sexier than she was before.
She made her way down the stairs, 'thanks,' she said giving me a kiss. She walked over the get a beer from the freezer and all i could stare at was her perfectly round ass. I think she caught me staring. ' hey! ' she said laughing 'stop staring!! '
' But Jess i can't help it! ' I told her.
She smiled, i knew she was happy with me, i've never seen her smile so much!
She handed me a cold beer and we sat down on the couch and had one together. Jess is actually so cool, she's just so fun to be around. Sometimes, i feel like i'm hanging out with a really sexy guy because she's just the same as one of my friends!
7pm hit and the drive was an hour or so we better get going. 1 beer won't affect me.

Jess's POV

On our way to the party, Justin held my hand the whole time. He occasionally told me he loved me and how he wanted to have me so bad.
It made me blush, and all i could do was smile. Justin made me so happy and even though in my whole lifetime i've only had 3 boyfriends, i've never ever been happier with anyone. I loved him so much.
Finally we arrived at Ryan's place. Justin kept his cool with me now, we had to remember to keep us a secret. We both walked into Ryan's and the place was packed with people. It was just getting dark, the music was loud and i could feel that tonight was gonna be a good night.

The party really picked up around 10:30, everybody was dancing and by the i already had 5 or 6 beers. I was beginning to feel drunk. Justin ran off with Chaz and Ryan somewhere and i met a girl named Vanessa. She was really nice and we were dancing together for a while! She turned out to be Ryan's girlfriend.
' Hey, i think you and Justin would be super cute, ' she said slurring her words a bit.
' He's my step brother! ' i told her, shouting over the music so she could hear me.
' He is? ' she asked me, ' i thought you two were together! '
' No, he's just my step brother and we're pretty close! ' i explained.

By now i was loaded on beer and coolers. It got to the point where i could barely walk without the support of something.
I was ready to go home, and Justin had made arrangements before hand for Scooter to bring us home. But he wasn't coming until 2 am. It was 1:04.
I went looking for Justin and i managed to get up over the stairs I looked straight ahead of me and seen Justin lip locking a skinny brown haired girl. The kiss lasted long. I couldn't believe what i was seeing.
I was a really jealous person but as drunk as i was, i needed to keep my cool and keep my feelings to myself.
I decided to keep knowing about the kiss secret. I shouldn't hold it against him, he's drunk & i could tell. Besides i'm pretty sure i seen her kiss him. I'm sure i seen her kiss him. I'm sure it was nothing, i said to myself, making my way down the stairs. It was now 1:47 and i figured Scooter would be here or almost here now.
I waited at the bottom of the staircase for him to come down. 10 minutes later he walked down and when he seen me, he looked surprised. ' Oh hey Jess, you ready? '
' Uh yeah i- i guess sso ' I said unsteadily.
He told me to follow him to the car. He hopped in the back seat, and so did i. Scooter was behind the wheel ' Hey guys, good party? he asked us.
' Yeah, pretty good i guess, ' Justin answered.
' Yeah i guess ' i answered half unaware of what was even going on.


I woke up laying on Justin's tattoo covered arm. I rolled over and it was 1:00pm. I closed my eyes again, listening to the sound of him breathing softly.
I looked up at his innocent face, sleeping so peacefully. I ran my fingers through his perfect locks of hair. Kissing his lips. He rolled over so now we were facing each other. He opened his pretty eyes and looked deeply into mine, with a bright yet sleepy smile on his face. ' hey babe.'
' hey ' i said leaning up to kiss his soft lips once again.
We cuddled for a while, laying there in bed sharing each other's warmth.
The sun was shining in through the window above his bed. It was bright in my eyes, and i had to squint in order to see.
20 minutes later, we both found the energy to get up and get some breakfast. I was still in my dress from last night, i was uncomfortable and feeling gross, so i changed into one of Justin's T-shirts and walked downstairs to meet him in the kitchen.
He already started cooking 'breakfast' aka hangover food. Bacon, Eggs, Pancakes and Toast.
I never really remembered much from last night. But my eyes felt weird,
the sticky and scratchy feeling your eyes get after you've been crying. But i don't remember crying, or what i'd be crying for. From what i can remember i had fun last night.
When breakfast was ready, we both sat down at the kitchen table together. I was starving and i wasn't long scarfing down what was on my plate and then going back for seconds.
' Woah, don't make your self sick! ' he said laughing at me about the amount of food i just ate.
' Shut up, ' i said laughing at him.

Once we were done eating it was getting close to 3pm. I was still wearing Justin's T-shirt, and i was still extremely tired.
I was looking out the window at the garden grounds in front of the big mansion we lived in. When two strong, familiar arms grabbed me from behind. I felt him him breathing on my neck. I turned around and he picked me up and brought me over to the sofa. He laid me down and got on top of me. He kissed my neck, hardly. Sucking on my sweet spot. I let out a loud moan. He cupped his hands around my chin, and began to run his tongue all around my mouth. The steamy make out session got more intense, and Justin got rougher. He slid both of his hands up my shirt and under my bra and began to massage my breasts. I moaned loudly and threw my head back, feeling great as pleasure filled my body. I kept kissing his soft lips and explored his mouth with my tongue. He kept massaging with one hand and then slipped his hand under my purple g-string, he slipped 2 fingers up and began to circle them around slowly. He pleasured me, I needed him to keep going.

