*** Ahri POV ***
Sitting on my bed, I hold my pillow close to my chest. My heart is beating slowly, my mind is wandering in different alcoves trying to make sense of my own situation. I feel... empty. A wonderful house with all those shiny surfaces without a family to share them.
But why... why do I always feel so alone when you are right there beside me? Is your presence not enough for me. They always used to say that even when they are not by my side, their spirit... their hearts will always be with me, and yet I don't sense you in these four walls.
It's just me.
I hate this feeling, this crippling loneliness that pushes me over that edge. Come home already, I hate this screaming silence because it is killing me.
I wipe the tears from my face with the pillow, dragging myself out of bed I tread slowly towards the emptiness of the house. Rubbing out my eyes I walk to the bathroom only to see myself in my own sorry state. I laugh at myself as I can't even manage to get my ears to perk up if I wanted to.
"God this is such a sad sight," I shake my head at myself, my eyes are red and my nose looks like it has been running, my face is all watery and this is such a terrible sight that I feel like crying again.
This side of me, I hope anyone never sees.
*** Kai'Sa POV ***
"Hey, Dad, what's up?"
"Hey, Sweety, was just curious to see if you are awake yet. I left some cash on the counter seeing as I already had to abandon you," he sighs, "Sorry I can't ever make time."
I chuckle, "It's fine. I don't really have anything planned for today so I might just stick around watching some TV before going out to see if there are any other dance classes out there that might take my interest."
"Stay safe out there."
"I always do."
Cutting the call, I bob my head to the sides as I turned on the TV. Heading straight to the kitchen to make myself something to eat and just sit down and enjoy the quiet morning before I force myself to run about. Dad is always busy most of the days but there are days I get lucky and he has some time off.
Nothing I can do about it.
My mind drifts towards the upper floors, "Wonder what (Y/N) is doing for the weekend?" twisting my lips to the side I then glance down at my phone on the coffee table, I feel like I want to message him and ask if I could come up seeing as my day is going to go pretty slowly.
I'll just stick with the original plans. No sense in-
My thoughts are interrupted by a message on the screen. I reach over and furrow my brow to look at the message. When did I give you my number... I rarely use my phone I forget sometimes when I give people my number... this must be when I gave it at that Sushi place.
It's strange, I don't think he is interested in me but I have that suspicion. Guess I have some plans for the day.
*** Evelynn POV ***
"Your girlfriend hates me."
I then glance at her, "Ahri is my best friend, there is nothing between the two of us like that."
She then slides into my vision with an arched brow, "Don't you want there to be? I mean - she is cute. She relies on you the most because she has that crippling fear of hers," I look her in the eyes, "Oh that triggered a nerve."
"I let you get away with a lot of things, Michelle. Leave Ahri out of everything you do and I won't start getting aggressive."
She twists her lips to the side, saying in a low and sultry tone, "I kind of want to tempt you now," then back to her chirpy mood, "So what about that (Y/N) kid, feels kind of random how he just popped in. I saw Akali before."
"He is new to the school."
"Makes sense then," she then crosses her arms, "I can work with him, he didn't talk back like an idiot thinking he is hot shit so it makes him tons easier to work with than the kids we have in the industry."
"Kids? You are still pretty young yourself."
She gives me a smirk, "I am just better than them."
"I'm sure," then with a sigh, "Just don't try anything. I don't trust you with anyone other than myself because I can handle you-"
She steps closer to me, "Can you really handle me, Eve?"
I clench my jaw, standing my ground, "More than you know."
With a scoff, "Sure," she steps back as she drops back onto her couch, "Though you need to find yourself above all things, Evelynn. Through all the years I've known you and your brother you keep shifting between different personalities, ideals, and aspirations. When will you find yourself?"
"I already found myself."
"A lost girl without a cause?"
"Lost because I won't ever let you in?"
She counters, "You let me in once, you haven't admitted it yet but I was the one that got scarred in that little story. Forgive and forget, right? I don't want to be let in, you have a blast radius Eve. You don't know when you hurt yourself and when you do it slowly kills everyone around you."
"Take it from someone that genuinely cares for you despite everything that happened between the two of us," she glances at me over the back of the couch, "You just don't know how suffocating you can be."
I counter, "That's why you keep wanting me around? Make it make sense Michelle. Saying all of this shit when you don't understand even a little bit about me."
She turns back, resting her head backward as she stares up at the ceiling, "Give me more credit, Eve."
"I am leaving."
She chuckles, "If you want me out of your life, if I am that much of a stain then just tell me and I make myself scarce. Just good luck finding someone else to fill that little spot."
"I hate you," I walk towards the door.
She lifts her hand waving at me, "Try not to let the door hit you on the ass."
Tch. The nerve of this woman. She talks through her ass because she thinks she knows so much about me - the only thing I can give her credit for is as an artist but as a person, she is fowl, forceful, and manipulative.
She never lets you see that side until you can't get rid of her because she has so many things to break you down with. Ahri is the only one that understands, I pull out my phone and I give Ahri a call as I leave.
What are you doing Evelynn... why can't you just walk away?
*** Akali POV ***
Grabbing all of my things, I scale the walls early in the morning. It is a bit early but I don't mind waiting - I'd rather not let them put me to work. They know I disappear every weekend but they never ever really confront me about it.
Mom knows I hate it in there, Dad doesn't care.
Shen wants the best for me when it comes to the Kinkou and nothing ever past that. How am I supposed to live when my entire life is just a dedication to something that isn't me? Who cares if I am good at it... I don't want to do it.
My phone rings in my hands, "Akali."
"Hey, it's Conner. Want to hang out?"
"I already have plans for today, but we can do what we usually do as a group tomorrow?"
"I was more asking just the two of us."
Twisting my mouth to the side, then with a chuckle I joke, "What are you and the guys fighting again?"
"We are together right now," he also chuckles, "But is that a yes or a no?"
"Hmm, sure. I could probably use a change of pace."
"Awesome. Enjoy your day and I'll talk to you later."
"You too."
Cutting the call, I head straight towards the school. Getting close to the entrance, I scale the wall of the gate sitting on the stone parts as I wait with the cool breeze of the morning air blow into my face.
I wonder sometimes if I could ever escape the Kinkou where would I go? Somewhere they can't find me. But I am just never ready to start running, a part of me doesn't want to run and desperately finds a reason to stay put for just a little while longer.
This music thing feels like a saving grace... one that I will always be thankful for. Something to look forward to every single day.