some motherfuckers have really unfortunate timing -.-
so today is my cousin anna's graduation.
today is also the day my aunt and my cousin's wife came to visit from San Francisco. why? i have no fucking idea.
my cousin, her sister, my sister, and i literally grew up together.
so let me pause right there and give y'all the 411.
my mum's older sister has three daughters. they were all born here in america. so after anna was born,her family moved to mexico a couple of months later. cause my aunt didn't really like the united states, so they went back.
meaning that they're american citizens.
and ten years ago, my aunt decided she wanted to come back to america so her daughters could go to school here and speak english.
but my aunt crossed the border illegally the first time.
so she had to do so again.
my cousins were able to cross the border through tijuana with their birth certificates and i remember when we went to pick them up. but my aunt stayed behind. and she and my uncle were crossed over by a coyote who they paid $5000 to get them across.
i remember we didn't know anything about them for almost three months.
my mum was so worried that her sister could have been kidnapped or killed.
and i was like ten at the time, i didn't understand what was going on, and frankly, i don't remember caring much. i know that sounds heartless, but i was like ten. okay?
i just remember my cousins would pray every night for their parents.
and my mum was a helpful woman.
i particularly remember that year for being the year where so many people lived at my house. several months before, my mum's younger sister had had a really bad fight with her husband. she had two sons and a daughter and they came to live at our house. and my house is decent sized, but there were too many people living there.
it was me, my two sisters, my parents, my aunt, her two sons, her daughter, my three girl cousins, and then later on her parents.
anyway, back to my original story, i've known anna banana since i was ten and she lived at my house until i was like fifteen, and even when they moved out, they bought a house like 5 blocks away so we still visit them everyday.
her sister and i graduated high school together.
she went to my sister's graduation.
we went to her older sister's graduation.
we celebrate birthdays, thanksgiving, christmas, and new year with them.
we are super fucking close.
and so, she invited my sister michelle and me to her graduation, cause you only get seven tickets. i mean like, she even didn't invite her own boyfriend to invite us.
BUT MY FUCKING AUNT AND MY COUSIN'S WIFE JUST HAD TO DROP IN FOR A FUCKING VISIT!
AND MY AUNT CALLED US UP AND EXPLAINED THAT SHE COULDN'T JUST LEAVE THEM AT HER HOUSE CAUSE IT WOULD BE RUDE. SO SHE GAVE THEM OUR TICKETS AND I AM FUMING CAUSE FUCK.
they didn't spend five years of their lives crammed into a bedroom with three other girls.
they didn't guide her through fucking middle school.
they didn't spend time with her in high school.
they didn't help her with her homework or guide her through college applications.
they didn't accompany her to the placement exams at college when she was too scared to go all on her own.
and they especially won't be there when she goes to orientation later this summer or when she starts college in the fall.
that was all me and my sister michelle.
that's why i am so angry, but more likely disappointed and hurt that i can't share her big day cause some empty headed bitches decided it would be nice to visit TODAY OF ALL FUCKING DAYS.
its just hurtful cause it won't make a difference to them.
they visit us like once every like two years.
so yeah, i'm kinda getting teary eyed cause this was so important to me.
but oh well, shit happens.
gotta move on.
-clary xx