' Ding Ding Ding Ding Ding ' We both shot our heads up at the same time he took his hands out of my panties and ran to the door. I sat up on the couch, trying my best to ' act casual '
He opened the door and 2 guys barged right through him, storming through the foyer. It was Ryan and Chaz. ' Bro, we're going to the mall to get some chicks, me and Ness broke up this morning, ' Ryan said laughing
' J go get ready, you'll be getting it in tonight! '
I couldn't believe what i was hearing, i was too afraid to look at Justin, so i just got up off the couch and walked upstairs.
I sat at the foot of my bed, looking down at the mess of clothes on the floor. I heard footsteps coming up the stairs, and my plan was to ignore them. I felt the fury inside me, it was growing like a fire.
As i sat there on my bed feeling the tears coming, i felt even more hopeless than i ever did. It's my fault Justin can't go out with his friends and have fun, it's my fault he has to lie to everyone, it's all my fault.
There was a gentle knock on my door, i looked up and Justin was peeking in through the doorway.
I re buried my head between my legs, i felt horrible. I felt more than horrible and i'm pretty sure this is a sign that me and Justin aren't supposed to be together.
I felt Justin rub his hand up and down my back, he pulled me in closer to him. ' Jess, why are you crying? ' he asked me sincerely.
I ignored him.
' Jess, ' he said lifting my head up and wiping tears from my cheek. ' come on, please tell me. You can trust me with anything remember? '
I listened to his sincere voice for a minute, and decided wether i was going to speak or not.
' Justin, it's my fault. It's all my fault. You can't go out with your friends and have fun because of me, you have to lie because of me and i feel like i'm keeping you behind and i feel horrible.'
I was looking at him directly now. He was looking down at his hands that were touching my bare leg.
' Jess, what are you talking about? '
' Ryan and Chaz wanted to go on the chick hunt and you didn't go because you're currently dating your step sister...'
' So, ' he said ' this is what i want. Even have to keep lying the rest of my life, i will because you're the one i want. '
I was speechless. I couldn't believe what he just said. I never knew something so bitter sweet.
' Jess, i love you and i hope you know that. ' he said to me.
I kissed him passionately, and after 1 minute or so i broke the kiss, ' Justin, i love you too. ' i said leaning in for another kiss.
Kissing Justin never got boring, ever. The way he made me feel was priceless, nothing ever made me feel this way before. In all honesty, when i'm with him i feel like the luckiest girl in the world. Because i am.
After 30 minutes of constant cuddling and kissing and apologizing. We stopped. But honestly, if we ever got into a real fight and this is the way welmade up, i'd be perfectly ok with it.

2 days later.....

The past two days have been pretty boring, after i told Justin how i felt, i told him to go on with his friends and have some fun, just not going " chick hunting ".
I've been really thinking about me and Justin lately. The stage were at now is comfortable, i felt like the time was approaching take it to the next level.
It was 7:54 in the morning, Justin was sleeping but i still haven't fallen asleep yet. I've always been a night owl but never somebody to pull an all nighter!
I missed Justin, he was gone all day yesterday, i hadn't seen him since the evening of the night before last when he announced he was sleeping at Ryan's and they we're going to the skate park the next day.
I missed the feeling of his lips on mine, and right now thinking about them made me want them even more.
I wasn't tired, and i felt like i needed sleep so badly. My body craved it but i wasn't tired.
Maybe a shower would help. I got up out of bed and brushed out my thin and tangled blonde hair.
I turned on the water and set in just past the halfway mark of warm and hot. Hot showers were so calming.

After a nice 20 minute shower, i stepped outside feeling relaxing and soothed to the smell of my vanilla bean body wash.
It was almost now 8:30, and still pretty early to be up. I needed something to keep me awake so i put my hair into a bun and changed into a casual summer dress and snuck out to go on a Starbucks run. Assuming by the time i got back, Justin would be awake and i'd get a kiss that'd i've been waiting for.

After returning from Starbucks with some coffee, i went upstairs to check on Justin. He was still sleeping, but i couldn't wait any longer, it was time to feel his lips on mine.
He slept on his stomach, with his face buried into the pillow.
Slowly, i crawled up next to him and ran my fingers up and down his back. He started to roll over and his perfect eyes peeked out from beneath his eyelids. Then, a big smile immediately went to his face. ' Jess, babe i missed you. '
' I missed you too, ' i said leaning in for the kiss.

The kiss eventually turned into a steamy make out session and i was perfectly okay with that. His lips were perfectly soft and pink and his touch was gentle when he wanted it to be. Unlike now. His tongue explored my mouth and his hands were cupped against my cheeks. I pulled away and smiled. ' I love you Justin. '
' I love you too Jess. '
I smiled to myself, looking down at my tan legs against his white sheets.
' I went to Starbucks, there's coffee downstairs for you! '
' Wow, thanks Jess. ' he said getting up and stretching.

I left his room and went downstairs in the kitchen to re-heat the coffee, where it's been on the counter cooling off for the past 20 minutes.

