My Fear (Eric Divergent Fanfic)

Chapter 95

I finish cleaning up the rest of the bedroom as Eric leans against the threshold. I turn around to look at him.

"Hey..."

"I'll fix the doors tomorrow."

"Thank you."

"Yep..." He shoves his hands in his pockets.

"Do you want to...sit down and talk?"

"Okay."

We make our way to the kitchen and sit across from each other. "Do you love me?"

"So this is an interrogation?"

"No, just a question. Answer how you may."

"Yes, I love you."

"So then this is fixable?"

"I guess."

I shake my head. "There's no I guess, it's yes or no."

"I mean you chopped yourself up for me so I kind of have to say yes."

"You can say no and leave if you really want. Don't say yes for my sake. I made the decision."

He rolls his eyes. "Please, keep reminding me."

"Fine, I won't talk about it."

"It's fixable."

"Then let's fix it."

"You actually want to do this?" He raises an eyebrow at me.

I frown. "I love you, Eric. Of course I want to fix this, I-I don't want to be with anyone else."

"Despite things I've did, might have done, or will do?"

"I've done a lot of things too...Yes, despite everything I want to be with you."

"Okay." He folds his hands in front of him. "Now what?"

I shrug my shoulders. "I don't know. You were the one mad at me. How do you feel?"

"Fine." He shrugs. "It's just nice not being worried anymore."

"I'm sorry I did that to you, but I felt like I was losing my mind. I needed a break. I needed that week away from everyone."

"A lot can happen in a week."

"Are you suggesting I did a lot in a week...or you did?"

"It was just a long time."

"My feelings for you haven't changed."

"Okay. I'm fine now and I didn't really doubt that."

"Have yours?" I pick at my fingernails.

"I just said that I still love you."

"I meant...about trusting me and not wanting to be physical with me anymore."

"You need to heal before we ever do anything..."

"It only takes a week to heal and...it's been a week."

"No." He says quickly.

I lean back in my chair and sigh. "Fine."

"I don't trust it. I'm still using condoms and I don't know how I feel about this just yet..."

I nod my head reluctantly. "...take your time."

"You probably won't hear many rumors."

"I didn't ask about that stuff..."

"I didn't do anything."

"Even if you did I wouldn't blame you..." I say quietly.

"I went to the bar the first two nights and the rest of the week I had Eero so..."