I am searching everywhere I go
I am searching for a dream that is meant to be mine
I always wonder
Why am I not as good as the other kids
Why am I am lacking every time
Why can't I be good as the other kids
What is wrong with me
I wonder what is the purpose of life
I try not to compare myself with others
But my mind won't listen to me
My heart won't follow my mind
My mind won't follow my heart
What is the reason for this
I'm lost
Why can't I be as outgoing as the other kids
Why am I just that quiet girl
Why can't I be a person that is remembered
What is the purpose of living
I wonder why I am enduring to this day
the next day, the next, next day, and the next, next, next day
Why can't I just let go of everything
Grades
School
Work
skills
desire
I don't know why I am behind as always
I always try to act cool
I try to be quiet and cool
I wonder why I am still enduring all life is spitting out
I guess all I want to do is live
I wonder what I am doing in my life
I wonder what I am holding on for
I am wondering why I am holding on all the things that I don't care about
Maybe it's because I care for it deep in my heart
I am so scared
I am scared to face everything life is throwing at me
I'm lost
I don't know anymore
I feel so depressed everyday
Consuming in the emptiness that takes place inside me rent free
I wonder why I am living now
I wonder why I am even breathing now
I wonder if I would be the same person if I live in a different time and a different place
I don't understand myself anymore
I'm so confused
Why am I so lacking in life?
Someone can you please hold your hand out to me
To save me from the darkness that consumes every single day of my life
I am scared of everything I face
I just want that one person to protect me
To tell me that I will be truly okay
I'm lost
I want to be lost
I want to be found
I can't decided what I want
That is how confused I am with my life
Am I meant to fail
I am trying hard
Is that not good enough for the world
I am waiting for that moment
I guess I am just lacking
I am in a maze everyday
Trying to be free
Trying to make it out safely
But that doesn't seem to be working out for me
I wonder what I care about is what I actually care about
I don't know
When did I become a person like this
A emotionless person with no emotions
Everybody fear me
They fear me because I am quiet and emotionless
Because I don't have a face
Because I hide my true self
Because I am scared to show my true self
I don't know what I am scared of
I'm lost
I don't know what way to go to
I don't know how to control myself
I am scared that if I don't contain my feelings
Then I will be vulnerable and broken
I don't ever want to be feel these feelings
I am unsure now
I am not sure anymore
I feel like I am walking in a desert with no end
I feel like I am walking a road with no destination
I don't know what to do with my life
I am lost and scared
It's okay if the world pass by me like I am a nobody
I will stop the world
I will tell it stop and look at me
Even though it probably won't listen
I will try
I guess that is life
I guess life is all about being lost
Never meant to be found
Learning to find yourself
I don't know anymore
I know one thing though
I'm lost
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