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When I Saw You

4-26-16

Must be the most requested. Guess which one this is? ;)

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It was our 5th anniversary.

Hindi pa nagpaparamdam sa akin si Daniel. Since yesterday.

We bid our goodbyes happily naman the other day. Halos ayaw na nga niya akong pakawalan sa higpit ng yakap niya sa akin.

'Fine. If you're gonna be like that, then so be it. HAPPY FIFTH FUCKING ANNIVERSARY.' Text ko sa kanya.

Napuno ako. The sun has already beautifully set, and the moon replaced it. Not a single word from him. Niha niho.

Hindi ko naman inakalang magkakaganito ulit kami. And on our fifth anniversary?!

Technically, Eighth.

Pero wala namang pake iyong lalaking iyon!

What's worse?

My fears are eating me alive.

Nabubuhay na naman yung mga takot ko na ibinaon ko na sa limot.

And here they are, again, ruining my thoughts and interfering with my stands.

It was a never ending banter.

Ever since five years ago, when Daniel broke up with me, natatakot na ako palagi.

Sure, our relationship was smooth sailing, with bits of disturbances, but nonetheless, Hindi naman malaking kasiraan.

It was freaking wrong. Maling pagdudahan ko siya.

But I can't help it.

I tried to forget it, and somehow, nagawa ko naman. Pero sa tuwing may nangyayaring ganto?

It was a war between my fear and my love for him.

Naiiyak ako sa tuwing naaalala ko yung nangyari. I came so close into losing the man I love.

I felt him slipping away from me about three months before we broke up.

He never stopped saying I love you back. Pero ramdam ko yung pagkairitado niya.

Kailangan kong umaksyon. Hindi pwedeng basta nalang ako tumayo doon at hintayin siyang iwanan nalang ako.

And so I did.

Mas malala lang ang nangyari. Dahil sa ginawa ko, lalo lang siyang nayamot.

We broke up.

Hindi ko pinlano yung paghingi ng isang araw. I just wanted to pack, and leave. I love him. It hurts to let him go, pero siya na kasi yung umaayaw.

I pushed my luck. Hindi ko siya magawang tignan.

Alam ko namang walang epekto yung isang araw na yon.

The excruciating pain of saying goodbye later that night was my slap of reality.

And then he stopped me. He stopped me, and I knew I only had one last chance to take him back.

I stooped down low. I offered myself to him.

He rejected me. And I said all those words that never planned on telling him.

Yet, God still had plans for us.

Umiiyak na pala ako. I need to breathe.

Pumunta ako sa labas. Only to be left wide eyed as I saw Daniel in the middle of an act.