Poem Cycle

She's not bad

Don't ask me why

I am enduring to the very end

I am holding back the tears

I am holding myself as tight as I can before I break apart

I am trying my best to not forget 

I am trying to protect her to the very end

I  can remember all the details of her

The way she walked

The way she turned back towards me

How I see her nervous every time she was around me

Her smile, she always shined brightly

Always enveloping her warmth around me

I am sorry to make her cry every day

I am sorry to keep all our memories up to this day

I know she left for a reason

I know I caused pain to her

I am still somehow always smiling when thinking of her

To the end, I want to be in her memories forever 

Sometimes I want her still remember me

She's not bad

She's not bad

I hope she doesn't cry because of me anymore

I know I will cause pain to her

I know I will hurt her

So I hope she endures and stays away

Please omit me 

I hope she leaves comfortably

I don't want to keep looking for her

But my heart won't listen to my mind

I keep having this regret inside my heart

My secretly hidden heart

My secretly beating heart is always looking for her

I keep wanting to see her no matter how many times I said no to myself

I want to keep seeing her smile in front of me

I want to protect that smile on her face

She's not bad 

She's not bad

I believe that 

I know that 

I try to hide my heart

I tried to hide it deep in my heart for her

I said goodbye to her..... for her

Please put away those tears for me

I can't hurt her anymore

I can't cause any more pain

I can't protect her from all this pressure

She's not bad

It's just I am bad

For being different from her....

Don't ask me why