Why Him? | Donah Meavey

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Daniel's pov

When Jonah sat down next to me I got the shivers all over my body. I looked at him just from the corner of my eye. He was constantly staring at me. Then he put his hand on mine and I froze.

"Daniel." he whispered. "Please don't ignore me."

I pulled away my hand. I had to.

"Please." his voice broke. I was trying so hard to not cry. Holy shit. I felt the knot in my throat and the tears trying to escape from my eyes. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

"Look at me." he whispered. I haven't seen him but I could tell that he was lightly crying. I wanted to look at him but it's forbidden.

He was distracting me and when I couldn't take it any longer, I raised my hand and asked the teacher if I can go to the bathroom.

I got out of the classroom as soon as possible. I hurried to the bathroom while tears were streaming down on my face. I got into one of the cabins and started to cry even harder.

Jonah's pov

When Daniel left the classroom I looked over at Corbyn with teary eyes. He was watching us through the whole time.

I shook my head and covered my face with my hands lightly crying. I couldn't concentrate on the teacher and the lesson.

After some time the door went open so I looked up. It was Daniel. He walked through the class with his head held low. I could see his eyes...red and full of tears. He's dealing with some shit for sure, but why can't he tell me? It's breaking my heart seeing him like this. But on the other hand I still don't get it why he keeps ignoring me. He doesn't love me anymore?? It can't be true! No no no..I know he loves me..he does..right?

He sat down and hid his face into his hands. First I wanted to put my hand on his back and comfort him, but I didn't do anything. He would pull away anyways.

It was so hard to just sit there and see that he's suffering and I don't even know why. As soon as the class was over, he hurried out of the classroom again. Corbyn came to my desk and sat down on Daniel's place.

"Nothing?" he asked and I shook my head. I hope no one noticed me or Daniel crying. We sit in the back so, I guess we're okay.

"He's so cold.." I sniffed. "It hurts..it really does."

"Can I go and talk with him?" Corbyn was so helpful.

"I told you that it's not that easy." I responded.

"Why?" he was confused.

"Cause it's..ugh you don't know the background of the whole thing." when I said this out loud something fleshed in my mind. Oh my goodness gracious what if his parents found out about us and that's why he's acting so weird?? Oh my god. I am honestly so..so stupid. How could I not see?

My thoughts were interrupted by Corbyn.

"Jonah?" he was waving his hand in front of my eyes. I just looked at him with widened eyes, still paralyzed from what I just figured out. I mean if it's true then we have a big..big problem. But even if that's behind his acting, I..I'm still so confused. I can't see any reasons for the ignorance. Ugh Daniel..what did I do to you? What in the world?

"I'm sorry I was just thinking." I said and rubbed my face with my hands.

"Okay I'm gonna leave cause you are absolutely zoned out." he said patting my shoulder and he walked back to his seat next to Zach who was having fun with Jack and Gabbie.

The next period started and the teacher walked in. Daniel still didn't come back. I hope he's good. I mean he's probably not.

After like 10 minutes he opened the door and walked in.

"I'm sorry for coming late but I don't feel good today." he said sadly to the teacher and started to walk back to his seat. Oh my gosh..I missed his voice. Sound to ears. I just wish he was talking to me.

The fucking teacher wasn't even caring about him. He just watched him walking over to me and sitting down, then he just continued with the lesson. Disgusting. He didn't even ask Daniel if he wants to go home if he doesn't feel good.

I couldn't help but put my hand on his leg. What surprised me was that this time he didn't pull away...at least for some time.

"Are you okay?" I questioned whispering. He closed his eyes and slowly pulled away his leg. Then he inhaled sharply. I haven't talked to him or touched him for the rest of the class. It was useless...I miss him..so so much.

Daniel's pov

This is my hardest fucking day in my fucking shitty life. Poor Jonah. He's trying so hard and I act like a fucking asshole. I miss him so much. So..fucking..much.

It was lunch time so everyone headed to the school canteen. I got my food and took a seat at the empty table in the back. It was weird sitting there by myself cause I always sit with Jonah and our friends.

I was just thinking, not able to eat. I would probably throw up. Suddenly someone sat down next to me. I knew it was him. Then he spoke up.

"Daniel please answer me." he begged me. "Is this whole ignoring thing because of your parents? Huh? Is it?"

I couldn't help but look at him. He was right. He got it. He's so smart.

"Daniel what is happening with us? Did they find out about us? Is that the reason for your acting?" I was breaking down slowly. I saw the pain in his eyes. I had to look away again. I couldn't take it. I grabbed my tray of food and stood up ready to leave. But he grabbed my arm and I spilled the food on the floor.

"Oh my god I'm so sorry Daniel." he apologized but I just hurried away leaving him standing there. I rushed out of the school canteen and headed to my locker. I opened it, grabbed my bag and left the building. I walked home not caring about the school. It was more than enough.

Jonah's pov

When I asked him those questions and he finally looked at me, I could see in his eyes that I'm right. I can't believe. His parents found out about us. That's horrible. But how? Oh wait..his father...he definitely saw us when he walked out of the bank.

Daniel was so broken. His ocean eyes were filled with pain, tears and torture. He suddenly looked away, grabbed his tray and stood up leaving me alone again. I quickly grabbed his arm and he spilled the food on the floor.

"Oh my god I'm so sorry Daniel." I apologized looking down on the food on the floor. When I looked up he was gone. I looked around and noticed him rushing out of the canteen. I wanted to run after him but Corbyn stopped me.

"Let him go Jonah."