As i was taking the last cup out of the microwave, i felt his strong arms wrap around my waist. He moved my hair to one side and began kissing my neck.
He smiled in the kiss, and then lifted me up kissing my lips once again. I could never ever get tired of this feeling.
We sat down to eat outside by the pool, and once we were finished, Justin suggested going for a swim. And i only just realizing he was still only wearing his plaid american eagle boxers.
I got up and was just about to go inside to get my bathing suit on when Justin grabbed my arm. ' babe, you know you don't have to wear a bathing suit, ' he said smirking slightly.
I looked at him and smiled blushing.
' And why is that Justin? ' i said trying to be a tease. '
' Because, any opportunity i get to see that perfect body of yours, naked, i won't pass up that opportunity. '
I giggled and immediately took off my shirt revealing the lime green bra i was wearing and the slid down the skirt i was wearing, revealing the sexy red g string i was wearing.
Justin took my hand and we both jumped in together. When we were underwater, he tapped my shoulder and touched my eye lid. I opened my eyes and he was smiling, he put both of his hands around my neck revealing my bare chest. Then slid down my g string. We both came up from underwater laughing, He looked at me and then i went underwater and he followed. I began to swim around doing circles around the pool and then i went up for air and back down again. I swam closer to Justin, and put my fingers on the top band of his boxers. And tugged down on them, slipping them off.
He pulled me up above water and pulled me close and began to kiss my body all over. He took me up in his arms and lifted me over to the door of the house and brought me inside.
In my mind all i was thinking was i wanted him now, and i couldn't wait to see the things he would do to me.

4 hours later, i woke up on the couch. My hair was still damp, and i was still naked. I looked around the living room for Justin but he was no where to be found. I grabbed a blanket from the arm of the recliner and covered myself in it.
Justin wasn't in the kitchen, or in the downstairs bathroom, or outside.
Then i heard the keys to the piano, music filled the house and his beautiful voice sang out loud.
I smiled to myself and grabbed his T-Shirt of the bathroom counter, then went over to the music room.
He sat at the piano, still shirtless and only in his boxers singing one of my favorites ' Be Alright '.
I loved the way he sang it so perfectly, with the small rasp in his voice, the sexy tone he used, and the sweet heart and soul he put into the performance.
Damn, i love that boy.

' Really babe, i love you too! ' he said giggling.
Did i just say that out loud?
' Babe, i love that song. ' i told him, walking over and taking a seat next to him on the piano bench.
' Thanks Jess, ' he said kissing my cheek.


After getting our dinner and later on going to DQ for ice cream, then coming home taking our 2nd swim of the day, it was already 8:30pm.
I've been really thinking about our relationship and i feel like i really needed to talk to Justin about it.
He was in the living room, sat on the couch watching Big Brother 15.
I sat next to him burying my head into his chest. He kissed my forehead.
' Justin can we talk? ' i asked him, still cuddled into him.
' Sure, shoot! ' he said un wrapping his arm from behind my neck and sitting up to face me.
' I know, that we've had a pretty good thing going on for the past week, and i just wanted to talk it over with you, see if we're both on the same page and see where we stand, you know? ' i asked him awkwardly.
He looked me dead in the eye, ' Jess, is this about sex and me not being a virgin? '
' Justin, no i just want to talk to you about it. '
' Jessica there's nothing to talk about, babe whenever you're ready, tell me. Tell me how you feel, what you're thinking, tell me right now, ' he said seeming intrigued.
' I feel like it's not going to work out and i'm scared. I feel so perfect when i'm with you, for once i feel safe and i finally found someone i love and trust. What if this doesn't work out, imagine the trouble we'd be in. Justin all i'm saying is, if we're in this now i just want to know if you really want to be. Honestly, if you're having any second thoughts, just say because we could just go back norma- ' he cut me off.
' Jess, stop talking crazy like that, i love you and you know it. You're perfect, and the one i want to be with. Jess, i'd give up everything for you, and i know we're both gonna have second thoughts about the whole situation but don't ever think i don't love you because i always will. '
' I love you too Justin, i just don't know what to do now. '
' Baby, what do you mean? ' he answered pulling me closely.
' I mean, what happens now! Nobody can find out and that's the hard thing, so what are we going to do? We can't go to the mall shopping holding hands like couples do, we can't go to fancy restaurants for romantic dinners, and going to the movie theaters, we have to hold hands under the popcorn! Justin i'm just worried and confused. I keep over thinking about everything.
' Babe, don't. Let's just forget the what ifs and take it step by step, day by day. I know it's hard, but trust me babe we're gonna make it work. '
' I love you Justin, i love you so much.' I said feeling the tears fill up in my eyes. This moment, got to me. It made me feel like i had him now, closer than i ever did. I love him more than anything, regardless of the fact that he's Justin Bieber, i love him because of him.

1 week later.......

Me and Justin we're after having a pretty good week. And we both decided on waiting a while, before we did it.
Pattie & my dad's flight was scheduled to land in 55 minutes, and I still wasn't ready. But it only took 20 minutes, and both of us were out the door and on the way to the airport.

The whole way there, we didn't speak. But i couldn't help but think about what's going to happen now. Things would be more than different with them back. I mean, now we couldn't just walk around the house pant-less, or make out on the kitchen counter. Things we're going to change big time. Especially with the second leg of Justin's tour coming up, we would be traveling almost every second night.
' You're thinking about us, aren't you?' he asked me, not taking his eyes off the road ahead of him.
I knew it was obvious, but yes i was, i was scared. ' Yes, ' i admitted. ' But Justin, you know things are going to be extremely different. '
' Babe, we'll make it work. I promised you that, and i tend on keeping my promise. ' He said putting his hands in my knee.
I leaned over and kissed his cheek. ' I love you, ' i said softly.


