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Is this the 'kilig' that they've always said? Bakit sa panaginip ko pa mararamdaman?

"I— ahm I don't know what actually to say." I looked at him, and he's just wearing a pants and white t-shirt but still handsome. A literally greek god! Isn't it illegal? He's just in my dreams, and he can beat those handsome boys, even the actors on the television!

"You don't need to answer it, and just go with me?" He asked and handed me his hand.

I took it and smiled once again.

"Gladly. Anything you want, I'll go with you. Always."

Halos manghinayang ako when I wake up again. There are tears in my cheeks, I felt happy and sad at the same time.

I don't remember what happened next! Why?!

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And as time goes by I know now, I am falling for him— no! I already fell when I saw him in my dreams and saved me. And everyday even if he never appeared in my dreams again and never see him again. Is it because he goes to my dream on his own will because he said he just want to see me— is that the reason why he's not seeing me? It's been what? Two months now that I didn't see him.

Why on earth that I fall for a guy that I only met in my dreams and I didn't know his face, I mean I can't remember when I wake up. I even don't know what's his name. So why him?

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I saw the breath taking view in front of me. I felt the fresh air on my face.

Turned around and I saw a big door in front of me. And it is the entrance of a church.

I looked at myself and my eyes grew bigger, because why am I wearing a wedding dress and holding a boquet of flower?

The door slowly open for me to enter. And there's many people who are important to me, my family, my friends— they are all smiling at me.

And then I looked who's waiting in the aisle  for me. It's him! The man that I've been waiting.

Even if I am here, I can still see his whole face. And he's crying.

Parang may kung anong mainit at bumabara sa lalamunan ko because of what's happening.

I don't know what happened but all I remembered was him taking my hand to wear the ring for me.

I even saw my ring on the middle finger that my mother gave me— it's a ring with a small hour glass. And the ring that he gave me is also a gold ring designed with infinity sign in the middle.

Looking around, I can't help myself but to cry in happiness. This is my wedding dream. I even drew all of this.

"You may now kiss the bride." I heard the Father said.

And I felt his lips met mine. I close my eyes, and it's like everything stops even my heart. I want to stay like this forever.

After that, I looked at him deeply in his eyes.

"What's your name? I already marry you here but I still don't know your name."

"I'm Parker." I bit my lower lip when I heard his name.

"Well Parker. Thank you for everything, but I think we should stop this. Don't see me again, ever." I almost can't breath when I finally said those words.

I saw the sadness appeared on his eyes. I saw the first tear that came in his beautiful eyes, and that's because of me.

My tears flow from my eyes and roll down my cheeks. It's unstoppable.

And as I've said it, my heart says other wise. I wanted to stay with him, I wanted it to be real— and especially I want him to be real.

"Gano'n ba? I c-can do that." I can see the pain in his voice.

"P-Promise?" I asked.

"Promise." And I heard his voice cracked that made my heart break once more.

"You can forget about me, but don't forget that this man is deeply in love with Ashley Rainn." He say my name, and I don't know that saying my name coming from him can be beautiful in my ears.

Then I wake up again, realized everything. Humagulgol ako ng iyak. Ang sakit-sakit pala. Ganito pala kasakit. Ganito pala yung pakiramdam kahit sa paniginip lang nangyari lahat.

I know that my decision was right. He's just in my dream, we can't love each other, we can't embrace each other but he will forever embrace my heart.

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Years had passed, and Parker never visit my dreams again, like he promised me.

But everytime I wake up, I always cry because of the reality that there's no Parker will appeared in my dreams ever again.

I saw the drop of my tears on the paper.

"Wow sino 'yan?! Ang guwapo ah! Saang lupalop mo 'yan nakita o nakilala? Artista ba  'yan bakit hindi ko kilala kung ganyan 'yan kaguwapo! Gosh! Am I already outdated?" I looked at my bestfriend.

She didn't know everything about my dreams, no one knows. So the pain is still in my heart.

I wiped my tears while laughing at her question.

"Sira, hindi. It's just my imagination so I drew it."

"Grabe! Amazing! Kinasal agad kayo ah? Baka crush mo 'yung nasa imagination mo hahaha!" I laughed once again at what she said.

"Parang gano'n na nga."

Ang guwapo mo pala talaga. Akala ko nagbibiro mga description ko sayo sa panaginip kasi hindi ko naman maalala kapag gigising na ako.

And finally, after years I remember it all. His features that I want to see again but it will never happen.

"I love you..." I whispered the word that I will surely regret forever because I never said what I really felt for him.

I looked once again to my drawing where I am wearing a beautiful wedding dress and him wearing a tuxedo as my groom.

He's my husband and I am his wife. We really are destine for each other. We love each other. We marry each other but only in my dreams.

And yes, we're destine for each other but we will never meet in the real world because his only man in my dreams.

And I am wishing that in my next life, I'll meet him, not just in the dream but in the real world.

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—A little bit inspired to my dream, especially the wedding scene.

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HartleyRoses