You were a singer on YouTube.
That's how you had met the Avengers.
Tony enjoyed watching you sing covers of real songs, fan songs, and sometimes your own original songs.
He invited you to Avengers Tower to meet everyone and for you to sing a little for them.
They were even in a few of your videos.
That's how you met Steve.
You two dated for a year and a half.
You were in love with Steve.
But when he suddenly left, you were heartbroken.
You didn't film videos for a month.
Then you decided to use it as your therapy.
You turned on your camera and grabbed your guitar.
"Hey, guys. Sorry for the long hiatus. I don't really want to explain why I was gone, but, um, I'm back," you said, forcing a smile, "And I will be covering 'Amnesia' by 5 Seconds of Summer."
You took a deep breath before you began strumming.
"I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though she's right beside you?
When she says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all," you sang.
You closed your eyes, remembering dragging Steve all around Manhattan to show him your favorite places.
He had loved them almost as much as you.
You had talked to Tony frequently, learning of Steve's new love.
It had only been a month since you two had broken up, but he was already happy.
Did that mean you had meant nothing?
All the songs you wrote for him, all the love you gave him.
Was it real for you, but meaningless to him?
"I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down my face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all," you sang.
It was like every little thing brought back memories.
You couldn't escape it.
You had let him in, when you never let anyone in.
And then he ripped himself out of your life.
So you closed off again.
"The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all."
Tony had invited you to many a party, but you didn't attend.
When he or the other Avengers dropped by and asked why, you claimed you had been busy filming a video with another YouTuber.
In reality, you were staring at the pictures Steve had left on your phone.
It just hurt too much to realize he was just like everyone else.
"I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down my face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape," you sang.
You had made plans of the future together.
White picket fence, little dogs, and children.
But now you thought it was only you who had wanted such things.
No wonder why he left.
"If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down my face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape," you sang.
If you could have one more chance, you'd give him everything.
But right now, you just wished you could forget every damned thing.
You felt stupid.
Yet at the same time, you were still happy you had at least had a chance at love.
Because, God, you loved him.
"'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all," you finished, a tear falling.
You wiped it away, laughing.
"Sorry, this song just means a lot right now," you said, "Thanks for watching. And goodbye."
You shut off the camera.
You looked at the editing screen, but didn't want to edit anything.
So you just uploaded it.
Little did you know, Tony got an alert and rushed all the Avengers into the main room to watch it on TV.
When the video finished, Steve stood up and grabbed his keys.
Everyone looked at him, to see tears running down his own face.
"Where are you going?" Natasha asked softly.
"To get her back," he said, jogging out the door.
He was going to get you back.
Because without you, he wished he could wake up with amnesia too.
*Song: "Amnesia" by 5 Seconds of Summer*
I did change some of the lyrics to make it sound better from the girl's, requester/reader's, point of view. I.E: "make-up running down my face" instead of "make-up running down your face."