' Wow dad, look at that tan! ' i said impressed to see a man who supposedly " didn't tan " standing in front of me nearly black.
' It's good to see you too Jess ' he said kissing my forehead and laughing.
Pattie came over and hugged me, and she looked better than ever. ' Missed you Pattie! ' i said hugging her tightly.'
Justin smiled at me, then looked over to my dad, ' what do you say we go get some ice cream? ' he asked clapping his hands together.
We all agreed and got the luggage, then made our way to the car.
I had an odd feeling about how this car ride was going to turn out.
Dad was now the driver and Pattie sat in the passenger seat, with Justin and I in the back. We both took the window seats, leaving an empty space in the middle.
I really wanted to hold this boy's hand, to feel our fingers fit together like the last piece of a puzzle, but then i remembered i couldn't know. Oh this was going to be hard, i could tell...

2 weeks had passed and honestly, it's been the hardest two weeks in a while. Pattie and my Father stick around the house a lot, they don't usually leave to go out much, but when they do it's only an hour or two.
I haven't been seeing Justin much lately and it was killing me. This is exactly what i was talking about. This is the "what if".
We were having a party tonight, with all the friends and family. Which meant that Pattie and my father would be completely distracted, AND my room had a lock on it.
I was sitting in my room just about to get my diary when my dad peeked in, ' Jess mind if i talk to you for a sec? ' he asked coming over and sitting on y bed.
' Sure dad, anything! ' i answered.
' Pattie's parents are coming over and they haven't met you before so try to talk to the them and dress up a little, we're going for more of a formal theme. ' he informed me.
' Yeah, no problem! ' i smiled at him warmly.
' Jessie i can't can't thank you enough for everything you're doing and what you've done for Pattie and I, it means so much to us. '
' Dad, you know it's no problem at all, but you're welcome!
And then, with that he walked out of my room closing the door behind him.
Then i reached under my mattress, and grabbed my diary.

Dear Diary,
there's so much i have to say but i just don't know how to say it. I'm dating my step brother. Yeah, i know it's wrong but i just don't understand how something so completely wrong can feel so incredibly right. His touch, is so gentle and his kiss is heaven. When i kiss him i never want to stop, the taste of his mouth is too good.
We both know it's not the smartest choice, but we promised each other we're going to do our absolute best to make it work and keep it between ourselves. I just keep thinking of all the what ifs. I can't seem to get them out of my head. Especially, what if Pattie and my dad find out. We'd be ruined, and i'd hide away in my room forever.
It's been nearly a month since we started "seeing eachother".
I have a feeling something is going to go wrong but i hope and pray it doesn't. I'm really loving it, being close with him and being his "girlfriend."
-Jess.


People started coming an hour later, Me & Justin offered to get the drinks and soda. More because we wanted to get away for 20 minutes or so.
This time, i drove. Justin took the passenger seat, and put his hand over mine on the gear shift
' It's been a while since we got to hang out hey? ' He said sounding a little bit sad.
' Yeah, i know J, i really miss you. ' i said squeezing my grip a little tighter.
' So i've been meaning to talk to you Jess. ' i could tell he was staring at me, i could see him from the corner of my eye.
' Yeah, anything! ' i said trying to cover up the worry in my voice.
I hope it's nothing bad, i really hope. I just love him and love being with him so much, our relationship just started and i'm not ready for it to end.
He didn't speak for what seemed like forever & all the negative possibilities kept running through my mind.
' So, me and my mom we're talking 2 or 3 days ago and, ' he cut himself off.
' Yeah, what's wrong? ' i asked pulling into the super market parking lot. Please don't say you told her, please don't say you told her.
' My mom thinks it's time i moved out, and got my own apartment. '
My heart sunk, what does this mean? I asked myself. Is it going to be the end for us?
' Oh, wow that's great! ' i said trying to sound happy for him.
' And... she also thinks you should too. So, i suggested that me and you buy one in the same building and be neighbors. She thought it was a great idea considering your dad is nervous and he said i could look out for you! ' Justin said with a smile plastered on his face.
' Justin this is amazing! ' i said happily.
This is going to be great, finally a place me and Justin can have a place to ourselves.. kinda.
' Jess, we can finally start our own life together! In a way i guess! But think about it, we can find somewhere in the town over, then we'll be free to walk around and do whatever! '
' Justin this is amazing! ' i said leaning in to give him a hug instead of a kiss, remembering we were at the store and there could be fans or paparazzi anywhere.
I stayed in the car, and Justin ran into the store to by 4 cases of Coke and a few boxes of beer and some other alcohol. I was shaking with excitement. There's nothing more i could ever ask for!

When we arrived home, almost everyone had arrived. The party consisted of adults mostly, and cousin Kate and Kaleb were there, also Julia Nathan and David.
We all decided to get away from the party and go downstairs and have ourselves our own.
Justin put some dance music, and we all got ourselves some drinks.
' Kate, how about you call Jonathan and everyone else invite 2 or 3 people over and lets have ourselves a real party? I'll call Chloe and Mac! ' I suggested, already finishing my 3rd beer.

