Will I be a burden to you?

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Time for angst after that funny not so funny story muahahahahaha *cough* *cough*. *clears throat* Let's begin shall we?

I have always had the same question every time you ignore me....

Will I be a burden to you?

We started dating by force. Taehyung said that if I don't date then he won't either.

I didn't want that.

He's handsome and him not dating all because I don't want to is such a waste of time.

So I agreed.

The smile on his face was enough for me to smile back too.

Next day, He called me saying he found the perfect guy for me.
I didn't want to say No of course.

I just can't.

So I agreed.

Taehyung was right. He was perfect. He was definitely my type.

We started talking and eventually gave numbers to each other.

Well, I wouldn't say force but to me it is. Anyway,

A week after that, we started to hang out more than usual and I feel guilty every time I leave the house.

I was basically leaving Taehyung all alone.

But he didn't mind.

Not when he's too busy with his boyfriend.

Hoseok was his name. Jung Hoseok.

He was nice so I let him date Taehyung.

Everything went well and then after that, We became a couple.

He took me to a fancy restaurant and we had dinner. It was nice to have one.

Especially when I'm dating with someone.

He took me back home and when I was about to go inside, he hold my hand and said "I love you".

A simple "I love you" was meaningful to me now.

He said it with his big doe eyes. I couldn't see any lie in it.

He actually meant it.

So I said "Yes".

And he was so happy when I said that.

I was happy.

He was happy.

We're still with each other for 3 years now.

Though, I would be lying if I say my life is perfect.

There are times where we fight and one of us went out the house.

Usually it would be him who would.

I was always the problem.

Then he would come back after a day or two and I apologize.

Which he accept like always.

I felt worthless every time we do this.

I don't understand why is he still with me? I'm a burden to him.....

He would usually ignore me whenever he come back home.

Maybe he's tired....that's why he didn't see me....

But, he kept doing it for so long. Maybe around a month? I don't know.
I lost count.

Whenever I prepare food for him, he didn't eat it. I assume he did whenever I went to sleep.

Because the food was gone after that.

Weird......

Why would he eat without me looking at him?

What did I even do?

The routine continues until I had enough.

I approach him and called his name.

"Jungkook-ah"

"Hm?"

"Why are you ignoring me?"

"......I don't know"

"You have to know Jungkook...is it because of me? Did I do something wrong?"

"No you didn't I just......need some time to think....."

"Think about what?"

"......a divorce"

"WHAT?!"

"N-No! I didn't mean that! It was a joke!"

"A JOKE?! What kind of joke is THAT?! Getting a divorce is funny to you?!"

"N-No wait let me explain!"

"Forget it! I'm okay with you ignoring me for a month or whatever but this is TOO MUCH!"

"I know I'm sorry jimin-"

"Sorry doesn't mean anything!"

"I-I...."

"......*Sigh* Jungkook.....if you really want it then.....do it....besides.....I'm already a burden to you anyway.....I'm Sorry Jungkook.....I love you...."

And then I just went upstairs and cry.

Pathetic.....

Now, it was my turn to ignore him. I didn't cook for him knowing damn well he would only eat when I'm not around. I didn't even say "Good morning" or kiss him like always.

It's dramatic I know. Demanding for an answer from him is stupid I know.

Everything I do is a burden to him so maybe that joke was right.....

Maybe a divorce is right.

So while he was asleep, I decided to pack up my bags and write a note.

And left.

(Now it's Jungkook)↓↓↓

The sunlight was shining brightly.

The day was also nice too.

It was Saturday and that means I get to be with Jimin.

I know I ignored him but I only did that because he was distracting me. From my work.

I have a life too and I only want Jimin to be happy.

I just got a paycheck and now I can buy anything he wants! Isn't that great?

It's not....

Not anymore....

Because the first thing I noticed is.....

"Hello Jungkook. I hope you're doing fine but I would like to say that I left. I'm sorry for being such a terrible husband and I only wish you happiness. Yesterday, I hope that divorce joke is not real but now I am writing this to tell you that you're dreams have come true. No, I did not do the divorce paper because I wanted you to do it instead. But, by the time you are reading this.....I just want to say.....you can't find me anymore....I have left and if you want more information from our friends then don't. I did not tell them. Not even my parents. I'm selfish I know. But I just want to be alone for now. I know I hate being alone but....it's for the best.......
I'm sorry Jungkook. I hope you would find someone better and....please smile.....Okay? Smile for me even when I'm not here......Smile brightly like there's no tomorrow.....
I love you Kook I really do but....
I am a burden to you.
You don't deserve me is what I'm trying to say so.....
Sayonara....
I love you.
- From Jimin.

He left.

End.




Note:
Shall I do a happy ending or stick to this? What do you think? Do you want to see what will happen next? Or stick to the angst?
Comment down. ;)



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