Poem Cycle

Sand Castle

We were suppose to be together forever.

Your mine and I am yours,

a secret nobody is supposed to know.

A secret it was...always.

You promised to build this sand castle with me to the end.

This is so sad that I only expected that much from you.

I want to go back to a time we were smiling in sincerity.

The moment when everything felt peaceful and happy.

Where we existed with no time constraint.

I should have known you had other intentions.

We were perfect like a flower at its' full bloom.

I forgot that flower dies afterwards with no warning.

Your eyes looked afar, while mine looked only closely.

I definitely looked too closely then needed.

I couldn't understand anything coming out of your mouth.

You put the blame in reverse for everything you did.

You started telling me you couldn't understand me.

You are a liar.

You understood everything, but ignored it.

You and I knew that we were falling apart fast.

I said we need a stronger structure for us to be permanent, 

but you wanted everything to be temporary.

You wanted to wash us away into the ocean.

You and I knew the outcome very well. 

Now, I am all alone with no one to save me. 

You and I know that we were breaking apart.

I couldn't completely break away and say goodbye,

but you could easily with just one big tide.

I remember everything of you and us.

I want to hold on and save us and very little stones that is holding this castle together.

Just a little longer, maybe it will last just a little longer,

so I don't fall apart and fall into a dark abyss too quickly.

I know there was no such thing as a forever,

but I kept believing it.

I needed that lie to save me.

However, you insisted that being blind is what will save me.

Instead it was killing me softly and slowly, making the existing pain excruciatingly painful.

I kept playing with the fire you set,

hoping to control it and even dance with it.

Who knew it would push me 

until I was burned and broken beyond savable.

You are a liar.

I know you are...

I should know you are...

Can't you see me?

I am always here for you.

Can't you hold my hand like we used to?

Did you already forget all your bitter sweet moments with me?

Why did you give me hope and promises in the first place

when you were never going to keep them. 

Our promises are washed by the shores.

The only thing left was the exterior beauty that is untouched by us.

I shouldn't have build our foundation on the sand.

Now I am floating away further away and sinking gradually into the suffocating dark blue. 

Now, our sand castle is ruined. 

You are the worst,

for only thinking about building the sand castle

to only break it so it's unsavable. 

I hate you...