1 hour later, there was 20 or 30 of us in the basement, our music was loud and people were getting drunk. Chloe and Mac brought Nate, Josh & Luke. I could tell Mac was trying to get with Justin, but i didn't care, i knew he wouldn't let anything happen after he just pretty much asked me to move out with him.
Luke came over to me. ' Sick party eh? ' he said putting his arm around me.
' Yeah, pretty good! ' i said trying to wiggle out from under his arm.
' Wanna dance? ' he asked me.
' Sure, why not! ' i said laying my drink down.

We went out amongst all our friends dancing. We we're both dancing with our hands in the air. Then he grabbed my waist, and turned around beginning to grind on me.
I could tell my face was turning red i couldn't let Justin see this. So i turned around and announced i was going to get another drink from upstairs.
' i'll come! ' he said following me.
' stay here, i'll be back in 10! ' i said hurrying up the stairs anyways.

I felt embarrassed, even though i knew Luke was drunk. I just wouldn't want to be seen with him, I don't want Justin to see him doing this.
I went back downstairs, to see Justin locking lips with Mackenzie. I stopped in my tracks, and i swear my mouth hit the door.
I'm not exactly the one to scream or get mad right then and there so i walked upstairs and went straight to my room. I have to admit i was jealous and confused. Besides, Mackenzie should know better than to get with my brother anyways.
Around 1am, i took deep breaths, calmed myself down and went back downstairs.
I wanted so see how Justin would react later, this was supposed to be a night to ourselves anyways.
Luke was sat over on a stool where i left my drink earlier, Justin was dancing with Kaleb and Mackenzie and Chloe we're hitting on Nathan and David.
I went down and got my drink back. Then sat down by Luke, ' hey. ' he said awkwardly.
' um, hey! '
' where'd you go Jessica, i was waiting for you. '
' I felt sick, so i went to my room and laid down for a while. '
' Oh, okay! You're feeling good now? '
' Yep! ' i answered.

Justin came over and i could tell he was drunk. As funny as it was, i couldn't laugh at or with him right now. ' How about a dance with your favorite brother? ' He shouted, grabbing my arm and pulling me out on the "dance floor".
LMFAO's "shots" was blaring through the sound system. Justin was dancing, and i was trying to keep up with him! He went away for a minute and i stood there awkwardly but then he came back with two shot glasses filled with Tequila. ' SHOTS JESS!!!! ' he screamed, downing his shot before i could even tilt my head back.
Justin laughed, once the song was over i pulled him over to the storage room and locked the door behind us.
' Babe, people are gonna notice we're gone ' he said, before i crashed my lips into his, releasing my tongue into his alcohol tasting mouth.
' I don't care. ' i said, knowing i was now drunk and could care less what the words coming out of my mouth were.
He smiled, ' babe you're sexy and i love you. '
He pinned my arms up above my head and started getting rougher. He kissed my neck and then lifted up my shirt. He let go of my arms and then worked on sliding my skirt down my legs. ' I want your body Jess, i want it on mine right now. ' He said, with his sexy raspy voice.
We brought it down on to the floor. He was on top of me, beginning to lick my stomach line, and slip his hand down under my pants.
' Babe, it's hard, real hard are you ready? ' He said unbuckling his pants.
I pulled away, ' Justin, wait. ' i sai.d stopping him sitting up.
' i'm still not ready to loose my virginity, especially in the basement storage room. '
' Babe, it's ok. I just want your body now. '
This made me blush, but then i returned to my original plan of not being friendly with him after kissing one of my best friends.
' Justin, you're drunk, there's people, our friends just outside that door, and we can't them see us like this. Can we at least wait until later on tonight? Please? ' i asked him grabbing for my shirt, and pulling up my skirt to my high waist.
' Jess, you're right i'm sorry. But i need to tell you one quick thing. '
I was about to unlock the door when he said that, so i turned around and our eyes met. ' Yeah, and what do you need to tell me? '
' Mackenzie kissed me, i was afraid you seen but if you did and that's why you're not in a good mood tonight, i jus wanted to tell you that i'm sorry and it was truly and honestly her that kissed me. Babe, i wouldn't do that to you. ' he said sounding super sorry.
' Justin, it's ok i forgive you. I just want you to pull away next time. I was pretty sad when i saw that earlier. I got jealous. ' i explained.
' And i'm really sorry Jess, but you gotta know there's nobody in this world, not one girl i want more than i want you. You're my girl, you and only you, and don't you forget that. ' he said leaning in for a kiss.
I wrapped my arms around his neck, and opening my mouth giving his tongue admission into my mouth. I figured this was a good enough way to say i forgive you.
20 minutes after our make out session, we went back out. Luckily, everyone was dancing and doing their own thing, and we made it out of the room unseen. It was now getting close to 3am, and the party was still alive. So Justin and I joined the group and began to dance the night away.

