let me just rant about the injustices in music class.
so i used to be a music major at the university. i did it for a semester. i took piano classes, choir, vocal performance and other stuff. and i LOVED IT. it was my biggest dream to graduate with a degree in music from that school.
because my school is highly prestigious and is well known for its music and nursing programs.
it was an amazing first semester of my freshman year.
and my advisor (the person who guides me through college and lets know which classes to take for my degree) she was a nun (cause my school is a private catholic university run by nuns). so i thought nothing could go wrong. BUT it did. when i met with her to plan for my next semester, she saw my permanent record and she told me i should change majors cause i didn't have as much experience in music as the other music majors did.
because all the music majors in the program were bred and practically raised in an opera house (my school specializes more in classical and opera type music than other genres). they are all music geniuses and prodigies. did i mention all the music majors were rich and priviledged white and asians? i was one of the few hispanic ones.
and i wasn't priviledged, i wasn't a music prodigy, descendant of musical geniuses.
but in a way i was.
my mum's dad (in mexico) was a musician. my mum and dad can't sing to save their lives, but my grandparents on my mum's side can (i don't know about my dad's family).
and i remember being able to sing (and loving it) my whole life.
i was in a children's christmas choir when i was in 4th and 5th grade in elementary, i took piano lessons when i was ten, i taught myself how to play the damn guitar, i have a guitar and an electronic keyboard, i was in the music club in high school, i was in a church music band when i was seventeen.
just because i don't have a parent who was an opera singer or because i wasn't born into a famous musical family doesn't mean i wouldn't make it in the program.
so i got really angry and dropped the music program and decided to get a degree in history, spanish, and art. but i still take choir because i love to sing.
and so there are a number of unfair things that happen in that class.
i don't dorm at the university.
my school owns two campuses; one near ucla and the other near usc. i go to the one in the mountains near ucla. but the school offers a free shuttle service that takes you from one campus to the other.
and so if i forget my music folder I'M FUCKED. cause it takes one hour to get from one campus to the other. and i don't have time to race home to get my damn folder. but most of the people in choir dorm. so guess what? they can run back and get it. and even though i explained it to my teacher, she acts like i intentionally left my folder behind. does she think i like being yelled at? its not pleasant.
and the thing that most kills me is class time.
the class should end at 6:15.
but often times the teacher drags it out to almost six thirty. THE FUCKING SHUTTLE LEAVES AT SIX THIRTY WHETHER YOU'RE ON IT OR NOT.
and the next one doesn't come until an hour later. so do you see my dilemma?
it angers me so much.
because she doesn't give a shit that i'll be standing outside at the shuttle stop, at night, in the cold, unnecessarily, for a fucking hour because she went over class time. we have class three hours a week. i think its well enough time that you won't need to go over any time. and with the exception of two other girls, the rest don't give a shit either if we go over time.
they are able to pay $15000 for a fucking dorm room.
so yeah, the injustices of the elite music world at my school. lol
-clary xx
