Make Me Live Again

Vibrating

Gibbs POV: (It doesn't change like that again! Sorry!)

I ran out of the office and right into Tia.

"Are you okay? What did Kai say? I know he can be rude but I thought he was being nice when I left. Are you okay?" Tia asked twice.

I wasn't. My body was vibrating and it had nothing to do with the moon. "As long as I don't have to see him again." I was lying. I wanted to get a poster of Kai and hang it on my wall. Maybe move into his room and never leave. Drag him into my room and I wanted to slowly unbutton his dress shirt and slide my hands in and touch...

"Gibbs!" I snapped back to real life. "I asked you if you were okay and you were staring off. Daydreaming? You looked a little..." Tia's eyes got big. "No way. You have a thing for the vampire!" Tia sounded surprised.

"Shut up!" I was denying that and stomped to my room. I could hear Tia laughing as I closed the door. Oh yes. I had a thing for the vampire. I went to lunch and ate. Everyone was scattered. I didn't see Alex... or Kai. He was in meetings all day.

I was alone and went to my room. I laid on the bed and thought about the vampire. I tried to read but I was very distracted.

I replayed the meeting and I wanted to kill Alex for his baby comment. Ugh! Kai was perfect. Vampire.

My vampire.

Shit. What happened? He was beautiful. I wanted to touch him everywhere. I think it would be best if I didn't see him again. I would have no control. Well, I wouldn't be alone with him. I had Alex, Leah and Tia. I had Ben even. I could use them as buffers to keep me away and to keep me from doing something stupid.

I didn't want to stay away and that was a problem. I have never responded to someone like that. Flirting and sex sure but this was intense. I wanted to melt into him and be part of him. I wanted to be absorbed into his skin and be one person. I had to stay away.

I wanted to talk to him more, hear his voice, and get to know him. Let him get to know me, sit with him and just talk. I wanted to ask questions about him. Listen to him talk and find out who he was, not what he was. I wanted to talk to him again and find out what he liked to do.

I had to stay away and I needed to repeat that mantra. I had to stay away.

Stay away from Kai. And keep repeating that.

I wouldn't have any control with him, alone, I knew that. I knew how I was and this was amplified. There was a knock on my door that made me jump.

"Dinner." Alex's voice demanded from behind the door.

I laid in bed all afternoon and thought about the vampire. Kai. "Coming."

I stood up and walked out to the dining room. I had to control myself.

Inhale, exhale and repeat.

Kai wasn't there. Good. In fact, a lot of people were not there. I sat and took some steaks. Alex added another one. Part of me was sad that Kai wasn't here. I wanted to see him again.

I glared at Alex as he added more steak. It was actually sweet that he was taking care of me like this.

Alex smiled at me.

"You will need it tonight." Alex was entertained that Gibbs just glared at him. None of his pack ever dared to glare at him. Gibbs was different. Alex thought he was perfect for Kai. If he could glare at the Alpha then he could handle a vampire. A grouchy vampire.

"Where is everyone?" I had never seen the dining room so empty. Leah, Tia, Ben and her brothers, Tony and Toby. That was it. Everybody else was gone.

"Some of them leave a little early and they wanted to give you some space tonight. No one wanted to freak you out." Tia answered. She looked at Alex and nodded. Alex nodded back.