The next morning, i woke up on the floor of my room. Startled for a second because i never knew what i was doing in the floor.
People started going home at 5am, the sun was already rising and it was completely light outside. I remember helping Justin to his room, then gently kissing his forehead and going on to my own.
I looked up at the clock, and it was 2pm. I got up off of the floor and sat on my bed. Paper crinkled under my bum when i sat down so i reached under to find a now crumpled piece of paper reading

Jess, i'll be home at 3 then you and I are going furniture and decor shopping for your new apartment.
See you then, Pattie xoxo

I tried to find the motivation to get up and get a shower, but it felt like mission impossible.
10 minutes later, i managed to get up and get cleaned up and finish my daily routine.
I looked at the clock and it was 2:45. I had 15 minutes to spare.
I came out of my room quietly, because i could hear Justin snoring loudly. I giggled to myself, and moved on down the hall.
I cooked myself 2 eggos and had a glass of orange juice. Just as i was putting my plate in the garbage Pattie walked in through the front door.
' Hey Pattie! ' i said, greeting her with a smile.
' Hey Jess, you ready? ' She asked grabbing the keys to the keys to our 2013 Lexus.

2 hours late we returned and i was more than satisfied with house the shopping trip turned out. We ordered everything from curtains & carpets to bedspreads and couches. Along with the light fixtures to decorations and picture frames!
I'm now more than excited about this!

By the time we got home it was almost 6:30, and we stopped for supper at Applebees.
Today was super fun, and i love the bond Pattie & I have created between each other. I just wish it wasn't step mother to step daughter. I wish i could be mother in law to daughter in law.
This made me all of a sudden become a little sad.

When we arrived home, Justin had friends over and my dad was in the office working on new reports and job pitches.
I headed straight to my room, thinking about the future, what would happen and what would this turn out to be, and all the possible possibilities there are to make this relationship work.
The only possible way to make this relationship work, is if somehow our parents split up and divorced. But it would still be weird because somehow there would still be a part of me that considered Pattie as my step mom, seeing she really was the closest thing to a mom i've had in a really long time.

9:00pm came and Pattie and my father announced they were going out for the night. I got excited for a minute, but then i remember Justin had friends sleeping over and there wasn't much i could do. So i decided to call Chloe and invite her over.
When she arrived she brought two other un expected guest... Jared and Devon. I pulled her aside as soon as the three of them pranced in through my front door.
' What the hell are they doing here Chloe? ' i asked her, unsure of what do or say.
' They called me, i think Jared wants to hook up with you! ' she said smiling.

No no no no no no, what am i supposed to do, i mean i can't. Oh yeah, i can't because i'm secretly dating my step brother.

' Chloe, i don't like him and you know that. '

' Well, it's been a while now since break up i figured it's time to get back on the market. '

' No, i'm not ready, you figured wrong. ' i said, not meaning to sound as saucy as i did.

' Jess, what the hell has gotten into you? I haven't seen you in almost a month and you can't even talk to me half sensibly, so maybe i should just leave, because by the sounds of it, i don't think you want me here. ' and with that she left, with Jared and Devon trailing behind her.

I felt the tears coming on and when i looked up, i could see Justin and Ryan staring at me from in the kitchen. Justin looked like he felt so sorry but then Ryan's face just showed what the hell is going on here.
I went to my room, to take a shower. I grabbed the shampoo and i was just about to scrub it into my scalp, when i slipped. i hit my head on the lower tap hard too. All i could feel right now was pain and fear, i put my hand to my head and i could feel the blood quickly coming out from behind my ear.
All i could see was, blur. I felt dizzy and nauseous. ' Justin! ' i screamed as loud as i possibly can. ' HELP, ' i screamed even louder.

Justin's POV

' Bro, you're killing me in this ' Ryan said laughing as we were playing video games.
' I always do, why are you surprised! ' i answered back.
' Justin! ' i heard a scream.
' Woah bro, shut up for 2 minutes.

I listened carefully. ' HELP '. Oh my god, i said to myself. ' That's Jess... '

' Ryan, oh my god that's Jess. ' i said standing up quickly heading for the stairs.
I stopped at her bedroom door, ' Stay here. ' i said to Ryan, going into her room and leaving him in the hall.
I looked all around her room, then i heard the shower going. Loud sobs came from the door over to the far right.
I opened the door and hauled open the curtain. There she was, laying completely naked in a pool of blood. The water fell down over her body, I felt tears come to my eyes. I was scared now, for her. I didn't know what to do.
I turned off the water and took her up in my arms, grabbing her soft pink robe from the hook behind the door. I put it on her and picked her up again.
' Justin, my head hurts. ' She said crying.
' Jess, i know and i'm gonna get you to a hospital right now, Ryan's here with me we're gonna get you there right away. ' i explained to her running out to my car and laying her in the back seat.
' Ryan, get over here. ' i shouted at him, flicking him the keys to the car.
' Bro, you gotta drive, i'm staying back here with Jess. '

I looked down at her, her head was still bleeding pretty bad. Her eyes we're open, she was in shock. I hate seeing her this way.
' Justin, it hurts so much. ' She whimpered helplessly.
' Jess, i know it does but we're on the way to the hospital now everything's gonna be alright, i promise. '
And with that, her eyes closed shut. My heart raced, and i felt useless.
' Jess, stay awake we're almost there. ' I said, with the littlest bit of hope.

2 hours later, i sat in an uncomfortable wooden chair along the side of Jess's bed. It was getting close to 2am now, i was dropping tired but i just couldn't sleep until Jess wakes up.
Her dad & my Mom only arrived shortly after we got here. We're all worried at this point, besides the doctor hasn't said much either.
Although earlier he did come in and ask me to explain what had happened. And i told him what i knew.

