Poem Cycle

Another Movie

It always starts out with our tragedy.

Where I broke us painfully.

Why do I remember everything so clearly?

Why does it always play out the same?

With the same ending as the opening scene.

Her frowning lips that expected the worst.

Her eyes that pleaded me to stay.

Her tears that told me she is moving on.

I broke her first, but why did it shattered me? 

Why does the story never change?

Like an expected cliche.

I erased myself from your memories,

but why am I weeping so pitfully afterwards?

Now I am starting to realize that you aren't there anymore.

The feeling are crashing late.

They seem to settled in permanently with no intentions to leave.

Every moment of us play out like a nonstop loop.

Is this the karma of bringing upon a tragedy to us?

Can someone stop the movie?

It doesn't seem to want to pause or stop for me.

After playing it so many times, I should be used it.

I should be.

I deserve it.

Then, why does it rip my soul out my heart everytime painfully?

Is this called a beautiful tragedy, since I can't escape from our love.

There nothing I can do to change the movie,

but put the blame on me for creating such a tragic story.

This is what I get for ruining everything.

Now, after our breakup,

all we became is a sad movie.

A movie I play on repeat,

as I cry at every part of it

and regret all the choices I came down to.