Aria's POV -
I was crying non stop when I felt Louis sit on the bed beside me. His words were going on a loop in my mind. He thinks I'm not worth it. It was a bad idea to even come here. Atleast I thought that he was worth fighting for.
I know I hurt him. But why he had to say those words to me?
"Hey.." he said touching my shoulder and I flinched.
"Go away" I blurted out.
"I didn't mean that.." he said.
"I get that you're hurt, but you maybe you forgot that I'm a human too, with feelings and all you know" I snapped. Fresh tears forming in my eyes.
"I'm sorry.. I take that back.." he said. "Just stop crying.." he said coming closer.
"I can't, I can't handle this anymore.." I said. He stood silent.
"Neither can I.. you shouldn't have come here.." he said looking down.
"Ofcourse, my bad" I rolled my eyes.
"It was your fault"
"Yes it was, it's always my fault isn't it" I snapped.
He looked at me for a while and left without a word.
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Louis' POV -
"Louis.." Aria said resting her head on my shoulder.
"Hmm?" I sighed, keeping my arm around her.
"Do you think cats can talk but they put on a show, just for humans..?" she asked licking her ice cream and I smiled.
"I don't know love, maybe, maybe not.." I said and she chuckled.
"I think they have a secret language" she grinned and I shrugged.
"I love you, Louis.." she said kissing my cheek.
Why does it feel so long since she did that?
"I love you, Ari" I said kissing her temple.
And then, I woke up.
God, it was such a nice dream.. couldn't it restart or something..?
Knowing I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep, which I craved nowadays, I tried to get up.
Tried, because I was tangled with Aria. I remember her coming into my room last night, because I was having a nightmare.
As weird as it sounds, I didn't let her go back. Not that she wanted to, or maybe she did, I don't know. Because well, Tina and my Mom are torturing me in my dreams nowadays. Or may I say night.
This was the first night that I slept peacefully in a whole week. Without any nightmare, just sweet dreams. Thanks to the liar in my bed.
I lifted my head which rested on her shoulder and looked at her. She looked so peaceful, so beautiful.
Why the heck she looks pretty in the morning? Or anytime for that matter. Isn't her messed up hair supposed to play that ugly part? But no, she looks hot with them.
Why did you lie to me Ari, I love so you much.. why did you make it so hard for me?
I sighed and gulped as my eyes travelled a bit down. The upper two buttons of her shirt were opened and her cleavage was on full show. I could even see her cherry coloured bra. That was my favourite on her.
She couldn't have made it easy for me, could she now.
My hands instantly reached to button up but as soon as my fingers touched her delicate skin, she woke up.
Great.
She looked at me and my hands in curiosity, not saying anything. Her eyes weren't angry or irritated, they were soft.
"I.. sorry.. I just.. nevermind" I fumbled and quickly got out of the room without anyone could say anything.
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Aria's POV -
He left quickly, awkwardly leaving me confused. It was his room, why did he leave anyway?
I shrugged but then I realized what his hands were trying to do. He was probably buttoning my shirt up.
Hmm, I think it's one way or another Louis.
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I quickly got downstairs after getting dressed up. Louis was already on the dining table.
He spoke as soon as he noticed me, not looking back.
"Your coffee is ready" he said as I took a seat beside him.
"Who made this?" I asked and he rolled his beautiful eyes.
"Who do you think can make it just the way you like?" he said and finally looked at me, eyes trailing down, checking me out quickly.
He gulped, his Adam's apple blobbing, making him look incredibly sexy.
I just smiled and drank my coffee. I was wearing the most revealing black top I owned, with thin spaghetti straps completed with a denim jacket. It wasn't very revealing if I have to be honest, but enough to make him a bit attentive towards me.
The things I do for this boy.
"There are pancakes too, and Emily made it, not me.." he said clearing his throat and I nodded.
"So you're not going to spoon me today?" I asked mischievously and he rolled his again.
"No, and before you ask why, that's the least you can do for me" he said not paying any attention to me.
The rest of breakfast was silent.
"Umm Louis.." I called as I followed him to the kitchen.
"Hmm?"
"Thanks for the coffee.." I said and he sighed.
"Hmm" he said and left. I was standing there, trying to think how to make him talk to me when he came back again.
"Could you like change?" he asked irritatingly and I smirked.
"Why?" I asked back and he rolled his eyes.
"You know why, but I'll tell you.. " he said grabbing the collar of my jacket. "I can't stop you, but you're still in my house, so don't do this to me, please.." he said coming closer and I instantly felt bad. What was I even doing? He was right.. I shouldn't have done this.
"Fine, I'll change" I said and he nodded. He stepped back after pulling the jacket closer.
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Louis' POV -
I get it, I'm not her boyfriend, and I probably shouldn't care about what she wears but I can't let her torture me like this. I can't touch her and she was like screaming for me to do something I'll regret.
I won't regret it actually, but I'm just not that kind of a person.
Like I said before, I don't play with anyone's feelings. Which Aria did to me.
"Hey.." she called and I looked back, she now had changed into a different top and I was thankful.
I really didn't want anyone to see her like that. Except me. But not now. And anyway, there are a lot of people at the airport.
"That's more like it" I smiled.
She gave me a confused smile but I let it slip.
"Okay, so here.. I wanted to give you this.." I said.
