Poem Cycle

Everything Remains with Me

I hear the same door sound 

When you left me in tears

I tried to love enough to not hurt myself

I knew we won't last long

My heart hurt a bit too much

I didn't expect you leave me this fast

I reminded myself not to give out too much love

Still everything remains with me

Our memories always seemed to remain with me

I always go back to the good times

I shouldn't have you trust you too much 

I just couldn't control myself

I am really sorry

Why am I saying sorry

When you left me

The only thing remained with me is our memories

Our history 

Our past

Our love

Our happy moments

But it's okay 

I loved you enough not to get hurt

It's endurable 

I can handle the pain

It's not as bad as I imagined

I just regret some things

I shouldn't have argued with you that much

I should have been nicer to you

I should have shown more love to you

I wished I could hug you more

kiss you more

I am so sorry

Because I couldn't grab you 

hold on to you 

This is all cause of my strong pride

This is all cause of my ego 

I should have stopped  you 

I knew our goodbyes are ahead of me

It's okay I still remember our memories

Everything remains with me

I can still touch our love

I can see it in my head

I can live without you

I am stronger than you think

I never knew how to say goodbye back then

I didn't know how to catch you 

I was scared 

That you were going to reject me

That you were going to reach into my heart

I was calculating our love

I had everything planned out

I am so sorry for being selfish 

For only thinking about myself

 It's okay everything remains with me

I hope next time

If there is a next time

That I will reach out to you

Let you in my heart

Not let you leave me like last time

It's okay with me now

I still have a grasp our our love

Everything still remains with me