I looked over to Jess, sleeping so soundly and innocently. Her sandy blonde hair was messy and stained with blood. She had a black eye, and a scrape on her forehead. I knew she was in pain, lots of it too. Especially considering i could hear the hit from downstairs. I wanted to do something to help, but there was nothing i could do besides sit here, wait & hope for the best.
" Justin, we're going to grab a coffee downstairs, we'll be back in 10 minutes. " Ben announced, leaving the room.
I nodded.

' Justin? ' i heard a small husky voice said silently.
I looked over and Jess was finally starting to wake up. Her eyes were barely open, but you could already see the pain and confusion in them.
I stood up, quickly sitting on her bed and gently touching her hand.
' What happened? ' She asked with tears in her eyes.
' Jess, you fell and hit your head in the shower, you hit it pretty hard. '
' My head hurts, ' she said beginning to cry.
' I know Jess, it'll be all better soon. Don't worry. I'm here. ' i said, trying to be as comforting as i could.
' I'm scared Justin, where's my dad? ' she asked looking around the cramped room.
' Me too Jess, but he'll be back any minute now. ' i told her looking at my watch realizing it's only been 5 minutes since they left.

I pressed the button on the side of Jess's bed, to let the doctor know she was awake. And with that, 3 minutes later a doctor came in through the door with Mom and Ben behind him.
' Oh Jess, ' Ben said running over to the side of her bed hugging her.
Jess smiled, trying to hide the hurt and pain as much as possible.

The doctor did some small check up things, making sure and confirming that the concussion was healing. Shortly after he finished he announced that she would be kept in hospital for 1 more night and released the next day.


2 months later

I sat there at the table surrounded by all my friends and family. I blushed uncontrollably as they all sang "Happy Birthday" at the top of their lungs.
Finally, i was 19. And tomorrow me & Justin would be moving in our apartments.
Things were going really good between us. Although there's been so much more brother/sister bonding in there more so boyfriend/girlfriend bonds within the past two months. It made it awkward when it was that way, but every now and again i got a little pleasure while Pattie & Dad went for groceries or out to a movie.

" Wooo! Happy Birthday Jess! " My dad shouted from behind me. I blew out all 19 candles and smiled for all the aunts and uncles who were taking pictures & for Justin who was video taping the whole thing! "
"Jess, let's start with the presents!" my dad said excitedly, flicking the lights on and exiting the kitchen.
I began to feel a little curious, Justin winked at me, then waved at me to go over to him. I got up from my chair and walked over to him. He smiled deviously. I looked up to see my dad flick something at me.
Oh my god. A smile immediately plastered onto my face. I was finally holding the keys, to my brand new Jeep.
I looked out the living room window and saw a flash of orange. It never took long for me to run past everyone, out through the door and over to the vehicle.
This is my absolute dream car, i've always wanted one & now i finally have one.

It was 2am when i hopped in bed and still wasn't tired. I laid there and kept thinking about driving my new jeep over to my new apartment, in just a few hours. This filled my whole body with excitement, making me almost sure of the fact i wasn't going to be getting much sleep tonight.
Tap Tap.
I looked up to see Justin knocking on my door. I smiled when i seen that he was shirtless and the fact that he was wearing only boxers.
" Jess, " he whispered smiling, grabbing both my hands and kneeling down on my bed. " I miss you so much. "
" Justin, i miss you too. It's been forever since i even spoke to you, as more then your sister... "
We both giggled and i leaned in for a kiss. It lasted for 2 minutes, maybe a little longer. Pleasure filled my body. I haven't felt his touch in nearly 2 and half weeks. I wanted it to last much longer than it did, but we both stopped and smiled at each other. Our noses were touching and we shared our breaths. I missed this, i missed him and i missed us.
" Happy birthday Jess, " he whispered sweetly, kissing my forehead gently.
I kissed him, this time more intense than it was 1 minute ago.
I pulled him up on my bed and wrapped both my legs around him. I pulled back after 5 minutes or so. I got up off my bed, only realizing i was wearing only a long T-shirt. I smiled back at him, shut and locked the door and crawled back up on my bed with him.
We laid down next to each other, cuddling and laughing occasionally at nothing. This is what i liked, moments like these, the sweet ones that you'll remember forever. He played with the loose curls in my hair and i giggled looking into his eyes.
" Jess, i love you, more than anything and i really hope you know that. "
I smiled, blushing and thinking about how cute he is. " Let's just say, i think i'm pretty lucky. "
" And why is that? " he asked teasingly.
I kissed him, " because i have you. "