"What is it?" she said taking the paper.
"Your ticket to New York, you're going back today, in 2 hours specifically" I said looking away.
"I never booked- oh.. you booked it didn't you?" she said, tears forming in her beautiful eyes. Well, this is not what I wanted. It still breaks my heart to see her cry.
"Yeah, in the morning" I replied and she shook her head.
"You're so.. why are you doing this Louis..?" she asked.
"I could ask you the same"
"Louis I want to fix this, fix us"
"There is no us, Aria" I replied and she looked taken aback. "I doubt if it ever was"
"You're being stubborn Louis"
"And you're being stupid! Why can't you just get the hell away from my life and leave my pathetic life be!" I shouted and she flinched.
"Because I love you.."
"Bullshit.. stop it, stop lying to me Aria" I said, my eyes were forming tears as well.
"I'm not lying you idiot, I really love you! Why do you think I came all the way from the fucking States?!" she yelled.
"I don't know, maybe to ruin my already ruined life again!" I said and she looked at me with wide eyes.
"You're crossing the limit Louis.." she said.
"Oh yeah? Really Aria, you know what let me tell you this" I spat. "I was really happy with my friends and those hoes I fucked time to time, and then you came to fucking destroy it all" I said. "You were the sunshine of my pathetic life, the air I needed, the one!" I said holding my temples. "You know what Ari, I never loved anyone expect Tina.. but you.. you were another kind of happiness to me, it all seemed real, my fucking heart raced when I even looked at you.. and that was.. new.. that feeling made me alive.. it made me feel how bad my life was before you came..That day.. our first official date, when you told me that the plane crashed.. I knew that I was in love with you.. you saved my life.. and I was grateful.. because I had you.. but now I don't and I hate it!" I was crying now. "I want to hate you.. but I can't.. I hate that I can't hate you.. I hate that you're still the only one I want.. I hate that I can't just simply go back to my life before you! And despite everything you did to me, I can't even imagine of loving someone else, you're just stuck in my head and I hate that I'm fucking okay with it!" I said holding her arms roughly. She looked scared.
"I'm so sorry Louis.. I'm so sorry.. I'm not lying, I love you.. I really do.. you're the only one I want.. heck you're the one I need.."
"You're a liar Ari, you're a cheater.. I thought you were different but no, you turned out to be the worst of them all.. you know why?" I asked cupping her tear stained cheeks. "Because, I had no feelings for any of them, no love, no hate, absolutely nothing.. but you.." I trailed off, unable to speak.
"Louis.. don't do this to me.. I can't live without you.. you're my life.."
"Stop it Ari, you're digging the hurt deeper and it's not fucking helping" I said and she closed her eyes.
"You're my everything Louis.. please.." she begged.
No Lou, you don't want her, she's a liar.
But..
"I don't deserve it Ari.. I may not deserve to be loved but I don't deserve to be cheated on.. to be lied to.."
"You're hurting me.." she said meeting my eyes, trying to get her arms which I'm sure were now red, away from my hold but I didn't let her.
"Exactly Ari, you're hurting me and that's why you shouldn't be here" I said and stormed upstairs without another word. She needed to get away from here. Away from me.
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I knocked on Aria's room in hopes that she would open because it was time to get her to the airport. She didn't. The door was unlocked, so I opened it and found the exact scene I was expecting. She was crying, her head in her hands.
"It's time to go" I said softly.
"Fine" she said and stood up, taking her bag with her.
"I'm taking you" I said and she stopped.
"It's okay, I'll take a cab, I'm sure you can book one for me?" she said and I looked away.
"I'm driving and that's final" I said and she rolled her eyes but didn't question further.
As soon we were settled in the car, I started driving and in almost 20 minutes, we were at the airport. I intentionally drove slow, my subconscious still enjoying each and every moment of her presence next to me.
My heart was beating loudly in my chest as I helped her with her bag. We just stood silent, staring each other for the moment. And, then she decided to break it.
"I can't change what you think.. but I really do love you.. and unlike you I would have accepted you.. but well.. I guess this is it?" she said, as a tear rolled down her cheek.
"Yeah.." I said, unsure of my words.
"I won't come back Louis.. ever." she said and I felt a pang in my chest from her words.
"Good. Don't" I said, my eyes were forming tears.
"I hope you do find someone, and in all honesty not better than me" she said.
"No one will be" I agreed and she gave me a sad smile.
"I'm sorry Louis and not that you care but I don't think I'll ever stop loving you" she said.
"Me neither" I said and she nodded.
"Well then, can I get a hug?" she asked and I did the worst thing I could do.
"No" I said. I didn't miss the look on her face which showed utter shock and hurt. But I can't, I can't let her take over my senses again.
"Safe flight" I said. Tears were running down her soft cheeks but she looked.. blank.
"Take care" she said with no emotion on her face, which made me slightly afraid. Alright, very afraid.
"You too" I almost whispered and she stared at me before she walked ahead. I sat in my car, while my stupid heart waited for her to turn back and try some more bullshit to win me.
She didn't look back. Not even once.
And just like that, she was gone.
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A/N -
Aaaa, I cried while writing this.. but good things aren't supposed to be easy right..
Anyway, thank you so much for sticking with the story, despite the wait, it really means the world to me!
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