____Hyerim POV_____
I woke up around 2am to find myself sleeping without my blanket, my phone was still thrown next to me, I could've crushed it if I turned to the other side, i put the blanket on me trying to back to sleep but I pulled my upper body up sitting on the bed suddenly, I grabbed my hair in annoyance, the thought of what should I give to that bastard still jumping in my head and it's became a reason of my sleepless nights.
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I finished typing around 4 am, this Time I didn't send any pictures but I wrote an article with some informations from what I have until now, I felt my eyes tearing up and my hands was shaking hesitating to click the send button, I closed my eyes
I have no other choice, I'm sorry
And I clicked on the button, I closed my laptop quickly..
I sighed deeply and burst into crying, I couldn't handle the fact that I'm the biggest bitch on Earth , I'm becoming a monster day by day, I started screaming non stop, I thought different stuff on the wall, I broke many stuff.... I fell on the ground hugging my knees, I don't want this life anymore...my dad was about to break my door before I stood up opening it slowly with my head down.
He hugged tight me immediately. I feel worst because I was a reason for waking him up at 4 am, *hyerim, hyerim darling, what happened, are you okay, what happened??! Why you screamed like that* my dad didn't let go of me. I cried out loud on his chest.
Hyerim: it's nothing dad, I had multiple nightmares.
Father: it's okay darling, it's okay, I'm with you don't worry I'm here.I woke up up again around 5:30 am, I didn't have enough sleep nor my father, I found my dad holding my hand sleep in the seat position, I sighed deeply, it will be painful when he wakes up later, I woke up and put the blanket on him, I realized that it's my dad's room. I put a note next to him so he can see it when he wakes up.
I left to school early, dad I'm sorry about last night, don't worry about me, I will back after school.I went to my room to see it in a big mess, all the stuff we're on the ground, I didn't have the mood to fix it, I just held some stuff from the ground, and left the others there, I did my morning routine and held my backpack, I didn't take breakfast as always, i Walked in the way of the beach as always, I want to have a peaceful morning time, I want to breath the air that makes me forget about everything, I stood up in front of the beach I closed my eyes for a while.
I wish I could stay like that forever.*Hyerim aah* I opened my eyes on someone calling my name, I turned around to see jungkook.
*Jungkook aah~, good morning* I felt happy yet scared.
* Good morning lee hyerim, I knew i'll find you here* he said smiling widely.
I smiled back with no mood , it's not like I don't want to be around him, but I just don't dare to smile while I'm doing those horrible stuff.
Jungkook: are you okay.
Hyrime: yeah I'm fine.
Jungkook: humm, I think you didn't have enough sleep.
Hyerim: oh~~ I guess so, I feel tired.
Jungkook: from what?!
Hyerim: from everything.I said before I remember that I have to control myself, I need to keep my shit inside me or I'll get caught and lose everybody and everything around me, yes I'm a selfish bitch, but I think I can't handle it live without those lovely people and be hated AF.
Jungkook was looking at me in a sad confused eyes.
Hyerim: what's wrong with that face*laughing, laughing* you know I'm joking, I just hate school and exams, I want to graduate asap.
He comes closer and took me between his arms hugging me, petting on my back.
Jungkook: aigoo ouri hyerim, don't worry, you will get rid of school soon, I will support you, we are friends remember??!I felt butterflies in my stomach, I don't know what to feel anymore, like a thousand of feelings were fighting inside me , I hugged him back putting my head on his chest feeling his warmth, im loving it.
Hyrime: thank you jungkookaah~~.
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FanfictionLee heyrim is the typical girl who has dreams and wants to be a fashion designer and stylist, she has the hobby of photographing her favorite person. Life goes against her to make her sacrifice things that she loves and live on the edge of loosing h...