The next morning, i woke up feeling cold and after a minute of taking time to come to my senses, i immediately became excited about today. Moving day.
Justin's tattoo covered arm was wrapped around me, making it impossible to move without waking him up. I laid there next to him, thinking about last night, thinking about what he said to me. I smiled to myself, feeling happy just thinking about it.
I rolled over so that both of our faces were facing each other & we were ony 2 to 3 inches away from our noses touching.
The clock read 10:43, we had really slept in today. I smiled at his cute sleepy face. He's bed head was sexy.
I admired his face, looking at his perfect jaw line, and the way his nose pointed out the smallest bit. He's perfect, everything about him is.
I leaned in and gently kissed his lips.
" good morning sleepy head, " i whispered into his ear, laughing.
He stirred and rolled over, waking up and beginning to slightly open his eyes.
" happy moving day babe, " he said smiling at me, sounding sleepy with his eyes still half closed.
I smiled back at him and got up from the bed and walked over to the ensuite door across the room.
I splashed some cold water over my face and brushed my hair and teeth. I wasn't going to apply makeup today, where as i never really needed it. I wanted to be comfortable on moving day.
Walking to the closet outside the bathroom, i looked for my leggings and a hoodie. I knew Justin was still on my bed, but i obviously wasn't afraid of him. It's not a crime if he sees me in my underwear.
I slipped on today's outfit and walked over to him, climbing on top of him.
" I'm excited for today, are you? "
" Yes, more than excited! " i answered him smiling.
" We'll finally get a place where we might actually have some of our own privacy. " he laughed, smirking at me.
" good, " i laughed kissing his lips again.
Man i loved this boy.

My room was now completely filled with boxes of my stuff. I only had a couple more drawers of clothes to pack and then i was set to go.
Justin was already finished packing. So i began to rush a little. I guess this was finally my way of running off into freedom with him.

2 hours later, the moving truck pulled up into the driveway of a beautiful condo building. With a gorgeous beach behind it. When i stepped out of the truck the first thing i smelt was the salty ocean breeze. I couldn't help but smile
Each condo had a one car garage, a patio, and designated parking space. The inside of the condos were way bigger than i had expected. Each one had 2 bedrooms & 2 bathrooms, a kitchen a living area and a spare room. And to my surprise Pattie already came over as completely decorated the condo with the things we had ordered.
This completely made my day. I was finally beginning my new life, as a grown woman. As for Justin, he'll pull trough, maybe with a little bit of my help and motivation...
" Thank you both so much, " Justin & I thanked my dad & Pattie.
" No problem, this will be good for the both of you, and besides if you ever run into trouble we're a phone call away and you too live right next to each other! " Pattie said smiling and pulling us both in for hugs.
" Well, we'll leave you too to un pack your stuff. Pattie and I are going to Grandma's and we'll be back in a week. See you then! " My dad said as him and Pattie stepped into the car and drove off.
I looked at Justin and smiled. "Finally".

I took my first walk around the place i could finally call my own. My footsteps echoed, the place was empty other than the piles of boxes on the floor, spread out through the whole condo.
I liked it, i loved it actually. The place itself, the view, the location. Everything about this place just immediately brought a smile to my face.

After 5 hours of unpacking, cleaning the place up and making it my own. I'd decided it was time to sit down and relax for an hour or two. The couch was set in front of a beautiful window, that looked out over the beach. Probably my new favorite spot in this place.
I poured myself a cup of coffee and enjoyed the pretty view, listened to the waves crashing onto the shore, and managed to find an old book. I felt so adult like, but i also felt pretty weird. I'm so used to hearing the football game blaring from the television downstairs, or hearing my mom talking on the phone or walking around the house cleaning and tidying up things. But now, i hear nothing. I feel lonely, but a good kind of lonely. Almost like a peacefulness that has been waiting for me, almost like i needed it.

"Ding Dong"
I never even knew this place had a doorbell, but hey you learn as you go.
I wondered who could it be, but when i opened the door to see Justin standing in his dark washed jeans and plain white tshirt, i wasn't surprised.
" Hey neighbor! " he said giggling.
I smiled, " well hello neighbor, " i answered back pulling him in closer to me.
Our lips met almost instantly. I kicked the door shut with my foot and locked the door behind me. Man it's been a while, i needed this. I needed this badly.
I wrapped my legs around his waist, and he carried me over to the kitchen counter. My fingers ran through his hair, my tongue explored his mouth, our bodies still touched. This was perfect.
I could feel him smile under the kiss. I couldn't help but smile back. I missed him, i missed him so much.
His hands moved up my shirt, touching my stomach. He moved his hands back to my upper back, an unclasped the strap of my bra.
We broke the kiss, and stared at each other for a really long time. He nodded lightly and i nodded back. Knowing exactly where he wanted to go.
He picked me up again, and carried me into my bedroom. Although, it wasn't much of a bedroom yet, only a mattress laid onto the floor, it would just have to do for tonight.
He laid me down so gently, and sat in front of me. I smiled at him, feeling so happy and so lucky to have this boy. I grabbed his hands, and admired the way our fingers fit perfectly together. Like a puzzle.
I grabbed the ends of his shirt and pulled them over his shoulders, leaving him shirtless. He pushed me down, taking me shirt and bra off as well. His hands cupped into my neck, as we kissed. And after 5 minutes, he pulled away, tucked my hair behind my ears and smiled at me.
" Jess you're so beautiful. " he said to me, admiring my body.
I knew i was blushing i could feel it. But i didn't care, i kissed him back hardly, wanting more.
I could tell he wanted me just as much as i wanted him. This made my heart beat faster.
Greedily, i kept kissing him as i worked on his belt buckle. And once his pants were off, he slipped mine off as well.
He took his finger and made tiny circles on my back. Sending chills up and down my spine. He kissed my neck, making tiny moans slip out of my mouth.
I was ready, i've never felt more ready. But, i finally feel ready to loose my virginty...