today my life was filled with tears.
so, i dont know if you all watched. maybe not cause it was on at the same time as the netherlands game, but the spain vs australia game was on.
and i cried.
i cried because spain is out of the world cup.
spain is honestly one of my favorite teams ever and i was so gutted to see them so upset today. they scored three goals and didnt even celebrate them because it wouldnt make a difference. it was still all over for them.
there were other things that bothered me too.
david villa actually got a chance to play today, he was starter.
and he even scored a goal, which proves my theory. if he had been allowed to play the first two games, then he could have saved spain from this humiliation.
so i cried cause they're eliminated.
i cried when my favorite soccer player scored a goal because i was so proud of him.
and i cried when he was replaced on the field by another player, near the end of the game. and this was because i saw him cry and it wrung my heart out. he was probably so upset to be going home this early, especially when the golden era of spanish soccer is coming to a close.
both xabi alonso and xavi hernandez are retiring from the national team after this world cup.
though david villa hasn't said anything, i think he'll be leaving the national team too. the coaches will want to bring in younger guys and villa's already thirty-two. so maybe he already sensed this was his last game on an international pitch.
another thing that hit me right in the emotions today was mexico's win.
guys, srsly.
last world cup, they didn't go as far as they did today.
and i am honestly so proud of my boys. they worked so hard to be where they are and they deserve to win.
but the thing about mexico's game that made me sob was chicharito's goal. he got the ball passed to him by marquez and then he hit it in with his head. and i think this was the most memorable moment of the whole world cup for me.
this is because poor chicharito had an entire year and one day on the national team without scoring a goal.
and he was getting so much criticism for it.
i always supported him, but the announcers would always point out that he was lacking skill nowadays, something i refuse to believe.
so when he scored, i broke down crying.
and even more when he dropped down on his knees and cried.
he just looked so happy and relieved even.
brazil played today too, and though i didnt get to watch it cause it was at the same time as the mexico game, i heard it was a great match.
what really hit me about the brazil game was that kaka didn't make the world cup squad.
and he deserves it more than anyone. this could have been his fourth one too, but no. he had to be left out. he's only thirty-two for fuck's sake. he's still young and talented. and he won't even play the next one probably cause he'll be older.
and the last thing that made me cry today that is linked to soccer is that this all probably affects me cause i grew up watching the world cups.
i remember watching the 2006 one, but i only cared about mexico so i only remember those matches.
the 2010 one, i watched every game. and from then on, i watched my favorite soccer players go from team to team. some were met with glory along the way [ like mexico winning the copa oro in 2011 and the summer olympic soccer competition in 2012; or chivas, how they tried to get the twelfth star by winning their twelfth tournament. everyone thought it was their destiny and they were so close to achieving it, but they lost ].
and i guess it just makes me sad to see the end of an era...
cause i grew up with them.
and watching it end so suddenly makes me feel like i'm growing old so fast.
next time i watch a world cup, i'll be twenty-four.
all my favorite soccer players will be long gone from the national team and it just won't be the same.
it just makes me really sad.
and i honestly cried while typing this.
its what soccer does to me.
i just love it so much, with a passion.
