Poem Cycle

Bye

Your words swirled in my brain.

I couldn't process any of it.

It was more like I didn't want to process it.

My mind went blank and my body went numb,

as you tell me you were getting married.

Your eyes told me everything.

Everything I needed to know to solve the problem.

You straight out even told me the answer to everything.

To mend our relationship and continue forward.

But, despite giving me the cheat sheet, I didn't listen, because I am a fool.

I refused and put on a smile.

You stared at me waiting for my response.

A response I tried to delay as long as possible.

 Even if it was just mere seconds.

You probably knew my answer, so why are you looking at me with expectancy? 

I told you my answer and you impassively stared at me with shock.

You looked at me like a monster.

Did you forget, I am a monster.

I always been one.

It's better if you let me got. 

I clearly remember how your silent, glossy eyes begged me to change my answer.

Me, clinging will change nothing, but taint our wonderful love.

I want our love to be a beautiful memory. 

It's just a moment when the sadness will wash us.

The pain will dry up and fade away with time and change.

Even though this pain at the moment is worse than death, I will always love you.

But, I won't be better than him.

I never will be. 

I'm a coward and liar.

That is why I will let you go.