A Shotgun Marriage [COMPLETED]

Chapter 57: Frown

Chapter 57: Frown

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*Hazel's POV*

"welcome home, Princess."

I didn't smile. I don't feel like smiling. I have too many questions to ask pero ang taong makakasagot noon ay wala dito. Dad's already processing the papers of divorce. Pinirmahan ko na kahapon and I gave him the permission to process everything. If he wants to break it, then I'll do it. Iyon ang gusto ng taong mahal ko. Kaya gugustuhin ko kahit 'di ko kaya.

"maybe you should smile." Sabi ni Kuya pagkapasok niya sa akin sa kwarto ko. I didn't respond to him. Nakasakay ako ng wheelchair dahil 'di ko kayang maglakad. Or maybe because I don't want to. I just want to die. Hindi na nagsalita si Kuya, he pushed me inside and let me examine the place.

Ito ang kwarto ko dito sa bahay namin sa Seattle, Washington. Light green ang wallpaper ng kwarto. May bed na may flower designs. May cabinet din. I sighed. This room is nowhere like my room. Or my room in our house. Or anywhere like his room. This is not my room. Ito nga ang kwarto ko tuwing pumupunta kaming Seattle pero... this is not my home.

"lalabas na ako. Call me if you need anything." Sabi ni Kuya. Hindi ako tumango o ngumiti. Lumabas lang si Kuya.

I rolled the wheels hanggang sa makalapit ako sa lifesize na salamin na nasa isang side ng kwarto. "this is not me..." tumulo ang mga luha ko. I still can see my face. May maliit akong scar sa noo at pale ang labi ko. My eyes are puffy because of my excessive crying. I got thinner and paler. I touched the mirror infront of me. "this is not me..." I am me when I am with him. But it's impossible to be me now. Because you're not here. "Bakit..." iyak ko. I clutched my shirt on top of my belly. "... bakit?" I just want to die.

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"Hazel?" I didn't respond to them. Kanina pa sila tumatawag sa akin. Kakain na raw. Naka-upo lang ako sa wheelchair at nakatanaw sa labas. Walang gaanong tao sa labas ng bahay namin dahil gabi na. "Hazel? Open the door, kakain na tayo." Ni-lock ko kasi yung pinto kanina. And I was able to snatch the spare key when they are not looking. "Hazel, sisirain ko na 'to." Narinig ko ang boses ni Kuya. He's mad.

I sobbed. Bakit 'di nila ako maintindihan? Can't they just let me die? Dapat 'di na nila ako pina-opera. They shouldn't have brought me here in this not-so-home place. Dapat hinayaan nalang nila akong mamatay kung dito rin naman pala nila ako dadalhin. "bababa na ako, call me once she opens the door." Narinig kong sabi ni Mommy and I heard her heels tapping on the floor until it faded.

Inilapit ko kaagad ang wheelchair sa pinto at binuksan iyon sabay hinila ko papasok si Kuya Roro. He's quite shocked pero nagets niya rin nung i-lock ko yung pinto. I stayed there, facing the door. "I can't bring him here. Alam mo 'yan." He really knows what I want. "Princess, look at me." Inikot niya ang wheelchair at hinarap ako sa kaniya.

"Kuya..." I sobbed. "I want to see him badly but... I'm scared... Paano kung ayaw na pala niya sa akin? I don't think I can handle that." Yumuko ako. "I... I had a call before the accident... someone told me something about him." I inhaled. "please, Kuya, don't let Mom and Dad learn about this, please?"

"alam na nila."

"what?"

"alam ko rin." He kneeled infront of me. "may nabuntis na si Clash other than you."

"you know about that? It's true?"

Umiling siya. "no one knows if it's true."

"then you should have told me!" sigaw ko. "things could've been better and not like this. If only you told me..."

"ang akala namin sasabihin ni Clash iyon sa'yo."

"of course, he won't!" sigaw ko. "ikaw ba 'pag nakabuntis ka, sasabihin mo?! Ipagmamalaki mo?! Kahit na may asawa ka na?!"

"don't shout."

"then what do you want me to do?!" sigaw ko.

"please... 'wag kang sumigaw." Napahawak si Kuya sa batok niya.

"I need Clash! I can't live without him---"

"ako din!!" sigaw niya. Napatigil ako sa sigaw ni Kuya Roro. He's now crying. Sobbing. Oh no, I just made my brother cry. Galit ang mga mata ni Kuya. "ako din! 'Di ko rin kaya..." he sobbed infront of me. Tumataas-baba ang balikat niya sa pag-iyak.

"si Denee?" I whispered.

He flinched when I mentioned her name. "how'd you... know about that?"

"kinwento na ni Clash sa akin iyon. The relationship you had. Nakita ko rin ang picture ninyong dalawa." Sabi ko.

"ah... then you already know all about us?"

"anong all about 'us'?" nangunot naman ang noo ko.

"you don't know about Claire?" tanong niya.

My heart immediately sped up its pace. Mukhang tama nga talaga ako all along. "ha?"

"anak ko si Claire." Napatitig ako kay Kuya Roro. "Claire is Denee's daughter." His jaw tightened. Galit si Kuya. "she's my daughter." I was speechless. I was right all along? Ibig sabihin pamangkin ko si Claire? At... si Kuya... may anak na siya. "we did it when we were still in highschool. And yeah, nabuntis ko siya. Well it's a long story. Pero ngayon, alam ko na ang lahat. I just don't tell them na alam ko na."

"si Claire? May anak ka na Kuya..." I said. Ngumiti si Kuya. His smile is so warm. He looked so happy. How I wish na sana buhay ang anak namin ni Clash. Things would be very joyful and lively for me. I won't ask to die if our child is alive. Pero hindi eh, our baby's gone. And now he's gone. "who 'them'?" I asked as I remembered his line a minute ago.

"ha?"

"kanino mo ayaw ipaalam na alam mo na?" tanong ko.

"sa kanila. Kay Mom at Dad. Kina Tito Armann. Kay Tita Helenna." His face turned darker.

"Claire? Does she know about this? And how did that happened? Kapatid ni Clash si Claire." I asked.

He frowned. "I don't know..."

"I can't believe it." I whispered. Alam kong naisip ko na ito noon pa pero... I never thought that I would be right. As in bullseye ang mga hula ko noon.

"me too."

"then... why are you telling me this?" tanong ko.

"I want to help. I want to go back. And I know that you too." sabi niya.

"pero paano?"

"we need a plan."

"a plan?" I asked. He smirked and leaned to kiss my forehead.

"just wait." Bulong niya. "gagawa ako ng paraan para makaalis na tayo dito at makabalik na tayo doon sa mga taong dapat ay kasama natin."

I smiled at him. At last... akala ko hindi na ako makakangiti ulit. Kung ano man ang planong iyon ni Kuya... susunod ako. Maka-usap ko lang ulit si Clash. Makasama ko lang ulit siya.

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